I really do LOVE SEX!!!

I've thought about it, dreamt about it, read about it, talked about it with my friends but I can't talk about it with the one I should be able to.

Just like a lot of people my age, sex is one of my fave topics :-) After all it is quite interesting. It's all over, EVERYTHING can be related to sex. Its like ... I don't know... it's hard to explain.

This is a weird post... why am I talking about this? sigh....

Well, I can say anything to my friends and not feel 'weird' about it. But I tried to talk about it with... yeh him... and I acted like a freaking 6th grader (from the days when I was in the 6th grade, not these days). How embarassing!

I also have a phobia of kissing, I'm 20! Isn't that weird?

I think I have intimacy issues...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feasting on Soul Food

I was just at my dear friend Scotchie's blog and as I read her post I was reminded of what a great remedy music was for any and every ache, and I needed something to ease my pain so I decided to revert to doing two of my favourite things. Listening to love songs and writing.

So as I listen to this sountrack (Leaving nothing unsaid) that I stole from Scotchie a couple years ago and let the music take me away, I will write about whatever comes to mind...

1. Colour of Love - Boys II Men

Strange enough this song reminds me of Scotchie. LOL. There is a quote that says maybe your girlfriends are your soulmate and guys are just people to have fun with, with every passing day my belief that this statement is completely true increases.

2. Come a little closer- Brandy

I haven't had a lot of people leave me but for some unknown reason it seems like every time I get close to someone I have to leave. :-(

3. The only one for me - Brian McKnight

Yes, Mr. Big... we both know you are the only one for me. "I want still, I always will, cause you're the only one for me".

4. Still - Tamia

my prayer...

5. Trippin - Toni Braxton

Does this mean if you don't fight then you don't really know if your love is real?

6. Charlene - Anthony Hamilton

... you dont know what you have till it's gone...

7. Where will you go - Babyface

This is for you again Mr.Big.

8. Nothing - Brandy

On behalf of my sidekick im dedicating this one to the one that has her heart.

9. I wanna love you - Donnell Jones

Need I say anything?

10. Am I worth it - Heather Headley

Am I worth it? :-/

11. Wings of forgiveness - India Arie

--- same as # 8---

12. Lucky charm - Jagged Edge

On behalf of Daniel i'm dedicating this to Trudy (especially since she loved J.E so much)

13. Crazy - KC & JoJo

I can't think, think about this crazy day

I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately (crazy baby)

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby (I don't know what to do)

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately (crazy, crazy, crazy)

I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy) when I can touch you

Crazy, crazy (I'm going crazy) when I can hold you

Crazy, crazy, (I'm going crazy) when I can see you again

(Said I'm going crazy)

think they need some more crazy 's' to cover me.... missing you terribly Mr.Big!

14. I wish - R.Kelly

where'd this come from Scotchie?

15. Why ask Why - Tamia

Mr.Big, you never have to doubt the love I have for you. I am and will forever be completely and truly and deeply in love with you.

16. Supposed to be - Toni Braxton

;-)


***satisfied***

How does it feel to be in love?

friend: nahjaj how does it feel to be in love?

me: it feels like... u know how it feels to be walking on the beach with the sea breeze blowing in ur face and there are laughing children running around and lovers holding hands and smiling at each other? its better than that !

friend: lmao, that was a very random description

I find it very hard to put into words the way I feel when I think about him. The feelings are ... there I go fighting to come up with words that will at least attempt to do justice to the marvelous things I feel.



So... can you describe How it feels to be in love?

10 greatest loves!

1. My bedroom and all the things in it. I especially love my bed, pillows and blankets :-)
2. My cell phone, I love that I can text/call those dearest to me at almost anytime.
3. My laptop, without it my life would be incomplete.
4. My car, even though I use you and never feed or clean you I still love you.
5. My pillow, I really love my pillow.
6. My soft comfy black jacket that feels like a hug... ahhhhhhh.
7. My poetry book, thanks for keeping my secrets.
8. My wonderful friends! Thanks for always being there.
9. My family, especially my parents and little brother.
10. Neville :-)
11. GOD, thanks for keeping your promise. You have never left me nor forsaken me :-)

*This is obviously from least to most. Had to save the best for last.

** To Neville - no matter how hard I try, I can never stop loving you! (this is one thing i dont mind failing at)

wish me luck!!!

If you found out today was your last day on earth how would you feel? Are there things you will wish you would've done? Things you would've said? Are there things you wished you didn't do? Things you didnt say?

I keep telling myself I need to leave my comfort zone and go out and explore the world without my leash that prevents me from going too far. I need to break the chains that tie me to the door and prevent me from taking risks. It is time to overcome the fear that keeps me in my corner with my hands over my face hoping that 'IT' will go away and I won't have to face it.

I have tired so many times to step out and I have in some cases but I keep coming back. Now that I've learned that I might not be able to escape the restraints of my comfort zone, I have decided to settle for taking vacations. So now I'm trying to build up the courage to step out and grab something (someone) I want and take them back with me.

I don't want to die with regrets, but if I have to have regrets I'd rather it be that I did something than that I never even tried.

Think on these things.

• Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.

Sometimes it is hard to be nice to peolpe when you are facing problems or if they are being unkind to you. But you must always remember to 'do unto others as you would have them do unto you'.

• A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

Think before you speak!

• If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep.

(I'm gonna need to work on this)

• Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

Smile :-)

• The best vitamin for making friends..... B1.

You reap what you sow.

• The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.

Dream big! Aim for the highest achievable goals.

• The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge.

Let go and let God deal with it.

• If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.

• Ideas won't work unless 'you' do.

• Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open.

• The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.

• The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

As long as you have breath... there is hope!

• Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

• Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!

SLOW FADE

by Casting Crowns

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what you see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see