DREAMER

2011-06-22T01:44:00.001-04:00

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Training to be godly

2011-01-22T12:32:00.001-05:00

1. Begin the day with God.
- Psalm 118:24
"This is the day that the Lord has made; we will rejoice and
be glad in it."

2. Take care of your body.
- Your body is the temple of the Lord.

3. LIVE LIFE HAPPILY!
- Psalm 121:1-2
" I will lift up mine eyes to the hills from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth"

4. Live life to your full potential.
- Psalm 139:14
" ... I am fearfully and wonderfully made" (PRAISE GOD)

5. Make your life count.
- Don't count the days of your life but make your life count!

'>Look what I think

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2010-10-30T20:22:00.000-04:00

It's so hard to let go once your heart is convinced you are in the right. Even if all logic tells you there's nowhere to go but deep down in that dark place where loneliness, sadness and pain lives. Once you are overcome with emotion, emotion so deep it has physical symptoms, it's almost impossible to give up without fighting for what you want, what you believe in. You no longer worry about how broken you will be if you don't succeed. You no longer think about how empty you will feel. All that matters is giving it your all.

Enjoy the moment, don't think about the past or worry about the future. Enjoy the here and now. This is your life, live it so that when all is said and done you won't be left with the thought of 'what if'.

God has a plan for all of us, and he promised it would be for good. Think on that.

Random thoughts 09/10

2010-09-26T14:50:00.000-04:00

I love hiking! Who would've thought I was an 'outdoorsy' kinda girl!?
I miss my long, red hair. Since I can't let my hair grow in 30 mins I'm gonna have to just be satisfied with short,red hair.
Good friends are hard to find but once you've found them your life will never be the same. (btw, I miss you Scotchie)
I am now a working girl! for a while anyway...
Medical school applications are so much stress!
I still love my life no matter how screwed up some moments may be.
God is ALWAYS good!

Life

2010-09-11T22:16:00.002-04:00

I used to know who I am. I used to know who I wanted to be. Now, I'm not so sure. This confusion was supposed to come when I was in high school. Why the delay? Maybe this is my mid-life crisis. Hmmm... well whatever happens happens.

As of right now I'm just gonna go with the flow and see where it leads. However, since I am me, whoever that might be, I'm coming up with a plan. This I know is something I do. I am going to re-learn French and be fluent in the language by the end of the year. And since thinking in school years is another thing I do this means that by June 30th 2011, I will be able to write an entire blog post in French, a grammatically correct blog post entirely en francais.

The things we do for the ones we love.

2010-09-06T18:52:00.000-04:00

I have to start working out and cut out my excessive consumption of cheese before my brother starts to disown me. He keeps complaining that I'm getting too fat. It's true. As a result of his constant badgering I have started the Jullian Michaels 30-day shred program (I'm on day 2) even though I'm not a fan of Jullian Michaels. I am so appalled at a comment she made a couple months ago about not wanting to have a baby because she doesn't want to be fat! Seriously?! She's so superficial and selfish! Anywho, I have heard her program works so I'm giving it a try. Let's see if I can really lose 20 lbs in 30 days. I will be happy with 10 lbs because I don't know how the whole giving up cheese thing is gonna work out... Wish me luck!

Shameless

2010-09-05T12:05:00.004-04:00

My room is overflowing with clothes and shoes and still I can't find anything to wear! This is crazy! I need a bigger closet. I also need to get rid of the clothes I don't wear anymore and will never wear again. And then... I need to go shopping :)

Random thoughts.

2010-08-25T23:25:00.004-04:00

Was just browsing old posts and saw some where I wrote down random thoughts, those were the best depiction of my psyche at that time in my life. I think I will make a practice to post random thoughts at least once per month. Starting today.

1. First and foremost, GOD IS STILL GOOD!!!

2. Sadly, men still SUCK!

3. Chilling in your workout clothes after working out is gross. (heading to the shower as soon as I get done with this).

4.Twitter is as bad as I thought it would be. Possibly worst.

5.Ladies, your man will NEVER truly understand you. Deal with it.

6. Blogging is still therapeutic.

7. Yep, I still love him! (mon ami)

Eminem ft.Rihanna LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE

2010-08-24T10:48:00.003-04:00

(chorus)
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

(it's not ok. i can't stand the way it hurts.)

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
S[he] resuscitates me
S[he] fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I'm leaving you

No you ain't

Come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

It's so insane

Cause when it's going good
It's going great

I'm Superman

With the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick

Of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit 'em

You push

Pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down

Pin 'em

So lost in the moments

When you're in 'em

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin' over

But you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine

But your temper's just as bad

As mine is

You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn't you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much
To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed

I'll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

And so the story begins...

2010-08-15T13:33:00.003-04:00

Woke up, turned off the fan, pulled the sheets over my shoulders and went to back to sleep. I picked up right where I left off before the chill of the air in my room distracted me. My dream continued to feed the hunger in me. For a second I thought it was real. I could feel you, smell you, taste the sweetness of your lips as they grazed mine. I fell deeper. I could see the love in your eyes. My lips curved into a smile. You pulled me closer. I could feel your heart beating in sync with mine. I am asleep, but not completely. I am thinking about how disappointed I will be when I am finally awakened to reality. I fight these thoughts off. Trying to stay in this moment, with you, forever. I can now hear the rain pelting on the roof. Music coming in through the slightly opened door. The struggle is harder. I don't want to leave. Don't want to let you go. Why aren't you fighting with me? Help me! Why are you letting go? Don't let go...

ahhhhhhhhhh... sea breeze

2010-06-16T23:52:00.003-04:00

VACATION OFFICIALLY STARTS ON FRIDAY!!!!! WOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Since school ended I've been on 'staycation', which is fun, but as hermit-like as I am excited to leave my haven and go mingle with people for a while. I'm even more excited said mingling gets to take place in Florida. Did I hear something about white sand beaches and hot half naked guys? What a life :)

While on vacation though I have work to do. I need to resist eating meat! It has been sooo easy to resist since I quit eating meat 3 weeks ago (just felt like it) but now that jerk chicken and curry goat is in the picture I'm starting to think I'm gonna need some help staying on track.

Also, I plan on beginning a workout routine while in Florida. If hot girls in bikinis and hotter guys staring at them with googly eyes can't get me motivated nothing will.

It feels so good to blog again. I should visit more often. I know I keep saying that... damn facebook!

Anywho, next time I'll try to sound more intelligent :)

Peace!

2010-06-04T13:54:00.001-04:00

"If you care about someone, you need to tell them. You need to show them. Otherwise, you might never get the chance. Every once in a while God winks at you."

- Total eclipse of the heart.

Try to love again

2010-02-16T21:24:00.004-05:00

Lately, I've been retracting and picking up some of my old habits. Before, you sigh the sigh that says "she has failed" hear me out. I have started writing again, listening to love songs and singing out loud to anyone who wants to listen, watching romantic comedies, working out at least once every 2 weeks (great improvement!), wearing what I want regardless of how others might perceive me and most importantly giving my pillow the loving it that it deserves. I'm no longer angry. No longer wishing things were different. I am happy. I like this. I like dreaming about what's to come while I enjoy what is already here.

Thank God for romantic movies!

If you haven't seen these movies I think you should

5.It's Complicated

4. Enchanted

3. Maid in Manhattan

2. Before Sunset

1. Before Sunrise (I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!!!!)

*Soundtrack*

First cut is the deepest- Sheryl Crow

Children's Thoughts on Love

2010-02-14T11:38:00.002-05:00

"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something,
but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful."
... Manuel, age 8

"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is pretty good too."
...Greg, age 8

"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with
how you smell...that's why perfume and deodorant is so popular."
...Mae, age 9

"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something she likes to eat.
French fries usually works for me."
... Bart, age 9

"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might get attention,
but attention ain't the same thing as love."
... Alonzo, age 9 "

When a person gets kissed for the first time, they fall down
and they don't get up for at least an hour."
... Wendy, age 8

"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't
already in your family, it doesn't hurt to be beautiful."
...Anita, age 8

"I look at kissing like this: Kissing is fine if you like it,
but it's a free country and nobody should be forced to do it."
...Michael, age 8

"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind ...
Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch."
... Natalie, age 9

"I'm not rushing into being in love.
I'm finding fourth grade hard enough."
...Regina, age 10

*I found this somewhere on the web. Don't you just LOVE children!*

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU AND YOURS

No worries

2010-02-01T22:03:00.005-05:00

Tomorrow I have my first post rotation exam and I haven't read one page of notes yet, and I'm not worried. I don't think it can be that bad. After all its pass/fail, I just need a 75 :)
I have a new hair color, REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT!
It's almost Valentine's day and this year unlike last year and the year before and the year before that, I'm not gonna boycott the festivities. I think it's time for a change. So I'm gonna buy my family and friends roses and chocolate (the day after when they go on sale... no need to over do things).
Four months til graduation!!!
LIFE IS GOOD!!!

HOPES AND DREAMS

2010-01-21T21:19:00.003-05:00

persianflower10:

because there is no mr darsey

i seriously wanna be liz bennett

Sent at 9:16 PM on Thursday

me: how abt u be '*******'

and find a nice guy?

huh?

wouldnt that be better

1st of all liz is poor...

darsey is socially retarded

and he is NOT good looking

persianflower10: darseeeeey is amazing

everyone has their faults

me: although in the last scene he is dreamy

persianflower10: darseeeeey is amazing

whatttever

me: only because he has love in his eyes

persianflower10: awwwwwwwwwwww

i know he does, doesnt he?

so damn sweet

*** this is what romantic movies does to young girls. now my dear friend wants mr.darsey, a fictional character. sad. very sad.***

hIgH

2010-01-09T22:24:00.003-05:00

I have been trying to do my nails with smudging them for almost 2 weeks now; after over 50 attempts I am yet to have a perfect manicure. It's starting to be very depressing.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I have started my rotations and I'm super excited! Being in the lab is sooooo much fun! I could totally be a medical technologist, but I still want to move on to medical school.

ON AN EVEN BRIGHTER SIDE, I have a new crush, I think, a very illegal crush. He is in high school... FAIL... I'm going to jail (that rhymes) but he is sooooo cute and adorable. I spend my time in church admiring him. Yes I said church. Don't judge me. LOL

As you might be able to tell I'm a little high tonight. I guess it's from sniffing all that nail polish.

Have a great night peeps!

Single girl new years resolution

2010-01-06T04:30:00.002-05:00

This year my new year resolution was not to make one so i wouldn't fail. Guess what? I failed at that too! sigh... so here is my new years resolutionS (lots of them) for this year. And not surprisingly they have to do with finding a man. how lame is that? fail again.

1. Join a co-ed softball team.
2. Never leave the house wearing sweatpants.
3. Use eye cream every single night!!
4. Apply more SPF.
5. Don’t go grocery shopping in big, baggy shirts.
6. Wear high heels more often.
7. Smile!
8. Drink less.
9. Eat less junk.
10. Say yes to being set up.

11. Say no to men who are only out for themselves.

12. Don’t waste more than one date on a bad prospect.

13. Pursue hobbies.
14. Exercise more.
15. Read more books.
16. Don’t date anyone under 28 or 29. (under 25 for me)
17. Stop looking at the 21-year-olds. (sigh... )
18. Borrow a dog and go to a dog park.
19. Work on savings, 401K, etc.
20. Learn to cook (argh).
21. Keep my room clean.
22. Try another dating web site.
23. Move to the suburbs where guys want to settle down.
24. Be sweet and don’t criticize men.
25. Stop cracking knuckles.

I'm adopting this list. lol. everything that is bolded and in red is what i'm gonna do.

* this is borrowed from a blog on yahoo by Erin Meanley*

IM COMING BACK!!!

2009-12-28T22:13:00.004-05:00

I have been inspired to write again.

Just last night I was talking with a friend and he asked why I haven't blogged in a while. My answer to his question was simply "I have no inspiration". Well it was more like "I typically whine about boys and school and now I have no boys to whine about so I have nothing to say".

Today, I have boys to whine about. BUT, I shall not whine. I will, instead, make a pledge to come back to blogworld in the upcoming year. NEW & IMPROVED!

I've missed it here.

Now I'm off to see what everyone has been up to! (is that stalking?)

*wonder if anyone else missed me....hmmmmmm....*

MAD BLACK WOMAN

2009-11-16T19:13:00.004-05:00

Lately I've been bitter. Really bitter. I've been such a b!tch to everyone who has the ill fate of being around me. It seems like I can't even help being mean, but it's not that I can't help myself I no longer want to. I don't care. I no longer care about anything. I feel like I'm even pulling away from God because I'm so angry at everyone and everything and myself that I don't think God will listen to my prayers. I even feel angry when I think about praying. I can't talk to God" in that tone". I only have one emotion and the only way to express it is to scream, punch something or cry, or all of the preceding at the same time. I seriously need a vacation. Some time ALONE. Really alone. I just want to be alone.

* Things are bad when the only thing that makes me less angry is listening to "3" by Britney Spears. *

sigh...

2009-11-04T15:48:00.009-05:00

Everyone seems to be afraid of falling in love and (and/or) allowing someone to fall in love with them.

Have we gotten to the point that we are all scared to death of a broken heart? Or is it that people just don't care anymore. Is it both?

Being in love can be a very wonderful thing. Those that are truly in love, or have been in the past will tell you about the intensity of the joy that it brings. They will explain that it is like none other. Having your heartbroken by the one you love seems to have an even greater impact. It brings you so close to the ground that many wish they could just seep under without anyone even noticing because you'd rather go without being thrown a 'pity party'.

It seems that after being in love and experiencing its pleasure, then being forced to deal with the pain of having the love taken away, no one wants to take the chance of allowing themselves to feel the bliss of being in love as a result of the fear of being thrown back into a state of despair.

I've heard it said many times before ,"once bitten, twice shy", this seems to be the theme of people who have loved and lost. But what about " if at first you don't succeed, brush yourself off and try again".

Happy

2009-10-24T18:41:00.001-04:00

*Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So any turns that i can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Do the right thing

2009-10-03T19:44:00.002-04:00

How can I do the right thing when I don't know what the right thing is?!

Waiting to exhale...

2009-09-18T19:08:00.006-04:00

It's somewhat relieving to know that I'm not the only one that has had to endure this pain but it also makes me sad to know other people have to feel this way. I hate this roller coaster that I'm on. I wish I could just not care anymore so the pain would go away. They say time heals all wounds but this one seems to be getting wider with every passing day. Until the day I get over you (I don't even want to get with you) and move on I am here sitting in my room, thinking bout you, almost wishing I never met you.

"Never again" that's what I said to myself

I never wanna feel kind of pain again boy

Just when I think it's over

Just when I think it's through

I find myself right back in love with you

So why does it hurt so bad oh baby

Why do I feel so sad

Thought I was over you

I keep crying

When I don't love you

So why does it hurt so bad

I thought I had let you go

You could

Gotta get you outta my head

Boy you hurt me so bad

(from Whitney Houston- Why does it hurt so bad)

you

2009-09-13T18:32:00.004-04:00

i want you

only you

i keep coming back to you

what is it with you

i guess its just you being you

i love you

Can't eat, Can't sleep, Not falling in love!

2009-09-03T08:05:00.004-04:00

For the past couple days I've only been eating to stay alive. I have to force myself to put the food in my mouth, chew and swallow. As if this isn't bad enough, I can't sleep. You'd think that since I can't sleep I would stay up late and be productive, or at least pass the time on facebook. This is not the case. I stay in bed, eyes closed, dreaming, but not sleeping. I have intense headaches probably due to the lack of sleep and maybe to the fact that I'm dehydrated. The only liquids to pass my lips is water and mouthwash I use to rinse. I don't know how I to fix my current "im falling in love symptoms" especially since it's not due to the usual cause. Hopefully it will all go away soon and I can go back to being normal, as relative as that might be.

p.s. Love kinda stinks sometimes, doesn't it? just sayin...

Still...

2009-08-24T07:00:00.004-04:00

After going through this many times in my life, I still get butterflies in my stomach. Not becasue I am afraid. This is the result of overwhelming joy.

Today is the first day of school. 4th yr in university. Stop looking at me like that! School is fun...on occasions.

I still pack my bag overnight, think about what I should wear, how I'm going to comb my hair. I even think about what I'll have for lunch.

I still wake up hours before its time to get ready and stare at the clock with anticipation.

Thoughts of what the year will be like, all the things I'll learn, all the people I will meet, how much I'll long for the next break after the first week flow in my mind.

There is a pleasant smile fixed on my lips.

This is year I vow to do my best. Try to limit the procrastination. Maybe I'll leave the latter for another time.

HERE'S TO ANOTHER GREAT YEAR!!!

CHEERS

*p.s.*

As I wrote this is was listening to Pandora radio. These people know the inner working of my mind. They know exactly what to play. Five stars for Pandora!!!

Never forget your worth

2009-08-17T14:24:00.001-04:00

By the time the Lord made woman he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared to him and said, “Why are you spending so much time on this one?”
The Lord answered, “Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 moveable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she will do everything with only two hands.”
The angel was astounded at the requirements. “Only two hands? No way! And that’s just on the standard model? That’s too much work for one day; wait until tomorrow to finish.”
“But I won’t” the Lord protested. “I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick and can work 18 hour days.”
The angel moved closer and touched the woman. “But you have made her so soft, Lord.”
“She is soft” the Lord agreed, “but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.”
“Will she be able to think?” asked the angel.
The Lord replied, “Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate.”
The angel then noticed something, and reached out, touched the woman’s cheek. “Oops it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.”
“That’s not a leak” the Lord corrected, “that’s a tear!”
“What’s the tear for?” the angel asked.
The Lord said, “the tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride.”
The angel was impressed. “You are a genius Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing.”
And she is.
Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and carry their burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don’t take “no” for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a wedding or a birth. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours. They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or email to show you how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their friends and family. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
However, if there is one flaw in women,
it is that they forget their worth.

*inspirational forwarded message*

almost defeated...

2009-07-08T20:48:00.003-04:00

I haven't posted anything in a while because I've been busy studying for the MCAT, thinking about studying for the MCAT or convincing myself that I should be studying for the MCAT.

At this point, I am not studying for the MCAT. I am, however, freaking out about the Phsyics II class I am taking. Today was the third class and I am completely lost! I found it hard, in fact, IMPOSSIBLE to comprehend what the professor was lecturing about, and I have a test tomorrow. I have put off taking this class for 4 years because I knew it's not one of my strong points but now I'm thinking I might have to change my career and life plans because of this stupid class! Why on earth do I need to know any Physics?!

I am so frustrated now. I just want to go to sleep and pray that when I wake up this will all go away.

I would drop the class and go to plan B (skip medical school and be a physician assistant) but I can't tell my parents that I'm going to waste over $1,000 (it's too late to get a refund for the class and I already paid for my MCAT too...).

What am I going to do?

I need a tutor and some help from God realllllly bad!

:'(

Live like you were dying!

2009-06-21T17:27:00.003-04:00

i've been doing crazy things all wknd in the name of being bold. i now know why people do some of the outrageous things they do. the adrenaline rush is awesome!!! (after u get the courage to do it and before u start worrying abt the consequences) but i also now know that staying in ur comfort zone is ok because in the morning even if u have regrets you won't have to worry abt broken bones or a broken reputation. hopefully when all is said and done my bones and reputation will still be in tip top shape! LOL

***soundtrack***

1. Calle Ocho (I know you want me) - Pitbull
2. Love Games - Lady Gaga
3. Live like you were dying - Tim McGraw

God loves you and is with you!

2009-06-13T13:56:00.003-04:00

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall filled.

Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

REJOICE AND BE EXCEEDINGLY GLAD: for GREAT IS YOUR REWARD in heaven: for so persecuted they the prohphets which were before you.

Matthew 5 vs 3-12

blogging...

2009-06-11T11:35:00.006-04:00

if you have been reading my blog for awhile you will know that there are 2 guys that I have very strong feelings for, they are both 2 of my best friends (they know about each other but don't know each other...) and that i seem to fluctuate between the 2. crappy life, i know.

in the past 2 days i've had 'serious talks' with both of them.

friend #1 said we'll only be friends.

friend #2 basically said deny God and i'll marry u.

FML

during the convo with friend # 1 he was describing the guy i should give my heart to, the guy that will do good to me. all roads led to friend # 2.

i dont know why i'm blogging or what i'm saying. but i do know that God and I will be talking abt this as soon as I get to heaven.

till then i'm gonna keep on believing that God has someone in store for me, like friend #2 described "just like me (talking abt himself...) but religious".

Its time....

2009-06-09T20:49:00.002-04:00

What do you do when the one thing you need to do is the one thing you don't want to do?

How can you let go when all you want to do is hold on?

I really do LOVE SEX!!!

2009-05-31T22:08:00.004-04:00

I've thought about it, dreamt about it, read about it, talked about it with my friends but I can't talk about it with the one I should be able to.

Just like a lot of people my age, sex is one of my fave topics :-) After all it is quite interesting. It's all over, EVERYTHING can be related to sex. Its like ... I don't know... it's hard to explain.

This is a weird post... why am I talking about this? sigh....

Well, I can say anything to my friends and not feel 'weird' about it. But I tried to talk about it with... yeh him... and I acted like a freaking 6th grader (from the days when I was in the 6th grade, not these days). How embarassing!

I also have a phobia of kissing, I'm 20! Isn't that weird?

I think I have intimacy issues...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feasting on Soul Food

2009-05-17T20:30:00.007-04:00

I was just at my dear friend Scotchie's blog and as I read her post I was reminded of what a great remedy music was for any and every ache, and I needed something to ease my pain so I decided to revert to doing two of my favourite things. Listening to love songs and writing.

So as I listen to this sountrack (Leaving nothing unsaid) that I stole from Scotchie a couple years ago and let the music take me away, I will write about whatever comes to mind...

1. Colour of Love - Boys II Men

Strange enough this song reminds me of Scotchie. LOL. There is a quote that says maybe your girlfriends are your soulmate and guys are just people to have fun with, with every passing day my belief that this statement is completely true increases.

2. Come a little closer- Brandy

I haven't had a lot of people leave me but for some unknown reason it seems like every time I get close to someone I have to leave. :-(

3. The only one for me - Brian McKnight

Yes, Mr. Big... we both know you are the only one for me. "I want still, I always will, cause you're the only one for me".

4. Still - Tamia

my prayer...

5. Trippin - Toni Braxton

Does this mean if you don't fight then you don't really know if your love is real?

6. Charlene - Anthony Hamilton

... you dont know what you have till it's gone...

7. Where will you go - Babyface

This is for you again Mr.Big.

8. Nothing - Brandy

On behalf of my sidekick im dedicating this one to the one that has her heart.

9. I wanna love you - Donnell Jones

Need I say anything?

10. Am I worth it - Heather Headley

Am I worth it? :-/

11. Wings of forgiveness - India Arie

--- same as # 8---

12. Lucky charm - Jagged Edge

On behalf of Daniel i'm dedicating this to Trudy (especially since she loved J.E so much)

13. Crazy - KC & JoJo

I can't think, think about this crazy day

I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately (crazy baby)

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby (I don't know what to do)

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately (crazy, crazy, crazy)

I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy) when I can touch you

Crazy, crazy (I'm going crazy) when I can hold you

Crazy, crazy, (I'm going crazy) when I can see you again

(Said I'm going crazy)

think they need some more crazy 's' to cover me.... missing you terribly Mr.Big!

14. I wish - R.Kelly

where'd this come from Scotchie?

15. Why ask Why - Tamia

Mr.Big, you never have to doubt the love I have for you. I am and will forever be completely and truly and deeply in love with you.

16. Supposed to be - Toni Braxton

;-)

***satisfied***

How does it feel to be in love?

2009-05-06T21:49:00.003-04:00

friend: nahjaj how does it feel to be in love?

me: it feels like... u know how it feels to be walking on the beach with the sea breeze blowing in ur face and there are laughing children running around and lovers holding hands and smiling at each other? its better than that !

friend: lmao, that was a very random description

I find it very hard to put into words the way I feel when I think about him. The feelings are ... there I go fighting to come up with words that will at least attempt to do justice to the marvelous things I feel.

So... can you describe How it feels to be in love?

10 greatest loves!

2009-04-22T21:44:00.003-04:00

My bedroom and all the things in it. I especially love my bed, pillows and blankets :-)
My cell phone, I love that I can text/call those dearest to me at almost anytime.
My laptop, without it my life would be incomplete.
My car, even though I use you and never feed or clean you I still love you.
My pillow, I really love my pillow.
My soft comfy black jacket that feels like a hug... ahhhhhhh.
My poetry book, thanks for keeping my secrets.
My wonderful friends! Thanks for always being there.
My family, especially my parents and little brother.
Neville :-)
GOD, thanks for keeping your promise. You have never left me nor forsaken me :-)

*This is obviously from least to most. Had to save the best for last.

** To Neville - no matter how hard I try, I can never stop loving you! (this is one thing i dont mind failing at)

wish me luck!!!

2009-04-18T22:16:00.004-04:00

If you found out today was your last day on earth how would you feel? Are there things you will wish you would've done? Things you would've said? Are there things you wished you didn't do? Things you didnt say?

I keep telling myself I need to leave my comfort zone and go out and explore the world without my leash that prevents me from going too far. I need to break the chains that tie me to the door and prevent me from taking risks. It is time to overcome the fear that keeps me in my corner with my hands over my face hoping that 'IT' will go away and I won't have to face it.

I have tired so many times to step out and I have in some cases but I keep coming back. Now that I've learned that I might not be able to escape the restraints of my comfort zone, I have decided to settle for taking vacations. So now I'm trying to build up the courage to step out and grab something (someone) I want and take them back with me.

I don't want to die with regrets, but if I have to have regrets I'd rather it be that I did something than that I never even tried.

Think on these things.

2009-03-20T16:51:00.005-04:00

Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.

Sometimes it is hard to be nice to peolpe when you are facing problems or if they are being unkind to you. But you must always remember to 'do unto others as you would have them do unto you'.

A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

Think before you speak!

If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep.

(I'm gonna need to work on this)

Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

Smile :-)

The best vitamin for making friends..... B1.

You reap what you sow.

The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.

Dream big! Aim for the highest achievable goals.

The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge.

Let go and let God deal with it.

If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.

Ideas won't work unless 'you' do.

Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open.

The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.

The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

As long as you have breath... there is hope!

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!

SLOW FADE

2009-03-07T22:50:00.002-05:00

by Casting Crowns

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what you see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

Wrong choice?

2009-03-04T21:23:00.004-05:00

Choosing to hide away and not deal with problems is usually a bad choice. But in some cases hiding/shying away could be the solution to the problem.

I'm still not sure as to wheter or not this is a bad choice. I have decided that in order to bring this falling back in love with mon ami to to an end I should also halt our friendship, in other words I'm avoiding him as much as possible so I won't be reminded of how awesome he is. However, I don't think this is a good approach since I still have to see him everyday and he's been so wonderful to me I don't want to be mean to him but I can't seem to pull off this avoiding him thing without being a bitch.

What should I do?!!!

I need help!!!

*why couldn't I still just be in love with the idea of being in love?

My FML story

2009-03-01T15:56:00.008-05:00

Have you ever visited the website fmylife.com? It's pretty cool. When you feel like your life is messed up just go on over and read about people with really messed up lives. Some stories are funny and some are just... sad.

However, when you have a story that is worthy to be posted on fmylife.com, nothing, ABSOLUTELY nothing can cheer you up.

So, here is my fmylife story.

On Friday, for some unknown reason I was completely and totally crushing on a friend of mine. Well, if you have been around here for awhile you will know who I'm talking about. This friend has been the topic of numerous my posts, anything involving 'mon ami'.

Anywho... like I was saying, I was really loving this here dude on Friday so much so that my arms kept trying to hug him. Just when I finally decided to let my arms do their thing, his girlfriend called. FML #1.

On Saturday, I really missed this here dude so I decided to talk to him. So I go online and say hi. He responds we exchange a few sentences then he seemed to disappear, so I said 'later' and left. Guess he didn't want to talk. FML#2.

Sunday, I rise with the morning sun, there were no birds singing outside my window but I didn't think much of it. I start studying and waited for this here dude to come online so we could talk. Things are going ok. We aren't really talking but I wasn't missing him. I was alright. Another friend comes online and in our convo decides it would be a good idea to tell me that this here dude and his girl celebrated their anniversary the day before. I am officially depressed. The information was supposed to make me not want him anymore. FAIL.

I still love him. FML #3.

Three strikes you are out. :'(

*FML - fuck my life.

Feel free to find this amusing. I might some time in the future.

HAVE A BETTER DAY THAN I AM!!!

Midnight thoughts of you....

2009-02-20T00:03:00.002-05:00

untitled

to love and be loved is the greatest feeling ever
it takes you to the top of the highest mountains
and throws you down into the deepest valleys
but when all is said and done
theres nothing that can compare
to the feeling i feel

whenever you are here.

NJ.

Perfection in the midst of imperfection

2009-02-14T18:36:00.013-05:00

As I stand here before you today

Looking into your eyes

I see love like I've never seen it before

The smile upon your face

That cause wrinkles at the corners of your lips;

I see, Imperfection in the midst of perfection.

You take my hand

Say the words I've long wished to hear

Joy and fear saturate my being

I open my mouth and fight to speak

Words that are punctuated by sobs;

I hear, Imperfection in the midst of perfection.

This love we have created

This love that withstands all

This love that helps me rise

This love that remains true

This love that is you.

I feel, Perfection in the midst of imperfection.

Happy Valentine's Day Babe. I love you today, tomorrow and forever.

N.J.

He's just not that into you

2009-02-09T20:26:00.006-05:00

Once upon a summer day, in a far way state, a dear friend handed me a pretty pink and green book. As she handed me the book she said, "You really should read this. It might help". I was excited to see what wonderful stories and lessons this little pink and green book had in store for me. Then my eyes caught the title, 'He's just not that into you'. I looked up at this dear friend with a confused and somewhat sad expression and mumbled "who's not into me?". She responsed "him" and pointed to the very handsome guy sitting at the circulation desk in the library. The guy who had been winking and smiling at me for over a month but had not asked me out. This confused and saddened me even more so I said "I don't want him. But...why isn't he?". She put her arm around my shoulders and said "just read the book."

That night I spent hours reading this book that I had now deemed 'evil' because of its brutally honest information. When I finally read the last word of the last sentence of the last paragraph on the last page I realized that my friend was right, he was just not into me. This depressed me.

The day after I was introduced to thebook I returned it to my friend and vowed to never love again. I decided I'd be single forever.

Everytime I hear those words , 'he's just not that into you', whether it's a line in a movie, a quote in a book, or it's being said to a poor heartbroken girl, I see the very handsome guy at the circulation desk smiling at me and I feel sick.

Why do guys play with our feelings? Why can't they just be real?

I can handle the truth, we (girls) all can. And in this case, the sooner we learn the truth the better. So go ahead, lay it all out. Don't feel bad for us because we will soon be over you!

P.S.

The movie 'He's just not that into you' that is based on this very informative book is now in theathres (at least in the US), go see it! My girlfriends and I went to see the movie today. It was pretty good. I didn't really appreciate the fact that it had a typical fairytale ending but I can live with it (deep down somewhere I'm glad it did Keeping hope alive....).

FREE TO BE ME!!!

2009-02-06T20:27:00.002-05:00

At twenty years of age i'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But you've already won the battle
And you've got great plans for me
Though i can`t always see

(chorus)

`Cause i got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own i'm so clumsy
But on your shoulders i can see
I'm free to be me

When i was just a girl i thought i had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and i'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes i would doubt

(chorus)

And you`re free to be you
Sometimes i believe that i can do anything
Yet other times i think i've got nothing good to bring
But you look at my heart and you tell me
That i've got all you seek
And it`s easy to believe
Even though

(chorus)

By Francesca Battistelli

Struggling to keep my sanity

2009-02-04T19:44:00.005-05:00

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Naresh
2. Nahja
3. Savvy
4. Squirrel

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. St.Ann, Jamaica
2.Mandeville, Jamaica
3. Brunswick, GA
4. Laurel, MD

C) 4 noises that drive you crazy:
1. a weird sound my brother makes especially to annoy me.
2. my alarm
3. sirens
4. helicopters

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. Serendipity
2. Music and Lyrics
3. The Gods Must Be Crazy I&II
4. Rush Hour 3

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. HOUSE!!!!
2. NCIS
3. CSI
4. Jeopardy (it IS a tv show!)

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Florida (all over FL)
2. New York City
3. Texas... i know who goes to Texas for vacation...
4. Jamaica

G) 4 websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Facebook
2.Blackboard (UMB)
3.Yahoo!
4. Youtube

H) 4 of your favorite foods:
1. Curry chicken and Rice and Peas
2. Steam fish and Bammy
3. Ackee and saltfish, green bananas and dumplings
4. Curry goat and white rice

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Bad drivers
2. Free time
3. Dairy
4. Washing dishes

J) 4 of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading
2. Listening to music
3. Watching House
4. Studying... might as well be a hobby.... its what I do in my 'free' time.

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1.Greece
2.France
3.London
4. Italy

L) 4 pets you've had:
1. dog
2. dog
3. parrot
4. goldfish

Happy Monday!!!

2009-01-12T15:49:00.004-05:00

"It's never too late to have a happy childhood."

I saw that quote on a bumper sticker today and it made me uncomfortable. I was quite disturbed because I was wondering what the person meant by their comment. As far as I know, after you have passed your childhood years you can't have them back. You can chose to have a heck of an adulthood to make up for it but you just can't have it back. It doesn't work like that. If you try to get back your childhood you end up doing strange things, case in point, Michael Jackson.

So, in closing, do the best with what you have now.

Yesterday is history,

Tomorrow is a mystery,

And Today is a gift

That's why it's called the present.

2009-01-11T22:29:00.001-05:00

SAVE A LIFE!!!

Be a Medical Technologist!!!

"Gems may be presious, but friends are priceless."

2008-12-31T23:14:00.005-05:00

In less than 12 hrs 2008 will be history, and as I sat down to write my farewell 2008 post I was swept away by nostalgic thoughts/feelings. I signed on and hit the 'new post' button and I saw a picture of mon ami come into view, and before I knew it I was daydreaming about our times together (I mean this in a non-romantic way). I saw him with a big grin on his face while he was telling me about the new episode of Naruto. I remember thinking "he's so adorable... so passionate about this... he's crazy...". I try really hard to pay attention but I always seem to drift off to dreamyland. He gets this look in his eyes, kinda like a child that just got a new toy and thinks its the coolest thing ever. And he speech is so... animated... so full of life. Before I could finish that thought, I saw him looking at me from the chair next to mine, smiling at me with that same twinkle in his eye and it makes me wonder if... no, it couldn't be.

I don't know where he came from, but carino just decided to invade my thoughts too. He is such a sweet guy, really nice person. He's probably my only male friend that cares enough to read my blog. If that's not reason enough to love him I don't know what is. But trust me kid got some mad player skills. Of course he won't admit it. Hey, true players never admit it, but I can feel it. Don't get mad at me if you read this dear. I still love you anyway.

Now I see Jasmine and Pocahontas laughing their heads off. Jasmine is tearing up like she always does when she laughs too much, and nowPocahontas is snorting which is making Jasmine laugh even more. Jasmineis got her name because she looks like Jasmine from Aladdin. AndPocahontas got her name because... well... she's her favorite Disney princess. Pocahontas is still very much into Disney princesses. Pure innocence. These are my new girlfriends. They are beautiful, smart, fun, absolutely crazy women. Jasmine is kinda like Charlotte from Sex and the City, she has a great fashion sense, she is very caring, and she got a good man! We are still trying to figure out who Pocahontas is. She isn't settled like Miranda, and she's definitely NOT Samantha. Me, I get to be Carrie. Even though I'm not as fashionable as she is, I am a writer (or at least a wanna be writer), and I believe in fairytale love stories, and I kinda have my own Mr.Big.

B, I'm calling her "B" because she's the only girl that I've known that has as many admirers as Beyonce. Girl is gorgeous. I have yet to figure out if it's a blessing or a curse to have such beautiful girlfriends. Almost every guy at our high school wanted her. Imagine trying to get a guys attention standing next to her. Thankfully, our taste in men was very different and the guys I liked preferred nerds to supermodels.

Scotchie, my dear Scotchie. The best friend any one could ask for. She has put up with my whining for the past 3 yrs. She has spent countless hours trying to keep me sane amidst all the craziness that is my life. I want to be just like her when I grow up. She is also a beautiful, smart, tres intelligent woman. She has a song for every occassion, and has the ability to turn my frowns into smile with simple phrases such as 'i want to sleep, do u want to sleep?' or ' baby carrots'. Even though we don't talk as much as we used to, and I don't see her as often as I'd like to she is still a major part of my life and I would kill for her if I had to.

Mr.Big ... He is the only person I that I can't be mad at. If I claim to be angry with him all he has to do is look at me and all my anger disappears. He has a way of calling me just when I think to call him. I would pick up the phone and he'd say 'Hey babes, just called to see how my Queen is doing' , then we'd talk about our day. Then we'd get silent. On my end I'm listening to him breathe and wishing I could be where he is. Then he'd say 'can I tell you a story?' and then he'd tell me a story that is 75% true and 25% made up just so it can be funny. I miss having him next to me everyday. I miss the way he used to smile at me to let me know where he heart is when he was surrounded by girls who were practically begging for his attention. I miss the way we'd sit and hold hands and smile at each other and not say a word. Best conversations I've had in my life.

As 2008 leaves to make way for 2009, I am saying a prayer, thanking God for the friends he has given me. My only wish for 2009 is that God will bless all my friends and family and make all their dreams come true.

That something within

2008-12-22T22:28:00.002-05:00

by Jackie Dove-Miller

There is something within me

That is strong enough

To keep me from toppling

Over the edge of

Sanity,

Over the ledge of

frustration

Or over the hedge of

All-out foolishness.

It leads me to prayer

When I would otherwise

Break.

There is something in my make-up

Or my bringing up

Or just the way I look up

That straightens my back

And bows my head.

It becomes the focus of my meditation.

The sentiment in my supplication,

The reason for my transformation.

That thing inside me

Has me choosing light

Though darkness covers all.

It wells up like ocean waves

Come to drown those who

Think they deserve to push me back

Hold me down or

Steal my joy.

I have a spiritual strength that

Grows deeper and speaks louder as I get to know

More about who I am.

"Where did IT come from?" Someone recently asked.

I answered, "In my developing stage, someone said out loud,

'You sure are good at _______,'"

My puny soul embraced that seed,

and it planted itself deep inside me and took root.

I tested that tiny bit of ego-strength against

The negative family messages that focused on

What I was NOT good at, making me feel small

And disconnected.

I was NOT good at being like my mother

Who was all but saintly.

I was NOT good at being

Like my sister who was beautiful and dainty.

I was NOT ballerina thin, nor prissy neat,

But I WAS good at ________

And when I looked a little further, I discovered that

I was GOOD ENOUGH.

Good enough to bear fruit

And reap a harvest.

Good enough to plant a seed

In others and watch them grow

Magnificent and free.

I was GOOD ENOUGH to relate to

The GOD inside of me.

So, this poem is for all my sister-friends

Who don't yet know that

YOU are better than what your mothers,

your teachers, the men in your life,

or even the good sisters in church have called you.

Because God has called you Blessed

And HIS is the only voice that matters.

So, here and now, I pray OUR sister-prayer,

Dear Lord,

Help me to release

the self-doubt

That lives in my heart.

Remind me daily

That I am the product of

Your hands...

And all that

you make... ALL THAT YOU MAKE

Is Perfect.

Amen

feeling blue...

2008-12-06T22:41:00.006-05:00

I wish I were a boy... then maybe I could understand...

I wish I could get out of this circle.

Love and I are breaking up... again... but not for long because I know I'll change my mind and want to love again.

2008-11-18T16:01:00.010-05:00

There is a strong need in our society to have everything defined without any ambiguity. However, it is not always easy to come up with unquestionable definitions. There are some things that are neither hot nor cold. They may be 'warm'. These things are hard to accept in many instances, but accept them we must.

I haven't been able to come up with an unquestionable reason for the dramatic increase in 'relationship issues/problem' that has occured among my friends within the past few weeks, but I am hypothesizing that the problem is a 'lack of clear or adequate communication'. You know things are bad when even your best friend fails to understand what you are saying. They should, it's part of their job description! I've been trying to explain to my friends what I want in a relationship at this point in my life and no one seemed to understand what I was saying until today. FINALLY !!! *sigh of relief* I think I had been doing a really bad job at explaining myself because all I've been saying for the past month is that I want a 'friend with benefits'. Pick your jaw up off the floor... not that kind of benefits. There will be no sex involved. My friends and I just realized that is what we have all been trying to explain to each other and the men around us.

A 'friend with benefits' relationship falls into the category of 'hard to explain'. It has many different meanings. It can be made in whatever your heart desires.

My girls and I did the best to explain what a 'friends with benefits' relationship meant to us. This is what we came up with:

1. we are not completely single but at the same time we are not in a relationship... we are somewhere in the middle.

2. we have someone to chill with, hug and kiss whenever the need arise. (NOTE: physical contact is limited to hugs and kisses)

3. the relationship has the potential to develop into something more but this should NOT be the intent in the beginning of the relationship as it would be perfectly legal for it to stay in the same place for a greatly extended period and be terminated without penalty if either party decides to get serious with someone else.

***Soundtrack***

Buddy - Musiq Soulchild

Dick-less men

2008-11-16T18:48:00.009-05:00

Friends are like stars

They come and go

But the ones that stay

Are the ones that glow.

I love my friends!!! They are some of THE COOLEST people on the planet!!! Some of the craziest people too.

So I was on the phone with one of said crazy friends and as usual we got to the topic of men, here's a part of the convo...

Friend: You know how in the beginning of the relationships you tell a guy you dont plan on having sex with them and they say they have no problem with it?

Me: yeh! such liars! they dont mean it!!!

Friend: I know. I wish they didn't have dicks! Dicks always ruin my relationships because they want to do things dicks like. I wish when I met someone they didnt have a dick or it should be small, like a baby carrot, then it woulld grow slowly til we get married and then it would be big, fully functional and ready to work!!!

Me: (laughing out loud) OMG!!! That is hilarious!!! But you know what... you have a point! That would be awesome!!! It would make life so much easier.

It would be very nice to find a dick-less man because then he's not supposed to feel the need to have sex (I know this is scientifically wrong but who cares) which take A LOT of pressure off the relationship but at the same time that would be very scary!!! I would definitely run if I were to found out a prospective hubby was dick-less!!! I wouldn't believe a story that the baby carrot had the potential to grow into bigger and better things either!!!

Something to smile about...

2008-11-14T18:09:00.007-05:00

Love is falling asleep dreaming of the one that makes you smile. Love is waking up smiling about the one you dream of.
~ Anonymous

"It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them."
~ Agatha Christie

"The best feelings are those that Have no words to describe them...."
~ Michelle Hammersley

" Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. "
~ Bible

Sometimes I miss you so much,
I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you!

Far in distance,
but near at heart,
you'll always be the angel of my heart.

I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know,
you're the one that I love,
and I can't let you go.

"Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile,
so when you are lonely remember it’s true,
someone somewhere is thinking of you."
Unknown

When love feels like magic,
you call it destiny.
When destiny has a sense of humor,
you call it serendipity.
~ Serendipity

Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them.

If I had to choose between loving you and breathing ....
I would use my last breath to tell you
I LOVE YOU

CHANGEZ (I have put my records on)

2008-11-07T08:53:00.008-05:00

The leaves on the trees have changed their colours; from green to yellow, orange, pink or purple.The weather has changed from being warm to cool to freezing cold! Americans have elected their first black president. And... I have exited my comfort zone once again and I have NO intentions of going back. Things are looking good on the outside.

I have blogged about stepping out so many times and within days I would run back into my little box and cover my face too afraid that something bad might happen if I even look out. So this time I'm not going to say that I'm never going to go back. I'm just saying that I don't plan on it.

Scothie you'd be so proud of me! Your squirrel is letting her hair down :-D

Sountrack:

1. Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield
2. Put your records on - Corrine Bailey Rae
3. Here I am - Jasmine Richards
4. This is me - Demi Lavato
5. Taking chances - Celine Dion

TOTALLLY AWESOME WEEK!!! (the happy post)

2008-11-01T20:20:00.010-04:00

Sunday....

the weather was sooooo nice! after having a very cold week God sent us some sunshine and warmth. my bro and i went for a walk and took pics and crazy videos. was so much fun :-)

Monday....

Got to see il mio amico carino ed adorabile (my cute and adorable friend... who i will refer to as carino hereafter).

1st class was so cool. the professor is absolutely hilarious. she was telling us about how back in the day... long long b4 we were around, the men used to write letters to the women they wanted to be with... and the ladies could tell how much they guys really liked them by the way they closed their letters. if the guy was stuck on 'truly yours' the women were advised to find another man. LOL:-D however, if the guy signed the letter 'truly yours today,always and forever' then he was in looooooooove!!! :-)

2nd class... quiz --> bye bye :-D

Tuesday...

Two horrible exams.

Wednesday...

NO SCHOOL!!!

Thursday...

pretty cool lab... got a few winks from the hott TA ;-)

HALLOWEEN PARTY!!! so... boring old me decided to go to the halloween party with my friends. we didnt dress up cuz we r too cool for that.LOL. but we had lots of fun. I took a shot and wanted a couple more but I had to drive home and my friends weren't drinking so i didnt... good peer pressure :-) plus good girls like me dont drink to get drunk!(everything in moderation) oh yeh and carino was disappointed i drank... :-( . the costumes at the party were pretty cool, although i didnt know wat some ppl were. secret... shhhh... i saw this one dude, i coulda sworn he was dressed up but the poor thing wasnt! i felt so bad afterwards. im still begging God for forgiveness.

Got pulled over for speeding!60 in a 35 mph zone... (60 is slow for me too. stupid speed limits!!!) but thanks to my clean driving record and the fact that i wasnt drinking that nite ;-) the very sweet cop let me off. God even takes care of his delinquent children.

Friday...

ANOTHER HALLOWEEN PARTY!!! the professors in my department are so cool man... most of them were dressed up. there was a witch, M&M's, a goddess and a zombie looking woman. the student costumes were nice too. we got goodie bags with lots of candy and other stuff.... yes i attend a UNIVERSITY... a very prestigious one too!!! but our program is so much like high school (except for our actual course work) but im not complaining, being grown up gets boring sometimes.

Saturday...

Sabbath was great as usual.

Went to a dinner with my family... had some good Jamaican food!Curry goat and rice and peas.. fried plantains...potato salad... carrot cake...(list is kinda long...think i'll stop here... still full... *sigh*)

So yeh... had a truly great week. Love my new friends thissssssssssssssss much!!! you guys are SOOOOO much fun to hang out with!!! :-)

2008-10-31T23:48:00.003-04:00

so I had a really happy post in mind but i'll save that for later, when im on top of the hill again.

Anywho... have u ever seen the movie 10 things I hate about you ? great movie isn't it? this poem is from that movie and its one of my favourite and im really having a love/hate relationship with it tonite. so here goes....

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me ryhme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

The way it is...

2008-10-27T20:18:00.003-04:00

Sometimes we try to find the reason for every action, every reaction and every emotion without knowing that the beauty is not in finding the answers but in being able to ask the questions....

rants and raves...

2008-10-19T00:56:00.005-04:00

I've been trying to write a decent post for the longest while but it has been so hard because i have so much to say but cant find the words. so now im sitting here in my pjs listening to some of the sweetest love songs ever written and thinking how much i hate all the writers right now! how is it they could have been so blessed to find such 'perfect' love when some of us are longing for that and it's nowhere to be found. Now Rascal Flats 'God Bless The Broken Road' is playing and im longing for the day when i can get to the end of this broken road and claim my prize. things are really bad when you start to doubt that the one you've always believed would be there for you for always will actually be there for you. no he hasnt done anything bad except fail to return a phone call or two but this distance is really getting to me and im afraid it will make him forget me soon :-( so many people around me are having 'problems' even though they pretend everything is ok. i cant pretend anymore. i dont want to. i love you, i miss you, and im scared too! i dont wanna lose u! i dont wanna live without u! michael bolton says 'love is a wonderful thing' i do agree but damn it hurts so bad sometimes!

Random thoughts...

2008-10-10T18:36:00.006-04:00

Professors are very peculiar people!!! They say the strangest things!!!

There are very few things in life that is better than GREAT FRIENDS!!!

Too much of a good thing is bad for you.

Girls love Boys!!!

Boys love Girls!!!

Homework should be done ASAP not ATLM (at the last minute).

Smiling at male store clerks generates discounts!!! :-)

Tyrese is still VERY SEXY!!!

Some of us aren't as tough as we think we are.

Skinny jeans are awesome... dont want them to go out of style :-(

p.s. can u guys tell i have nothing to say... lol... i'll be back with something sensible one of these days! promise.

To Settle or Not To Settle?

2008-09-25T17:29:00.004-04:00

I'm surrounded by geniuses and the competiton is stiff
But I like challenges so I'm gonna roll with it....

A newly acquired friend of mine has been stressing over a certain 'pothole' in her life. She's really young and this may soon pass but it's got me thinking. Is it right for us to set standards for our significant others? Standards that they may have no intentions of living up to.

This friend of mine is very similar to me. We bascially have to same goals in life. Get into medical school, get our M.D. degree, marry our prince charming and live happily ever after (yes, it's that simple!).

Thing is... we have certain standards that our 'potential' prince charming have to live up to in order to qualify for the position.

First and foremost, he must have the same or at least similiar religious beliefs to the ones we have. Secondly, he must be physically attractive and have a nice personality (loyal, humble, kind, caring, funny...etc). Finally, he must be academically inclined... well he has to at least be aiming to get an M.D degree or equivalent... PhD in something worthwhile.

Is this too much to ask? (the whole M.D/ PhD. thing?)

Are our standards too high?

Should there be exceptions?

all sorts of Q&A

2008-09-11T11:31:00.006-04:00

1. What’s worse - Physical or Mental cheating?

All cheating is bad... the beginning is mental.

2. Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forgive.. forget is so hard to do.

3. Can men and women be ” Just Friends?”

I guess we can....

4. Dating co-workers?

Bad idea!!!

5. All expenses paid vacation to anywhere?

Europe... the entire continent!!!

6. On the way to the electric chair - What’s your last meal?

Stem fish and bammy from Little Ochie in JA.

7. Water parks are…?

AWESOME!!!!!!

8. When you are “In Love” do you notice other people?

nope... blind as a bat. It's very sad. I am hopelessly devoted.

9. Is flirting cheating?

makes me jealous ....

10. Would you rather have 1 great friend or 5 pals?

1 great friend

11. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?

yeah... might slap 'em too!!!

12. Are you ok with your significant other being friends with an ex?

Nope... I have just come to realization that I have a jealous nature.

13. Would you live with someone without marrying them?

no... things might happen that shouldn't. why set myself up for temptation.

14. Favorite sport?

Basketball

15. Is toilet paper hung over or under?

over

16. Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or end of the tube?

who cares...

17. How do you feel about tanning booths?

i couldn't care less... i dont need it.

18. Friends with benefits?

yes please :-D

19. Do you believe in angels?

Yes

20. Would you rather take pictures or be in pictures?

Both... take pics of myself... LMAO :-)

21. Have you ever flirted with someone you had no interest in?

oh yeah... i am now ashamed...

22. Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?

LMAO :-D yep... on a dare.... (well not truly random had seen the guy around school b4)

23. Would you buy bootleg merchandise?

maybe...

24. What color looks best on you?

Black

25. If you could play any sport professionally what would it be?

Soccer

26. Ever break up with someone and regret it?

nope... not at all.

27. Are you a jealous person?

not over all... but ... yeah... with my 'person'.

28. Would you ever have plastic surgery?

no never!!!

29. When do you want to get married?

When I finish school.

30. Who has the sexiest accents?

English men.

31.Next concert you’re attending?

Uh-mmh...none

32. Favorite song?

Trust Me- Crystal Lewis.

33.Favorite movie?

Tough question... but I'm gonna say Grease

34. What’s your occupation?

Student

35. What’s your sign?

Cancer

36. Are you a beach, country or city person?

definitely country.

37. Best vacation spot you’ve been to?

Negril , Jamaica

38. Have you ever had a “secret affair?”

Nope

39. If you could own a non-traditional pet which would it be?

monkey!

40. Favorite show as a child?

Walker Texas Ranger

41. Where do you spend most of your money?

on the bus...

42. Are you currently working at a job that you hate?

don't have a job

43. Have you ever been so heart broken that you called in sick to work?

skipped class...

44. Favorite summer drink?

Strawberry daquiri :-)

45. Can you change a car tire?

maybe... I know what to do but I've never tried before.

46. Favorite cologne / perfume?

Sicily - Dulce&Gabana

48. Would you consider yourself adventurous?

Nope... I'm kinda on the boring side these days...

49. What is your My Space profile song?

Don't have a Myspace... I'm ALL Facebook :-) although I hate the new one they have now... grrrrrrr....

50. Favorite concert attended?

Heritage Singers... a decade ago.

51. Would you date an already attached man / woman?

No way!!! Like having my people all to myself!!!

52. Would you sing Karaoke in front of co-workers?

My classmates.... hmmmmm... maybe...

53. Can you shoot pool?

I...a... hmmm... dunno

54. Do you like your siblings’ significant others?

My bro is currently single. well... my other brother has a girlfriend... I'm starting to like her... it'll make him happy :-)

55. Can you drive a stick?

I would love to learn!!! It's kinda sexy ;-)

56. Did you wear white at your wedding?

have never been married...

57. Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?

as pathetic as that is... yes...

58. Ever skip school and spend the day at the beach?

no...

59. Favorite TV show/s?

House and CSI.

61. what are you waiting for at the movies?

Transformers 2

62. What is your favorite holiday?

Christmas

63. Describe your fighting style: drunken master or angry monkey?

drunken monkey maybe... lol... I'm a LOVER not a FIGHTER!!!

64. Piercing?

none... God gave me all the holes I need :=)

65. Tattoos?

nope

66. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

Books-a-Million... LOL :-D joking... maybe Victoria's Secret ;-)

I'm tagging Afrobabe, Neema Divine, Antipop,SolomonSydelle and anyone else not tagged please be my guest and do the tag

Bad Habits

2008-09-08T18:20:00.004-04:00

So... all the bad habits I've kicked are somehow finding their ways back under my skin. From the excessive consumption of junk food, to slacking off in school, to biting my nails, they are all coming back!!!

Recently, I've been having really strong urges to eat junk food. I crave chocolate and french fries all day!!! And if that wasn't bad enough I have no desire to study or do anything related to academics. Can you believe that? Me, Nahjaj not wanting to study!!! I live for school!!! Next thing you are gonna hear is I don't have a crush!!!

What is happening to me?!?!?!

It's all coming back to me / Living for today

2008-08-31T19:52:00.007-04:00

Have you ever had an old love come back into your life and stir up old feelings? You know this person calls you out of the blue or you meet them in the streets and decide to have lunch 'for old times sake' and before you know they have taken your heart back. Didn't even ask if they could have it. Didn't give you the chance to object. It can be a good thing if you are free, single and disengaged but if you are taken, whew... trouble. Luckily for me I have no one... mon ami doesn't count since technically he's only my friend. For once I'm not even mad about it. Don't get me wrong I'm not over him... at all... but I loving him as my friend, not complicating things with wanting more. I am accepting what is. He'll always have a special place in my heart. Might even be my best man... LOL :-D But I am welcoming back my old love with open arms!!! Been missing him for too long to let him go again!!! And no I'm not jumping of the cliff just yet... I'm taking it slow. Enjoying the ride. I am no longer gonna dream about the future so much that I miss out on the present. Another day isn't guaranteed so I'm living for today :-)

* Soundtrack*

1) Just for Today- India Arie
2) It's all coming back to me - Celine Dion

back to school !!!!!!!

2008-08-23T13:34:00.004-04:00

The 2008-2009 school year has begun!

I had orientation this week...all week!!! The first couple days were so high on the boring scale that it might be illegal to talk about here. Yesterday was fine though. Spent all day in the lab which was cool although we were doing basic stuff.

My classmates.... hmmm... they all seem to be pretty cool. No one is stuck up or look boring. The guys.... not bad-looking. In fact, if Homan wasn't around I might have devoted my attention to one in particular but with mon ami there I have no interest in anyone but him. Yep, I'm still crazy about him even though I shouldn't be but does my heart listen?... nope... and even my head agrees that he's special and worthy of my undivided attention and affection. He really is a GREAT guy and a WONDERFUL friend. He looks out for me and makes my life a lot better when I'm not stuttering/talking crap or dropping things because he's looking at me or too close to me. LOL.

My teachers... well... some seem to be lively, others could take a page out of Dr.Brown's book and be louder and more fun. I love teachers that are loud, it will be less likely for me to sleep. I'm worried about staying awake in the classes with the soft-spoken teachers. Might have to start consuming caffeine.

All in all , being the nerd I am (I'm embracing my nerd-like tendencies :-D ) I am looking forward to the beginning of classes.

To everyone that is starting school soon or has started already... GOOD LUCK THIS YEAR!!!

Q&A

2008-07-30T23:51:00.004-04:00

He said, "people have this typical view of love, happiness, beauty and the sort, like it has to be defined to be accepted."

What is your view on love, happiness and beauty? Do they have to be defined to be accepted?

Leaving...

2008-07-28T11:58:00.003-04:00

And she ventures out of her comfort zone again. Is this it? Or will she come back?

Lord I believe in You

2008-07-20T20:12:00.009-04:00

Giving praise to the One who brings me joy. The One on whom I know I can always depend.

Lord I believe in You

Crystal Lewis

Though I can't see Your holy face

And Your throne in heaven above

It seems so far away

Though I cant touch your nail scarred hands

I have a deep and unspeakable joy

That makes my faith to stand

Lord, I believe in You

Ill always believe in You

Though I cant see you with my eyes

Deep in my heart Your presence I find

Lord, I believe in You

And I'll keep my trust in You

Let the whole world say what they may

No one can take this joy away

Lord, I believe

Born from above

You are Gods only chosen one

Youre the one and only true way

To the Fathers heart

You died for all sin

Then you rose and now live again

Conquering death and the grave

So that I might live

Lord, I believe in You

I'll always believe in You

Though I cant see you with my eyes

Deep in my heart Your presence I find

Lord, I believe in You

And I'll keep my trust in You

Let the whole world say what they may

No one can take this joy away

Lord, I believe

and the blessings keep pouring in !!!

2008-07-16T18:50:00.003-04:00

My mother met him and SHE LOVES HIM!!!!

My mother is a very sweet person, she's totally awesome and she is VERY protective off her offsprings which can be translated into her being strict.

She has never really met mon ami and of course she was skeptical, ' I have to meet him!' So today was the day. I was so anxious, scared, nauseated. I mean if she didnt like him my life would be bad I'm so crazy about him I dont want to hear that we cant be friends. But she met him and she adores him which is TOTALLY AWESOME!!! They talked for a loooong time and joked ... she even invited him over again, she's even gonna cook for him!!! I'm still in shock. I mean I figured she'd like him just not this much. Too bad I can marry him :-(

All in all... Praise the Lord God Almighty!!!

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

A very HAPPY Squirrel

2008-07-14T14:17:00.006-04:00

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!

My summer break hasn't been the best I've had but still it has been great. From the road trips to the belly laughs generated from hanging out with my family to sleeping in, it's been good. Intially I had expected this summer to suck since I had no plans for my free time. I still kinda wish I had a more productive holiday but hey... this works!

Today I got my package from the school I'm supposed to be attending in the fall and I'm sooooooooooooo excited despite the fact that I'll have to wake up at 5 am!!! I'm definitely looking forward to starting school, to being back in the lab. I miss the test tubes, pipettes, and the gloves... ahhhhhh... my happy place second to actual patient care. My schedule is actually very strange and kinda scary but you gotta do what you gotta do, so you can do what you wanna do. I have two classes per day!!! sounds good huh? well..... one if from 8 30-12 and the other is from 1-4 so they'll be looooong. My butt is already hurting just thinking about it. However, whatever pain that will be the result of being in class that long should be relieved by mon ami's presence. LOL. That's just icing on the cake.

Well, I'm off to enjoy the rest of my vacation.

peace and love :-D

A very happy squirrel (Nahja).

20 year old wisdom...

2008-06-29T18:55:00.009-04:00

In my twenty years on this earth I have learned a lot of things. There are many things that I've seen, heard and done that were sooooooooooooo cool and that I'd do again in a heartbeat. And there are things there I've seen, heard, and done that I wish never happened and do not wish to have a replay of.

Things that fall in the ' please replay' category:

Spending many days in elementary school staring at my then best friend Nicholas and having him stare back and smile at me. (He was sooooooooooooooo cute)
Grade six Christmas concert!!!
High school (specific days ONLY)
All the 'moments' Neville and I had :-D
Homecoming '06.
My 16th, 18th, 19th birthday.
Rita, Nyketa and I running around Coastal Georgia Community College acting like kids!!!
Leadership conference 2006 (I'm still sorry for complaining about the state of the room Rita but it was dirty,and smelly, that was rude, they should've cleaned the room. ooops, still complaing... sorry)
Shopping with Rita on Friday afternoons.
Hanging out at the pier and Zuzu's. Oh and of course Wally's world.
Working at Lung Associates and hanging out with McDreamy at the hospital.
Organic Chemistry and Genetics class this past Spring.
The time I spent with Homan admiring his intelligence, laughing at his craziness, and braiding his hair.

(there are so much more but I don't have time to list them...)

Things that fall in the 'DO NOT REPLAY' category:

Wearing my socks up to knees the first week of high school!!!
Slipping and sliding in the mud in the 9th grade in front of Ricardo. (talk about embarassing! I had a HUGE crush on the guy)
The day Hilare and Chris printed the evil love poem claiming it was from me to Ricky and distributed it around the entire school!!! I would never write that crap. I write better peotry than that!!!
The convo I had with Neville about migrating :-(
Prom... 'nuff said

During the past two decades I also learned some very important lessons. Here are a few that I'd like to share with you:

Choose your friends wisely the have a GREAT impact on the person your are and the person you will become.
Stay close to positive people, people that can help you. Avoid negative people, they will ruin you.
Set goals, work hard to acheive them and NEVER let anyone tell you can't accomplish them.
Remember all the compliments you get. Forget the bad remarks.
Music is goooooood soul food.
Don't be afraid to love someone.
Don't be afraid to let someone love you.
ALWAYS put God first and EVERYTHING else will fall into place.

Finally here are my goals for the next 20 years:

Attain a M.D/PhD degree.
Be a successful Critcal Care Doctor specializing in Pulmonology.
Marry my prince charming (If we find each other...) and have 2 children.
Open a school for disadvantaged children where EVERYTHING will be free of cost to them.
Write a novel.

BET AWARDS '08

2008-06-24T21:11:00.015-04:00

Usher is the bomdiggity!!! His performance was HOTTTTT!!!!! and he is as SEXY as ever!!!

I wish rappers would learn more words so they can substitute the curse words.

NEYO.... ohhhhhhh baby... GROWN and SEXY!!! He's a great songwriter, he can dance and he can sing... Nahja likes :-)

Alicia Keys' performance was great!!! LOVED how she brought out SWV, En Vogue, and TLC

It seems like black people think it's ok for them to be racist... I say 'them' because I am not rascist...I think.

Of course Kanye doesn't thank anyone....

T Pain and his peeps ROCKED!!! T Pain is da sh!t !!!!!! (no Pain, no gain)

NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT...NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT...WITHOUT YOU LORD!!!

Chris Brown is all grown up!!! I want him to take me down..

Let's see if Kanye is gonna thank anyone now... yay!!! he does!!! LOL... but of course... he has to 'big up' himself.

Congrats to AL GREEN, my daddys favorite singer.

AL GREEN'S performance convinced me I was born in the wrong decade. THAT'S my kinda music!!!!!

I wanted Soulja Boy Tell 'Em to win the viewers choice award...

Wasn't really feeling Rihanna but maybe I'm just jealous cuz she has Chris Brown

Congratulations Mr.Quincy Jones

YAY!!!! Alicia Keys won best female R&B artist.

Lil Wayne's performance sucked...

All in all, the awards this year was GREAT!!!!!!!!!!

just saying...

2008-06-23T21:03:00.004-04:00

Boys SUCK!!! (for now...)
Camp Rock... ROCKS!!! (yes... I still watch Disney movies at almost 20)
French dominoes is a very nice way to waste time. I spent 7 hrs playing today!!! (blogger needs a life...lol)
Little kids are EXTREMELY noisy!!! (I should've known that)
Dancing is great exercise. (no exclamation marks)
Excessive use of parentheses are annoying aren't they?
Lucky number 7 - MY 20th birthday is in 6 days!!!!

SMILING :-D

2008-06-11T17:37:00.009-04:00

Seems as though I will receive my ticket out the door (the front door of my house that is). The hospital does need me :-) Feels so good to be needed. LOL.

Shopping is definitely great therapy!!! I love my Mommy (not only because she buys me cute dresses!) -Got a cute dress to show off my very sexy boobs and booty!

Friends are a necessity!!! Thanks to my Rita with whom I had a long convo with yesterday for the first time in weeks and mon ami Homan who just makes me smile by saying 'hey' on AIM, I got it bad...I know,(BTW HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE *MUAH*), I am no longer depressed. Thanks guys!!! Love u both lots!!!!

80 degrees weather is great !!!

My grandparents are coming from Jamaica to spend a couple weeks with us tomorrow!!! They are gonna bring lots of Jamaican food!!! YAY!!!! And my cousin is here from Florida so we have a full house :-)

God bless all songwriters of sweet, sexy, abosultely lovely songs may it be R&B, Neo-soul, other stuff I like or soul food like Gospel.

Thank God for the people that came up with Skype as well. Oh yeah... and the people that came up with blogger.com.

Thank God for my blogworld peeps too!!!

This sounds like a awards show speech....... so to end... Thank you Mom!!! Thank you to my fans!!! Thank You God!!! Goodnight everyone!!!!! *blowing you kisses*

Bored...

2008-06-03T21:27:00.003-04:00

So... as you know I'm on vacation from school for the summer, yay :-( I'VE BEEN BORED OUTTA MY MIND!!!! I have offered my services to the local hospital to help out in the lab but I haven't been able to start and now I am hearing there might not be a space for me. WHEN DID PEOPLE START TURNING DOWN FREE LABOR!!! So here I am... bored to tears. My only source of joy so far have been a few good novels and my friends, who by the way I only talk to online!!! Whoever said 'I love my computer cuz my friends live in it' must have had a life like mine. I knew this summer wasn't going to be the 'bombdiggidy' but I didn't think it'd be this bad.

I need something to do before I completely lose my mind.

He is marvelous!!!!

2008-05-27T22:16:00.002-04:00

This weekend was really really fun! I went to see my family.. LOL. Actually I went to the zoo. There were so many really cool animals. All different sizes, shapes and colors. The birds had the prettiest colors. The Tucan (fruit loops bird :-D ) had such beautiful colors on its beak, it had the such a human like personality too. There were so many different types of monkeys, and a VERY wide variety of small mammals. There was so much proof of God's existence. I didnt even see everything they had and of course they dont have every creature ever made!!! That experience would make it harder for me to believe that there isn't a God. HE is so marvelous. So talented and creative!!! The animals were the most wonderful and incredible creatures I have ever seen. To God be all the glory!!!

SCHOOL'S OUT!!!

2008-05-21T10:57:00.004-04:00

Whew... SCHOOL'S OUT!!!!!

I am soooo happy schools out. No more studying for at least another 3 months!!! This school year was kinda cool though. First of all I was thrown into what I called a school for nerds at first, and as my dear friend Rita predicted I FIT RIGHT IN!!! LOL... well not really. But I have to admitted I enjoyed being around all the smart people, especially when I knew what they were talking about. And the interesting thing about these nerds is they were actually pretty cool. LOL.

I met some real interesting people too, like Dr.Brown, the most awesome chem teacher ever!!! Loved Sue Bard as well, she's so sweet and funny. And of course there's my chem study buddies, Pipan who always brought us food... gotta love her!!! Jay who is super smart and cool, and last but DEFINITELY not least my 'new best friend' (he doesn't know this) Homan, he's a super genius with the coolest personality, crazy as hell too... I can safely say I've never met anyone like him.

So all in all this year was great!!!

I never thought this would be so cool since I was and still is missing my BFF. I miss our crazy convos about hypothetical people and things, our runs to Mickey D's, our wknds at the beach, our trips to our favourite places ZUZU's and Walmart!!! I was also missing my job and McDreamy... ahhhhhhhh... but this works!!!

GOD IS REAL!!!

2008-04-05T16:44:00.008-04:00

I've met alot of people in recent months that do not believe in God. Some believe there is a greater power but they don't feel the need to worship. Others believe there is a God but resent organized religion. These facts are very disturbing to me because I can't imagine living without my God, and my religion. I can't refuse God. There is so much He has done for me. Even though I can't see Him or touch Him I believe He is real. As a Christian I have learned to WALK BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT.

The song 'What If' by Nicole Nordeman explores the possiblity of there NOT being a God. She says

What if you pick apart the logic

And begin to poke the holes

What if the crown of thorns is no more

Than folklore that must be told and retold

But what if you're wrong?

What if there's more?

What if there's hope you never dreamed of hoping for?

(I've cut out some of my favorite lines.)

My question to the unbelievers is WHAT IF YOU ARE WRONG?

How can you not believe God is Real?

India Arie asks this question in her song, 'God is Real'. She then gives numerous examples as to why she knows God is real. How can someone deny there is a God after noting all these things? Here's the India Arie song...

God is Real !!!

The sweetest honey to the brightest flower

The largest planet to the smallest atom

Snowflakes and the bird kingdom

Smaller thatn the eye can see bigger then the mind can conceive

Heard a man on the radio today

(Spoken)

I mean I'm not going to believe in anything that I can't see and I've been through a lot of hardships in my life ya know ya know in my life

Must confess I disagreed with what he had to say

How he could he not believe that God is real

I don't understand howHe could feel that way

When there's earth, air, water, and fire

So many different flowers

Sunshine and rain showers

So many different crystals

And hills and volcanoes

Chorus

That's how I know that God is real

All of this is not by chance

That's how I know that God is real

All of this is not by chance

That's how I know that God is real

I know this is not by chance

That's how I know that God is real

In St. Lucia I jumped in the water

(Spoken)

It was like I was seeing it for the first time.

It literally changed my life.

For the first time I understood its power

As I swam I was cleansed

If I had any doubts

This experience cleared them

Now I know for sure that GOd is real

I know that it's the truth

By the way it feels

Cause I saw starfish and sponges

Fish shaped like trumpets

So many different colors

I stayed out there for hours

and I only saw a fraction of a fraction

of the deepest of the deep

of the great blue wide

It brought a tear to my eye

We're made of the same stuff

As the moon and the stars

The oceans saltwater just like my tears are

You feel me

The sunrises and sets everyday without fail

DAY 26 ROCKS!!!

2008-03-31T13:31:00.004-04:00

In the past couple weeks yours truly has become a 'groupie' not that that is a good thing but confession is good for the soul. I LOVE DAY 26!!! Their album is 'totally awesome'. I haven't listened to anything but Day 26 in a week!!! No India Arie, No Heather Headley, No Tamia, No Lupe Fiasco... NO MARIAH CAREY!!! This obsession with Day 26 is getting out of hand!!! The guys in the band are so hottttt!!! I would take either Que, Robert or Mike for myself. Willie and Brian I would give away though. But I still love them cuz their vocals are great!!! These guys are so gonna give Boys II Men a run for their money. Their songs are very sexy... and Nahja loves sexy :-D

GO OUT AND GET THEIR ALBUM!!!

To my Rita... Best Friends Forever!!!

2008-03-25T19:39:00.003-04:00

I miss my Rita!!!

I miss our evenings in the library. I miss the Mickey D's run in the evenings when we should be at work. I miss your analytical lectures on my crazy life. I miss going to the pier and Zuzu's. I miss fighting over the radio.

I wish you were here.

I wish you were here so I could tell you all about him.( I need to know what you think). I wish you were here so we could hang out and tell each other crazy stories, make up new words, and laugh til we start crying.

Just so you know...

You are the MOST wonderful friend EVER!!! You are always there for me when I need you the most. You always know the right things to say to cheer me up. You were always there to play the perfect song to comfort me in every situation.

There is no one as awesome as you!!!

Thanks for everything.

Love u lots!!! Miss u!!!

For You I Will

2008-03-10T21:07:00.006-04:00

He says I treat him better than I treat myself. WOW!!! That is scary. I know I treat him better than I treat a lot of other people. But so what!!! OK... this is serious. I love him sooooooooo much. I don't even think about it, I automatically want to please him, although there are still things I wouldn't do, but I've done way more than I've do for anyone other guy. I can't help but admire him. He's so awesome.

So babe... this is for you....

That thing you do

I don't know what it is

But it's that thing you do

That made me fall in love with you.

Maybe it's the way you walk

Maybe it's the way you talk

It's that thing you do

That makes my stomach do flips

And my lips break into a smile

Maybe it's the way you look at me

Maybe it's the way you touch me

It's that thing you do

That makes me want to please you

Every little thing you do

Thats what makes me love you.

Nahjaj

*** I'm dedicating For You I will by Monica to you***

Is there really an increase in human sexual desire during Spring???

2008-03-05T20:21:00.007-05:00

Abstract: So... I heard of a really interesting phenomenon yesterday. I was told that during the spring time humans have a greater desire to engage in sexual activities (had to make it sound nice :-D ). I am not sure if this is true but it's the explanation a friend of mine gave for the obvious increase in physical attraction to and desire for the opposite sex that we have observed.

Hypothesis: Humans are hornier (is that a proper english word?) during Spring.

Observations:

Either I have suddenly become way more attractive which I doubt because for the past two weeks my hair has not been looking so nice... in fact it looks horrible, or these guys are just so horny that they cant keep away. Note: I am not talking about one or two guys. Today four different guys were doing some serious flirting avec moi in less that 30 mins! Usually one evry hour is normal... four in 30 mins was a record given my bad hair and all.
I have seen a significant increase in PDA.
There have been an increase in the amount of skin on display by females. (could be a result of the warmer temperatures or a way of attract the opposite sex???)

Discussion:

The behavior of the subjects may be due to that fact that warmer temperatures allow women to wear less clothes and show more skin therefore unknowingly appearing sexier which is driving the men crazy. In which case it may be safe to assume that in the Summer there will a greater increase in this particular behavior. It is also possible that this increase in sexual desire is analogous to the behavior in plant who will be having sex a lot as well during this period.

Conclusion:

You tell me what you think!!!

this has got to be the worst scientific report ever written!!!

Feeling Smart

2008-02-28T17:25:00.005-05:00

My brain cells have finally decided to make themselves useful again. I feel sooooooo smart today. I think I Aced my ORGANIC CHEMISTRY II exam !!!!!!! I am on a high... up very high... on cloud nine. If you know anything about Organic Chemistry you know it was invented to kick students ass... at least thats what almost everyone that has to do it thinks; so that's why I'm so happy!!! What can I say... I have an awesome professor and helpful classmates. Thank you Lord!!!

Also, I did well on my Genetics exam too!!!

MED SCHOOL HERE I COME!!!!

p.s. Did I mention my friend likes smart girls??? :-D

Have you ever been in love??? (part 2)

2008-02-24T23:35:00.005-05:00

Lately you seem to be the only topic of my posts. I can't seem to help talking about you. I can't stop thinking about you. There is no doubt in my mind anymore... I'm definitely in love with you.

Have you ever been in love

-Celine Dion

Have you ever been in love

You could touch the moonlight

When your heart's shooting stars

You're holding heaven in your arms

Have you ever been so in love

....

Have you ever walked on air

Ever felt like you were dreamin'

When you never thought it could

But it really feels that good

Have you ever been so in love

...

Have you ever been in love

You could touch the moonlight

When your heart's shooting star

You're holding heaven in your arms

Have you ever been in love, have you...

...

The time I spent

Waiting for something that was heaven-sent

When you find it don't let go, I know

...

Have you ever said a prayer

And found that it was answered

All my hope has been restored

And I ain't looking anymore

Have you ever been so in love, have you...

...

Some place that you ain’t leavin’

Somewhere you're gonna stay

When you finally found the meanin'

Have you ever felt this way

...

The time I spent

Waiting for something that was heaven-sent

When you find it, don't let go, I know...

...

Coz have you ever been so in love, so in love

You could touch the moonlight

You can even reach the stars

Doesn't matter near or far

Have you ever been so in love

...

Have you ever been in love

So in... love...

p.s Will someone please tell me how to get music on my blog so I can stop

writing out all these lyrics...........

Random-things-o-mania #2

2008-02-20T21:05:00.005-05:00

The Rules:

-Link to the person that tagged you.

- Post the rules on your blog.

- Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.

- Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.

- Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website

1. I have decided to stop perming my hair. So I am officially rocking plaits and cornrows!!!

2. I haven't had a crush on celebrities in so long and now I have 3!!! Lupe Fiasco ('my friend' loves him and now I do too... in a different way though...LOL), and Robert and Q from Making The Band. They are soooo hottttttt... especially Q.

3. I drived in the snow for the first time today.

4. I love Genetics.

5. I love Honey Bunches of Oats cereal. Eat it for breakfast almost every morning.

6.I really want some new shoes!!!

So... my dear friend Scotchbiscuits tagged me.

I'm gonna tag ...

Ugo Daniels
Simply Clara
Unyc
Be Silent
Aegeus
Komi

Have You Ever Been In Love?

2008-02-16T17:36:00.005-05:00

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

- Neil Gaiman

Have You Ever? - Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words

But they don't come out right

Have you ever,have you ever?

...

Have you ever been in love

Been in love so bad

You'd do anything to make them understand

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away

You'd give anything up to make them feel the same

Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart

But you don't know what to say

And you don't know where to start?

...

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words

But they don't come out right

Have you ever,have you ever?

...

Have you ever found the one

You've dreamed of all your life

You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes and

Dreamed that they were there

And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care?

...

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words

But they don't come out right

Have you ever,have you ever?

...

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby

What do I gotta say to get to your heart

To make you understand how I need you next to me

Gotta get you in my world

'Cuz baby I can't sleep

...

Have you ever?

Boycotting Valentine's Day

2008-02-13T15:59:00.004-05:00

This might come as a surprise to you since I am obviously a HOPELESS ROMANTIC. But it's true. I am boycotting Valentine's day. Why you might ask. Well, you see... my friend is just my FRIEND, and all others... well... they don't 'entice' me. (Don't think entice is the right word.) Actually, that's a lie. There are other guys that would be good candidates but have been ruled out for various reasons like... I don't know them (strangers... fine,sexy strangers), they are too far away, I think they are hott, and sweet too but I don't know him well, (yep I was thinking of someone in particular with this one), and they are not 'my friend'!!! I don't even know why I like him!!! He's such a punk. No he's not... I lied again. He's sweet, and sexy, and smart, he makes me smile even when I don't want to, in short... he's as close to perfect as thet come. So because I can't get who I want I'm boycotting Valentine's day.

However, for all of you that have a Valentine, I hope you have a day filled with hugs and kisses and chocolate and roses and sweet love songs and romantic dinners.

p.s. Don't be surprised if tomorrow I come back and tell you how wonderful valentine's day is :-D

and to my friend.... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! (still love you.........)

OH..... How could I forget...

For those of you without a romantic special someone (cuz everyone has speacial people, they just might not be romantic) have fun and don't let envy of all the ppl with ppl get you down... buy yourself flowers, go out with your single friends, have a ball anyway. Don't be a sourpuss(that is such a strange word) like me and boycott the whole lovey dovey hearts and roses thing.

Can't stop smiling... :-)

2008-02-03T20:43:00.000-05:00

Boys are so silly... :-) They do and say the craziest things... or maybe it's just you. I don't know. Anywho, i'm still smiling.

When I see you smile (Bad English)

When I see you smile

I can face the world, oh oh,

you know I can do anything

When I see you smile

I see a ray of light, oh oh,

I see it shining right through the rain

When I see you smile

Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Hate That I Love You (Rihanna)

[I really don't hate that I love you]

Most everything you do
Make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile??? (no...)

Bubby (Colbie Calliat)

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know

Angel of mine (Monica)

I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

Beautiful Surprise (India Arie)

You're always on my mind
I never could have predicted that I feel this way
You're beautiful surprise.
Intoxicated every time I hear your voice
You've got me on a natural high
It's almost like I didn't even have a choice
You're beautiful surprise
Whatever it is you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause
I believe that we're written in the stars
I don't know the future holds
But I'm living in the moment
And I'm thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are
You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul
You're beautiful surprise
You're inspiration to my life
You're the reason why I smile
You're beautiful surprise

I guess India Arie knows exactly how I feel. I couldn't have described this any better. You really are a Beautiful Surprise.

Ten Things I love about you...

2008-01-20T21:01:00.000-05:00

1. I love the way you talk
your voice soothes my soul

2. I love the way you think
you are sooooooo smart!!! {even though sometimes I swear you have lost your mind}

3. I love the way you smile
at me and make me forget what I was thinking, what I was about to say

4. I love the way you say my name

5. I love the way you look at me
makes me lose my mind but its alright... i love it anyway

6. I love the way you drive
LOL... I know that sounds crazy but baby you don't know how sexy you look!!!

7. I love the way you adore your brother
it's so cute to see you talk about how cool he is

8. I love the way you wear your hair
and I enjoy braiding it too... :-) {that's why I won't teach you how to do it yourself}

9. I love it that you like squirrels and that you gave me control of the radio
you'll never know how much that meant to me :-D

10. I love it that you are such a wonderful friend
you mean the world to me.

2008

2008-01-04T12:15:00.000-05:00

This new year started off at 360 miles per hour... my head is already spinning but IM LOVIN' IT!!! Who would have thought that being back at school would be so fulfilling.... The two weeks break was needed and appreciated but too much of a good thing wears you out. The holiday was different for me this year but it was great none the less.

I enjoyed the food (as always), the curry chicken and baked chicken... no jerk chicken this year *tears*, potato salad, authentic Jamamican style rice and peas with REAL coconut milk...yum yum, lasagna, roti and dahl, escovich fish, etc. and dinner COULDN'T be complete without a slice of rum or fruit cake, and in my case, sliceS of both and a glass of sorrel.... In other words, I stuffed myself so much I couldn't move and have subsequently gained 10 pounds!!!

The company we had for dinner was great too. Not the usual crowd of aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents but friends and lots of them... they are like family anyhow.

The liquor... loved it!!!

So all in all, even with missing all the people I was missing this Christmas I had a ball!!!

I am looking forward to a wonderful, fun-filled and prosperous 2008. Gonna do things bigger and better this year. Live everyday like its my last. And love unconditionally.

Have a Happy New Year!!!

with lots of love

from

me.

Can I Walk With You my Beautiful Surprise?

2007-12-09T19:56:00.002-05:00

You are all I ever wanted and so much more. Just when I thought it was over for me, I could never love again, You came into my life and showed me the beauty of being in love. Never would have believed in fearless loving if it weren't for you. I want you to know. I am Ready For Love. Ready to love. Ready to love you. I love the way you are. The way you appreciate the Little Things. You are The Truth. You Purify Me.

Never being afraid to love.

2007-11-17T21:11:00.001-05:00

Sitting in my room, listening to the Spice Girls and thinking of days long gone and those to come. I remember the days when life was all fun and games, the days when there were no worries. Missing those days and wishing that somehow I could go back. These days there is pain and heartache at every corner. There is no where to run to...no where to hide.Wondering what the future holds, praying for courage and strength to face whatever comes my way. Deciding to live in the moment, making the best of whatever situation I find myself in. Reminding myself to always give thanks for what I've got. Never being too scared to do or say what needs to be done or said. Never being afraid to love.

Gazing into my eyes
Holding onto my hands
Touching my heart.

Whispering sweet nothings in my ear
Gently kissing my lips
Stealing my heart.

Telling me you love me
Promising never to leave me...
Take care of my heart.

Give thanks!!!

2007-11-14T08:04:00.000-05:00

Usually things aren't as bad as they seem.

So what if you have to wake up early in the mornings...
Be thankful that you woke up!
Some people didn't.

So what if you wanted Honey Nut Cheerios for breakfast but there's only Captian Crunch...
Be thankful you have food!
Some people don't.

So what if you can't find a top that matches your pants perfectly...
Be thankful you have clothes!
Some people have none.

So what if this class is challenging...
be thankful you have the oppurtunity to go to school!
Some people can't.

Reagardless of the things we think are wrong with our life we should be thankful because someone else has it worst than we do!

Have a blessed day!!!

2007-08-28T22:02:00.001-04:00

If you haven't done this tag yet, don't. Save it for a boring day. If you already have,feel free to do it again when you reach the place called canttakethisdayanymore. good therapy.

1. Where is my cell phone? hopefully at home waiting for me

2. My Vehicle? in the school parking lot

3. My hair? all tangled up!!!... see ppl, that's why i like to wear it in a ponytail

4. My father? is most likely on the computer at home, doing something math-related, or eating... maybe all of the above.

5. My favorite thing? chillin and listening to music/ talking to my crazy friends

6. My dream last night? something crazy...don't remeber what it was though, but i do remember waking up very confused!

7. My favorite drink? bacardi (strawberry flavor)

8. The room I am in? Library (geekish...eh?)

9. I am? going to a school for nerds!!!!!

10: I love? my Superman

11. What do I want to be in 10 years? a kick-ass Critical Care Doctor

12. Who did I hang out with today? my cousin

13. I am not_______? let the nerds at school creep me out!!!

14. What would not be in my fruit salad? hmmmm....

15. One of my wish list items? getting a chance to spend some 'quality time' with l'amour de ma vie!

16. Today I must________ ? go to bed early!

17. The last thing I did? answer the last question

18. What am I wearing? a black pants, a sexy red blouse and cute black shoes...

20. My computer? is at home

Please allow me to vent.....

2007-08-23T21:07:00.001-04:00

What in the world happened to the good qualities people used to possess like honesty, integrity, respect, etc. Today someone stole my dearly beloved phone and I am pissed!!!

This is what happened...

I was in a department store doing some shopping for school, while I was trying on a pair of shoes I placed my phone down beside me and then got up and left it. In less than a minute it was gone!!! Now, if I had seen a phone laying around that did not belong to me, I would have asked the customers in the store if they had lost a phone. This thief who will not even be able to use the damn phone walked off with my phone. Yes, I know I was careless to walk off and leave my phone but I wasn't even gone for a minute and that still didn't give anyone the right to take it. Besides, there were only 8 people in the store!!! How hard would it have been to ask who the owner of the phone was??? Not that hard!!! I think I know who took it too... sadly I couldnt say anything just in case I was wrong. Life sucks!!! I want my phone!!!

Now how am I gonna talk to my baby??? and my friends???

I WANT BACK MY PHONE!!!!

Food for thought

2007-08-15T21:49:00.000-04:00

I saw this somewhere and thought it would be nice to share it with my blogworld friends. For those of us who are getting ready to start another year of school these are some words we should be thinking of as we prepare ourselves for school.

Innovation
Light up the world with your ideas.

Endurance
The glory is not in never.

Inspiration
Inspiration is the light that transforms rain into rainbows.

Energy

The capacity for action,powered by passion.

Integrity
There is no stronger force than the force of character.

Success
Success is not something to wait for; it’s something to work for.

Confidence
Without it, nothing is possible. With it, nothing is impossible.

Vision
Vision is seeing the opportunity inside the challenge.

Leadership
The art of bringing out the best in other people.

Organization
Organization is the blueprint for building your dreams.

Determination
Find your limits, and then exceed them.

Initiative
Step out, reach out, speak out-make things happen.

Joining in on the Random things-a-mania

2007-07-27T12:52:00.000-04:00

RULES:
1)WE HAVE TO POST THESE RULES BEFORE WE GIVE YOU THE FACTS.
2)PLAYERS START WITH 8 RANDOM FACTS/HABITS ABOUT THEMSELVES.
3)PEOPLE WHO ARE TAGGED NEED TO WRITE THEIR OWN BLOG AND THEIR 8 THINGS AND POST THESE.
4) AT THE END OF YOUR BLOG POST, YOU NEED TO CHOOSE 8 PEOPLE TO GET TAGGED AND LIST THEIR NAMES
5)DON’T FORGET TO LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TELLING THEM THEY ARE TAGGED, AND TO READ YOUR BLOG

There are only two things in the world that can cause me stress; school and men.

I absolutely postivitely have an obsession with poetry and music of all kinds.

I think Dr. He-who-shall-remain-nameless is the most wonderful person in the universe.

I am addicted to facebook.

I've been longing for a drink for so long now that I'm about to add the Happy Hour application on facebook.

As much as I hate to admit it I believe in the concept of "the one".

I want to be a writer when I retire.

I hate "free time".

And now I'm about to tag....

Scotchbiscuits, Princess, Unyc, Klara, Aegeus, Komi, Be Silent, Prettylyf

2007-07-25T17:28:00.000-04:00

Just so you know...

I miss the times we shared

I miss feeling that you cared

I miss the sound of your voice

On the other end of the line

I miss the feeling of security I had

Knowing you were mine

I miss our late night talks

And all the things we used to do

I miss telling you 'I love you'

Wish you still loved me too.

2007-07-10T08:49:00.000-04:00

'The grass is always greener on the other side'. I've heard this quote many times but I am just starting to believe it. A couple weeks ago someone who I consider to be THE coolest person in the world, my idol, said those words to me, but the only thought that came to my mind was "sorry dear, I still have to go...you'll soon get over missing me." Now that I'm on the other side...here's what I have to say... YOU ARE RIGHT... as always, but maybe it's just because I'm missing you, my friends, and my life as I knew it. I expected this move to be a great acheivement, a step in the right direction... I still think it will turn out that way but for now... the grass IS greener on the other side.