HOPES AND DREAMS

persianflower10:

because there is no mr darsey

i seriously wanna be liz bennett

Sent at 9:16 PM on Thursday

me: how abt u be '*******'

and find a nice guy?

huh?

wouldnt that be better

1st of all liz is poor...

darsey is socially retarded

and he is NOT good looking

persianflower10: darseeeeey is amazing

everyone has their faults

me: although in the last scene he is dreamy

persianflower10: darseeeeey is amazing

whatttever

me: only because he has love in his eyes

persianflower10: awwwwwwwwwwww

i know he does, doesnt he?

so damn sweet

*** this is what romantic movies does to young girls. now my dear friend wants mr.darsey, a fictional character. sad. very sad.***

hIgH

I have been trying to do my nails with smudging them for almost 2 weeks now; after over 50 attempts I am yet to have a perfect manicure. It's starting to be very depressing.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, I have started my rotations and I'm super excited! Being in the lab is sooooo much fun! I could totally be a medical technologist, but I still want to move on to medical school.

ON AN EVEN BRIGHTER SIDE, I have a new crush, I think, a very illegal crush. He is in high school... FAIL... I'm going to jail (that rhymes) but he is sooooo cute and adorable. I spend my time in church admiring him. Yes I said church. Don't judge me. LOL

As you might be able to tell I'm a little high tonight. I guess it's from sniffing all that nail polish.

Have a great night peeps!

Single girl new years resolution

This year my new year resolution was not to make one so i wouldn't fail. Guess what? I failed at that too! sigh... so here is my new years resolutionS (lots of them) for this year. And not surprisingly they have to do with finding a man. how lame is that? fail again.

1. Join a co-ed softball team.
2. Never leave the house wearing sweatpants.
3. Use eye cream every single night!!
4. Apply more SPF.
5. Don’t go grocery shopping in big, baggy shirts.
6. Wear high heels more often.
7. Smile!
8. Drink less.
9. Eat less junk.
10. Say yes to being set up.

11. Say no to men who are only out for themselves.

12. Don’t waste more than one date on a bad prospect.

13. Pursue hobbies.
14. Exercise more.
15. Read more books.
16. Don’t date anyone under 28 or 29. (under 25 for me)
17. Stop looking at the 21-year-olds. (sigh... )
18. Borrow a dog and go to a dog park.
19. Work on savings, 401K, etc.
20. Learn to cook (argh).
21. Keep my room clean.
22. Try another dating web site.
23. Move to the suburbs where guys want to settle down.
24. Be sweet and don’t criticize men.
25. Stop cracking knuckles.

I'm adopting this list. lol. everything that is bolded and in red is what i'm gonna do.

* this is borrowed from a blog on yahoo by Erin Meanley*

IM COMING BACK!!!

I have been inspired to write again.

Just last night I was talking with a friend and he asked why I haven't blogged in a while. My answer to his question was simply "I have no inspiration". Well it was more like "I typically whine about boys and school and now I have no boys to whine about so I have nothing to say".

Today, I have boys to whine about. BUT, I shall not whine. I will, instead, make a pledge to come back to blogworld in the upcoming year. NEW & IMPROVED!

I've missed it here.

Now I'm off to see what everyone has been up to! (is that stalking?)

*wonder if anyone else missed me....hmmmmmm....*

MAD BLACK WOMAN

Lately I've been bitter. Really bitter. I've been such a b!tch to everyone who has the ill fate of being around me. It seems like I can't even help being mean, but it's not that I can't help myself I no longer want to. I don't care. I no longer care about anything. I feel like I'm even pulling away from God because I'm so angry at everyone and everything and myself that I don't think God will listen to my prayers. I even feel angry when I think about praying. I can't talk to God" in that tone". I only have one emotion and the only way to express it is to scream, punch something or cry, or all of the preceding at the same time. I seriously need a vacation. Some time ALONE. Really alone. I just want to be alone.

* Things are bad when the only thing that makes me less angry is listening to "3" by Britney Spears. *

sigh...

Everyone seems to be afraid of falling in love and (and/or) allowing someone to fall in love with them.

Have we gotten to the point that we are all scared to death of a broken heart? Or is it that people just don't care anymore. Is it both?

Being in love can be a very wonderful thing. Those that are truly in love, or have been in the past will tell you about the intensity of the joy that it brings. They will explain that it is like none other. Having your heartbroken by the one you love seems to have an even greater impact. It brings you so close to the ground that many wish they could just seep under without anyone even noticing because you'd rather go without being thrown a 'pity party'.

It seems that after being in love and experiencing its pleasure, then being forced to deal with the pain of having the love taken away, no one wants to take the chance of allowing themselves to feel the bliss of being in love as a result of the fear of being thrown back into a state of despair.

I've heard it said many times before ,"once bitten, twice shy", this seems to be the theme of people who have loved and lost. But what about " if at first you don't succeed, brush yourself off and try again".

Happy

*Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So any turns that i can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy