Lately I've been bitter. Really bitter. I've been such a b!tch to everyone who has the ill fate of being around me. It seems like I can't even help being mean, but it's not that I can't help myself I no longer want to. I don't care. I no longer care about anything. I feel like I'm even pulling away from God because I'm so angry at everyone and everything and myself that I don't think God will listen to my prayers. I even feel angry when I think about praying. I can't talk to God" in that tone". I only have one emotion and the only way to express it is to scream, punch something or cry, or all of the preceding at the same time. I seriously need a vacation. Some time ALONE. Really alone. I just want to be alone.
* Things are bad when the only thing that makes me less angry is listening to "3" by Britney Spears. *
You said it, maybe you should take sometime away from everything and everyone, relax, breathe...sort it all out.
ReplyDeleteI know God understands all the emotions...just take time away.
Hope you feel better. :)
we all have our moments.
ReplyDeleteam glad to be here.