Waiting to exhale...

It's somewhat relieving to know that I'm not the only one that has had to endure this pain but it also makes me sad to know other people have to feel this way. I hate this roller coaster that I'm on. I wish I could just not care anymore so the pain would go away. They say time heals all wounds but this one seems to be getting wider with every passing day. Until the day I get over you (I don't even want to get with you) and move on I am here sitting in my room, thinking bout you, almost wishing I never met you.

"Never again" that's what I said to myself

I never wanna feel kind of pain again boy

Just when I think it's over

Just when I think it's through

I find myself right back in love with you

So why does it hurt so bad oh baby

Why do I feel so sad

Thought I was over you

I keep crying

When I don't love you

So why does it hurt so bad

I thought I had let you go

You could

Gotta get you outta my head

Boy you hurt me so bad

(from Whitney Houston- Why does it hurt so bad)

you

i want you

only you

i keep coming back to you

what is it with you

i guess its just you being you

i love you

Can't eat, Can't sleep, Not falling in love!

For the past couple days I've only been eating to stay alive. I have to force myself to put the food in my mouth, chew and swallow. As if this isn't bad enough, I can't sleep. You'd think that since I can't sleep I would stay up late and be productive, or at least pass the time on facebook. This is not the case. I stay in bed, eyes closed, dreaming, but not sleeping. I have intense headaches probably due to the lack of sleep and maybe to the fact that I'm dehydrated. The only liquids to pass my lips is water and mouthwash I use to rinse.  I don't know how I to fix my current "im falling in love symptoms" especially since it's not due to the usual cause. Hopefully it will all go away soon and I can go back to being normal, as relative as that might be.

p.s.  Love kinda stinks sometimes, doesn't it?  just sayin...