Wrong choice?

Choosing to hide away and not deal with problems is usually a bad choice. But in some cases hiding/shying away could be the solution to the problem.

I'm still not sure as to wheter or not this is a bad choice. I have decided that in order to bring this falling back in love with mon ami to to an end I should also halt our friendship, in other words I'm avoiding him as much as possible so I won't be reminded of how awesome he is. However, I don't think this is a good approach since I still have to see him everyday and he's been so wonderful to me I don't want to be mean to him but I can't seem to pull off this avoiding him thing without being a bitch.

What should I do?!!!

I need help!!!

*why couldn't I still just be in love with the idea of being in love?

My FML story

Have you ever visited the website fmylife.com? It's pretty cool. When you feel like your life is messed up just go on over and read about people with really messed up lives. Some stories are funny and some are just... sad.

However, when you have a story that is worthy to be posted on fmylife.com, nothing, ABSOLUTELY nothing can cheer you up.

So, here is my fmylife story.

On Friday, for some unknown reason I was completely and totally crushing on a friend of mine. Well, if you have been around here for awhile you will know who I'm talking about. This friend has been the topic of numerous my posts, anything involving 'mon ami'.

Anywho... like I was saying, I was really loving this here dude on Friday so much so that my arms kept trying to hug him. Just when I finally decided to let my arms do their thing, his girlfriend called. FML #1.

On Saturday, I really missed this here dude so I decided to talk to him. So I go online and say hi. He responds we exchange a few sentences then he seemed to disappear, so I said 'later' and left. Guess he didn't want to talk. FML#2.

Sunday, I rise with the morning sun, there were no birds singing outside my window but I didn't think much of it. I start studying and waited for this here dude to come online so we could talk. Things are going ok. We aren't really talking but I wasn't missing him. I was alright. Another friend comes online and in our convo decides it would be a good idea to tell me that this here dude and his girl celebrated their anniversary the day before. I am officially depressed. The information was supposed to make me not want him anymore. FAIL.

I still love him. FML #3.

Three strikes you are out. :'(


*FML - fuck my life.


Feel free to find this amusing. I might some time in the future.

HAVE A BETTER DAY THAN I AM!!!

Midnight thoughts of you....

untitled

to love and be loved is the greatest feeling ever
it takes you to the top of the highest mountains
and throws you down into the deepest valleys
but when all is said and done
theres nothing that can compare
to the feeling i feel

whenever you are here.

NJ.

Perfection in the midst of imperfection

As I stand here before you today

Looking into your eyes

I see love like I've never seen it before

The smile upon your face

That cause wrinkles at the corners of your lips;

I see, Imperfection in the midst of perfection.

You take my hand

Say the words I've long wished to hear

Joy and fear saturate my being

I open my mouth and fight to speak

Words that are punctuated by sobs;

I hear, Imperfection in the midst of perfection.

This love we have created

This love that withstands all

This love that helps me rise

This love that remains true

This love that is you.

I feel, Perfection in the midst of imperfection.

Happy Valentine's Day Babe. I love you today, tomorrow and forever.

N.J.

He's just not that into you

Once upon a summer day, in a far way state, a dear friend handed me a pretty pink and green book. As she handed me the book she said, "You really should read this. It might help". I was excited to see what wonderful stories and lessons this little pink and green book had in store for me. Then my eyes caught the title, 'He's just not that into you'. I looked up at this dear friend with a confused and somewhat sad expression and mumbled "who's not into me?". She responsed "him" and pointed to the very handsome guy sitting at the circulation desk in the library. The guy who had been winking and smiling at me for over a month but had not asked me out. This confused and saddened me even more so I said "I don't want him. But...why isn't he?". She put her arm around my shoulders and said "just read the book."

That night I spent hours reading this book that I had now deemed 'evil' because of its brutally honest information. When I finally read the last word of the last sentence of the last paragraph on the last page I realized that my friend was right, he was just not into me. This depressed me.

The day after I was introduced to thebook I returned it to my friend and vowed to never love again. I decided I'd be single forever.

Everytime I hear those words , 'he's just not that into you', whether it's a line in a movie, a quote in a book, or it's being said to a poor heartbroken girl, I see the very handsome guy at the circulation desk smiling at me and I feel sick.

Why do guys play with our feelings? Why can't they just be real?

I can handle the truth, we (girls) all can. And in this case, the sooner we learn the truth the better. So go ahead, lay it all out. Don't feel bad for us because we will soon be over you!



P.S.

The movie 'He's just not that into you' that is based on this very informative book is now in theathres (at least in the US), go see it! My girlfriends and I went to see the movie today. It was pretty good. I didn't really appreciate the fact that it had a typical fairytale ending but I can live with it (deep down somewhere I'm glad it did Keeping hope alive....).

FREE TO BE ME!!!

At twenty years of age i'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But you've already won the battle
And you've got great plans for me
Though i can`t always see

(chorus)

`Cause i got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own i'm so clumsy
But on your shoulders i can see
I'm free to be me

When i was just a girl i thought i had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and i'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes i would doubt

(chorus)

And you`re free to be you
Sometimes i believe that i can do anything
Yet other times i think i've got nothing good to bring
But you look at my heart and you tell me
That i've got all you seek
And it`s easy to believe
Even though

(chorus)

By Francesca Battistelli

Struggling to keep my sanity

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Naresh
2. Nahja
3. Savvy
4. Squirrel

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. St.Ann, Jamaica
2.Mandeville, Jamaica
3. Brunswick, GA
4. Laurel, MD

C) 4 noises that drive you crazy:
1. a weird sound my brother makes especially to annoy me.
2. my alarm
3. sirens
4. helicopters

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. Serendipity
2. Music and Lyrics
3. The Gods Must Be Crazy I&II
4. Rush Hour 3

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. HOUSE!!!!
2. NCIS
3. CSI
4. Jeopardy (it IS a tv show!)

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Florida (all over FL)
2. New York City
3. Texas... i know who goes to Texas for vacation...
4. Jamaica

G) 4 websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Facebook
2.Blackboard (UMB)
3.Yahoo!
4. Youtube

H) 4 of your favorite foods:
1. Curry chicken and Rice and Peas
2. Steam fish and Bammy
3. Ackee and saltfish, green bananas and dumplings
4. Curry goat and white rice

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Bad drivers
2. Free time
3. Dairy
4. Washing dishes

J) 4 of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading
2. Listening to music
3. Watching House
4. Studying... might as well be a hobby.... its what I do in my 'free' time.

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1.Greece
2.France
3.London
4. Italy

L) 4 pets you've had:
1. dog
2. dog
3. parrot
4. goldfish