Monday, August 24, 2009

Still...

After going through this many times in my life, I still get butterflies in my stomach. Not becasue I am afraid. This is the result of overwhelming joy.

Today is the first day of school. 4th yr in university. Stop looking at me like that! School is fun...on occasions.

I still pack my bag overnight, think about what I should wear, how I'm going to comb my hair. I even think about what I'll have for lunch.

I still wake up hours before its time to get ready and stare at the clock with anticipation.

Thoughts of what the year will be like, all the things I'll learn, all the people I will meet, how much I'll long for the next break after the first week flow in my mind.

There is a pleasant smile fixed on my lips.

This is year I vow to do my best. Try to limit the procrastination. Maybe I'll leave the latter for another time.


HERE'S TO ANOTHER GREAT YEAR!!!

CHEERS



*p.s.*

As I wrote this is was listening to Pandora radio. These people know the inner working of my mind. They know exactly what to play. Five stars for Pandora!!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Never forget your worth


By the time the Lord made woman he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared to him and said, “Why are you spending so much time on this one?”
The Lord answered, “Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 moveable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she will do everything with only two hands.”
The angel was astounded at the requirements. “Only two hands? No way! And that’s just on the standard model? That’s too much work for one day; wait until tomorrow to finish.”
“But I won’t” the Lord protested. “I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick and can work 18 hour days.”
The angel moved closer and touched the woman. “But you have made her so soft, Lord.”
“She is soft” the Lord agreed, “but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.”
“Will she be able to think?” asked the angel.
The Lord replied, “Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate.”
The angel then noticed something, and reached out, touched the woman’s cheek. “Oops it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.”
“That’s not a leak” the Lord corrected, “that’s a tear!”
“What’s the tear for?” the angel asked.
The Lord said, “the tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride.”
The angel was impressed. “You are a genius Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing.”
And she is.
Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and carry their burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don’t take “no” for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a wedding or a birth. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours. They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or email to show you how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their friends and family. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
However, if there is one flaw in women,
it is that they forget their worth.
*inspirational forwarded message*

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

almost defeated...


I haven't posted anything in a while because I've been busy studying for the MCAT, thinking about studying for the MCAT or convincing myself that I should be studying for the MCAT.


At this point, I am not studying for the MCAT. I am, however, freaking out about the Phsyics II class I am taking. Today was the third class and I am completely lost! I found it hard, in fact, IMPOSSIBLE to comprehend what the professor was lecturing about, and I have a test tomorrow. I have put off taking this class for 4 years because I knew it's not one of my strong points but now I'm thinking I might have to change my career and life plans because of this stupid class! Why on earth do I need to know any Physics?!


I am so frustrated now. I just want to go to sleep and pray that when I wake up this will all go away.


I would drop the class and go to plan B (skip medical school and be a physician assistant) but I can't tell my parents that I'm going to waste over $1,000 (it's too late to get a refund for the class and I already paid for my MCAT too...).


What am I going to do?


I need a tutor and some help from God realllllly bad!


:'(

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Live like you were dying!

i've been doing crazy things all wknd in the name of being bold. i now know why people do some of the outrageous things they do. the adrenaline rush is awesome!!! (after u get the courage to do it and before u start worrying abt the consequences) but i also now know that staying in ur comfort zone is ok because in the morning even if u have regrets you won't have to worry abt broken bones or a broken reputation. hopefully when all is said and done my bones and reputation will still be in tip top shape! LOL


***soundtrack***

1. Calle Ocho (I know you want me) - Pitbull
2. Love Games - Lady Gaga
3. Live like you were dying - Tim McGraw

Saturday, June 13, 2009

God loves you and is with you!

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall filled.

Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

REJOICE AND BE EXCEEDINGLY GLAD: for GREAT IS YOUR REWARD in heaven: for so persecuted they the prohphets which were before you.

Matthew 5 vs 3-12

Thursday, June 11, 2009

blogging...

if you have been reading my blog for awhile you will know that there are 2 guys that I have very strong feelings for, they are both 2 of my best friends (they know about each other but don't know each other...) and that i seem to fluctuate between the 2. crappy life, i know.

in the past 2 days i've had 'serious talks' with both of them.

friend #1 said we'll only be friends.

friend #2 basically said deny God and i'll marry u.

FML

during the convo with friend # 1 he was describing the guy i should give my heart to, the guy that will do good to me. all roads led to friend # 2.

i dont know why i'm blogging or what i'm saying. but i do know that God and I will be talking abt this as soon as I get to heaven.

till then i'm gonna keep on believing that God has someone in store for me, like friend #2 described "just like me (talking abt himself...) but religious".

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Its time....


What do you do when the one thing you need to do is the one thing you don't want to do?


How can you let go when all you want to do is hold on?