FAREWELL 2006!!!

As I say goodbye to 2006 I reflect on all that took place in the past year. So many great things happened in 2006, the only things that would have made it absolutely perfect would be me getting my MD degree and finding the man of my dreams(actually I know the man of my dreams , he just isn't mine...anymore...). I have so much to be thankful for. My year was definitely prosperous and I thank God for his many blessings.

Thank God for the best family, wonderful friends and FINE young men!!!!!!

Now for my new year resolutions!!!!!!!

1.Be more spiritually grounded.
2. Get my degree!!!
3. Find a man...lol !!!
4. Get fit.
5. Find a man!!!

Why Did You Make Me Black Lord...

Having lived in Jamaica all my life, I never really faced racism. I never went through any of the things I have heard some of my friends who have lived here talk about. Since I've been here I've been faced with certain situations in which I was discriminated against because of the color of my skin. However, it has not affected me in the way it affects my African-American friends. I have found it easy to just 'shake it off' and class the people who 'tried' to hold me down, as ignorant. I know what I can do, who cares what they think. Although, I strongly believe if African Americans would do as I do they would not feel inferior and would be able to overcome the pressure, I understand it is easier said than done. I wish there was a way I could reach out the the African-Americans and give them a way to ignore racial discrimination and prove themselves worthy of equal treatment. We all wish for a society where there is no racism and we are all treated equally. But until this is achieved we need to hold our heads up and prove to the world that despite all the opposition we are able to succeed. We are strong. We are survivors. We are BLESSED!!!

Someone sent me this in an email and I thought it would be nice to share this to encourage those who need the encouragement.

Why Did You Make Me Black Lord .....Lord .....
Why did you make me black?
Why did you make someone the world would hold back?

Black is the color of dirty clothes,of grimy hands and feet...
Black is the color of darkness,of tired beaten streets...

Why did you give me thick lips,a broad nose and kinky hair?
Why did you create someone who receives the hated stare?

Black is the color of the bruised eye when someone gets hurt...
Black is the color of darkness,black is the color of dirt.

Why is my bone structure so thick,my hips and cheeks so high?
Why are my eyes brown,and not the color of the sky?
Why do people think I'm useless?
How come I feel so used?
Why do people see my skin and think I should be abused?

Lord, I just don't understand....
What is it about my skin?
Why is it some people want to hate me and not know the person within?

Black is what people are "Labeled"when others want to keep them away...
Black is the color of shadows cast...
Black is the end of the day.

Lord you know my own people mistreat me,and you know this just ain't right...
They don't like my hair, they don't like my skin, as they say I'm too dark or too light!
Lord, don't you think it's time to make a change?
Why don't you redo creation and make everyone the same?

GOD's Reply:

Why did I make you black?
Why did I make you black?

I made you in the color of coal from which beautiful diamonds are formed...
I made you in the color of oil,the black gold which keeps people warm.
Your color is the same as the rich dark soil that grows the food you need...
Your color is the same as the black stallion and panther,
Oh what majestic creatures indeed!
All colors of the heavenly rainbow can be found throughout every nation...
When all these colors are blended,you become my greatest creation!

Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool,such a beautiful creature is he...
I am the shepherd who watches them,I will ALWAYS watch over thee!
You are the color of the midnight sky,I put star glitter in your eyes...
There's a beautiful smile hidden behind your pain...
That's why your cheeks are so high!

You are the color of dark clouds from the hurricanes I create in September...
I made your lips so full and thick,so when you kiss...they will remember!
Your stature is strong,your bone structure thick to withstand the burden of time...
The reflection you see in the mirror,that image that looks back,..that is MINE!

So get off your knees,look in the mirror and tell me what you see?
I didn't make you in the image of darkness...
I made you in the image of ME!


Hope I made someone's day brighter.

Keep your heads up!!!!!!!!

Hope I didn't offend anyone. If I did I'm sorry!!!!!!!!

It's finally here!!!! My last day at school...at least fot this semester. Never thought I'd have survived. Despite the fact that I'm freezing my ass off I'm as happy as can be. The partying is offically on. I'm so going to out do Britney Spears and Paris Hilton this holiday. However, I will be wearing panties.
It is way beyond my comprehension how Britney Spears could be so stupid. I am not usually into celeb gossip but this girl has me reading magazines and watching E wandering what silly thing she did that day. What makes her think it's fine to go out partying without undies, especially when she KNOWS she is being watched, plus she doesn't even try to conceal her 'u know what' (some doctor I'm gonna be...). And to top it off she in the middle of a custody battle. What a way to impress the judge.

I know you must have a comment on the wild behaviours of celebs... let me hear it!!!!

Fried Brains...

Im back!!!!!!!!! Although I shouldn't be...at least not tonight. Microbiology final tomorrow....(scream)...will I be sane after it's over...we'll see. Life has been full of homework filled mornings, evenings, noons and nights. I barely have time for life sustaining things like EATING. That, my friend, is very sad. I say a lot of things are sad, don't I? Sorry...I guess life as a college student..or at this college is sad.
Previous semesters were fun-filled.There were fascinating 'male creatures', which was good enough to keep me interested in school. I mean what can I say, I am totally intrigued by them. They are, after all, one of the finer things in life, despite their many flaws.
Well, since my brain is already partially fried. I guess I should save whatever brain functions I have left to help me do the Micro final.

Wish me luck!!!!!

GOOD LUCK TO ALL WHO HAVE FINALS!!!!

I will be praying for u!!!!

TELL HIM???

School is stressing me big time!!!!!!!!!!! Four papers due in one week!!!!! Finals coming up!!!!!!!! WHEW...HOW WILL I SURVIVE???

On a brighter note... I have a new crush... well it may not be that bright since hes currently involved in a relationship and has a child!!!! Nope...no tears...I'm fine. But as I was thinking bout my new 'man' this song came into my head. It encourages us women to speak our mind and tell 'him' what we feel. That's good and all but it doesn't say what we should do if we fall flat on our faces. And again...I am not on my face...weird...but true. However, despite this downfall this is one of my favourite songs. After all I've always heard 'It's better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all'. HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Celine Dion - Tell Him Lyrics


I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Should I

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's mean to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

I'll

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Blind faith will lead love where it has to go

Never let him go

Heights of Boredom

I dont think I've ever been this bored in my life. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... I am about to beat up the computer, the desk and chairs for lack of a better thing to do. I read a million blogs which kept me entertained for a while. But now Im seriously thinking about stripping and running around campus naked to entertain myself and maybe...just maybe some of my fellow students. However,...... I'm hoping you..my blog world friends can help me out of this predicament. Give me ideas of things to do when I get bored at work so I will stay out of trouble and not get kicked out of school.


Thanks much!!!!

HERE IS WHERE I STAND

Tiffany Taylor


Here in the Dark
I stand before you
This is my chance to show you my heart
This is the start, this is the start.

I have so much to say and I'm hoping
That your Arms are open
Don't turn away, don't you need me?
But you have to hear me.

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Love me, but don't tell me who I have to be
Here's who I am,
I'm what you see.

You said I had to change and I was trying
But my heart was lying
I'm not a child any longer
I am stroooongerrrr

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Help me, to move on but please don't tell me how
I'm on my way,
I'm moving out
In this life we've come so far but we're only who we are (who we are)

Courage of love (Courage of Love)
Will show us the way (Show us the way)
Unlock the power
To stand up and saaaaa--aaaaayyy
(Stand upppp)(Up and say!)

Herreeeee's where I stand
Here's who I am(Stand Up)
I'll be counting, counting on you
If you're with me, we'll make it through

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Love me, Love me,
Love me, and we'll make it through

Here's where I stand,Baby, Baby, Baby,
I'm counting on you
Here's where I stand

Love me, Love me,
Love me, and we'll make it through
I'm counting, Oooh,
I'm counting,I'm counting, I'm counting onn....
Yooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Black Socks

I dont know why this song popped up in my head today but I'm glad it did. It reminds me of the good old days when my crazy friends and I used to let it ring in the class. Those were the days!!!! Dedicated to all my friends at my beloved alma mater.


Black socks
They never dirty
The longer you wear them
The stronger they get

Sometimes
I think I should wash them
But something inside me
Says no no not yet

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest ( Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 and John 13:34)

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 and Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3: 5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 and Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given every one a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

BOXERS OR BRIEF????

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"


REMEMBER: Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-

HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUST WHAT I WAS THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He holds me when I start to cry,
Makes me smile with just his eyes,
Shares my hopes, my dreams, my fears;
He wipes away all my tears.
I love him so, without regrets-
But, I just haven't found him yet.

WUZZZUP... I'm just stopping by to say hi. Don't have any time for bloggarationing today. Later!!!!!

NEW AND IMPROVED!!!

I've been so busy with school I haven't had a chance to post a decent blog, or comment on other peoples blogs. Well, midterm grades are out, and after getting over the fact that I'm failing one class and having As in six others I've decided its time I come back to the blogosphere and greet all my peeps. So peeps...WAD UP!!!!!!!!!!!! There have been so many changes in my personality in the past week it's crazy. I couldn't believe I could have made such an improvement in only one week. And as I was surfing the net, for I don't even remember what, I came across this peom. Wish I'd seen it a long time ago. ENJOY!!!

My Comfort Zone
Author Unknown


I use to have a Comfort Zone

Where I knew I couldn't fail

The same four walls of busy work

Were really more like jail.

I longed so much to do the things

I'd never done before,

But I stayed inside my Comfort Zone

And paced the same old floor

I claimed to be so busy

With the things inside my zone,

But deep inside I longed for

Something special of my own.

I couldn't let my life go by,

Just watching others win.

I held my breath and stepped outside

And let the change begin.

I took a step and with new strength

I'd never felt before,

I kissed my Comfort Zone 'goodbye'

And closed and locked the door.

If you are in a Comfort Zone,

Afraid to venture out,

Remember that all winners were

At one time filled with doubt.

A step or two and words of praise,

Can make your dreams come true.

Greet your future with a smile,

Success is there for you!

RIGHT TO FAIL

**********************************************************************Taking a test?Then you have the right to fail in styleSo you truly have no possible way to pass it?Then.......Do these if you are going to fail the exam anyway!**********************************************************************
Roll up your coat to form a pillow and pretend to fall asleep until the last 20 minutes of the exam.Then wake up, do some gibberish work and hand it in a few minutes early.

Make paper airplanes out of the exam paper.

When you have finished your paper, start marking it in red ink.

Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm SOOO sure you can hear me thinking." Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is.

Bring cheerleaders and supporters.

Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About five minutes into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who the hell are you? Where's the regular guy?


Bring a CD Player or Game Boy. Play the device with the volume at max level.


On the answer sheet (book, whatever) find a new, interesting way to refuse to answer every question. For example: I refuse to answer this question on the grounds that it conflicts with my religious beliefs. Be creative.

Bring a pet.

Fifteen minutes into the exam, stand up, rip up all the papers into very small pieces, throw them into the air and yell out "Merry Christmas." If you're really daring, ask for another copy of the exam. Say you lost the first one. Repeat this process every fifteen minutes.


Do the exam with crayons, paint, or fluorescent markers.

Come into the exam wearing slippers, a bathrobe, a towel on your head, and nothing else.

Come down with a severe case of Turet's Syndrome during the exam. Be as vulgar as possible.


Do the entire exam in another language, e.g. Klingon. If you don't know one, make one up! For math/science exams, try using Roman numerals.

Bring things to throw at the instructor when s/he's not looking. Blame it on the person nearest to you.

As soon as the instructor hands you the exam, eat it.

Walk into the exam with an entourage. Claim you are going to be taping your next video during the exam. Try to get the instructor to let them stay, be persuasive. Tell the instructor to expect a percentage of the profits if they are allowed to stay.

Every five minutes, stand up, collect all your things, move to another seat, continue with the exam. Turn in the exam approximately 30 minutes into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it was.

Do the entire exam as if it was multiple choice and true/false. If it is a multiple choice exam, spell out interesting things (DCCAB. BABE. etc..).

Bring a black marker. Return the exam with all questions and answers completely blacked out.

Get the exam. Twenty minutes into it, throw your papers down violently, scream out "Feck this!" and walk out triumphantly.

Arrange a protest before the exam starts (i.e. Threaten the instructor that whether or not everyone's done, they are all leaving after one hour to go drink)

Show up completely drunk. (Completely drunk means at some point during the exam, you should start crying for mommy).

Every now and then, clap twice rapidly. If the instructor asks why, tell him/her in a very derogatory tone, "the light bulb that goes on above my head when I get an idea is hooked up to a clapper. DUH!"

Comment on how sexy the instructor is looking that day.

Come to the exam wearing a black cloak. After about 30 minutes, put on a white mask and start yelling "I'm here, the phantom of the opera" until they drag you away.

Go to an exam for a class you have no clue about, where you know the class is very small, and the instructor would recognize you if you belonged. Claim that you have been to every lecture. Fight for your right to take the exam. Upon receiving the exam, look it over, while laughing loudly, say "you don't really expect me to waste my time on this drivel? Days of our Lives is on !"

Bring a water pistol with you. Nuff said.

From the moment the exam begins, hum the theme to Jeopardy. Ignore the instructor's requests for you to stop. When they finally get you to leave one way or another, begin whistling the theme to the Bridge on the River Kwai.

Start a brawl in the middle of the exam. If the exam is math/science related, make up the longest proofs you could possibly think of. Get pi and imaginary numbers into most equations. If it is a written exam, relate everything to your own life story.

Come in wearing a full knight's outfit, complete with sword and shield.

Bring a friend to give you a back massage the entire way through the exam. Insist this person is needed, because you have bad circulation.

Bring cheat sheets to another class (make sure this is obvious... like business notes for a math exam... otherwise you're not just failing, you're getting kicked out too) and staple them to the exam, with the comment "Please use the attached notes for references as you see fit."

When you walk in, complain about the heat. Strip.

After you get the exam, call the instructor over, point to any question, ask for the answer. Try to work it out of him/her.

Try to get people in the room to do the wave.

Play frisbee with a friend at the other side of the room.

Bring some large, cumbersome, ugly idol. Put it right next to you. Pray to it often. Consider a small sacrifice.


Get deliveries of candy, flowers, balloons, telegrams, etc... sent to you every few minutes throughout the exam.

During the exam, take apart everything around you. Desks, chairs, anything you can reach.


Complete the exam with everything you write being backwards at a 90 degree angle. Bring a musical instrument with you, play various tunes. If you are asked to stop, say "it helps me think." Bring a copy of the Student Handbook with you, challenging the instructor to find the section on musical instruments during finals. Don't forget to use the phrase "Told you so

I know I just posted a weird blog but here comes another. Some older guy just walked over and gave me a peppermint candy...LOL...LMAO...said it was to brighten my day. Hope its not cuz I look depressed. Was kinda sweet though...I think. What do u think???

every page I've visited today has something about philosophy Im guessing that ya'lls way of telling me to go and study(Philosophy test tomorrow). NEWS FALSH: NOT WORKING!!!! but thanks anyway. :-)

BACK INTO THE SHELL...IT'S SAFER THERE

45 things a girl would DIE for

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly

are you remembering this?

6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're with your friends

keep reading

11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved

Are you thinking about someone?

16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!..u need to show her you mean it too


21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can still helpwe might deny it but we actually like and kinda want you to get us things


26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on youare you still reading this u better be its important


31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort herremember this next time you are with her


36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible


41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you love her.youll never know when she needs just a lil more love

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill

When the funds are low and the debts are high

And you want to smile but you have to sigh

When care is pressing you down a bit

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns

As every one of us sometimes learns

And many a fellow turns about

When he might have won if he'd stuck it out

Don't give up though the pace seems slow

You may succeed with another blow

Often the goal is nearer than it seems

To a faint and a faltering man

Often the struggler has given up

When he might have captured the victor's cup

And he learned too late when the night came down

How close he was to the golden crown

Success is failure turned inside out

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt

And you never can tell how close you are

It maybe near when it seems afar

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit

It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

*Borrowed from a fellow bloggers page*

Lust is a sad thing... I know this isn't love.

WISE WORDS

NEVER LONG FOR SOMEONE IN YOUR PAST. THERE IS A REASON THEY NEVER MADE IT TO YOUR FUTURE.



Taken from someone's myspace page...thought I'd pass on the words of wisdom.

THE WEEKEND IS HERE!!!!!

I AM ESTATIC!!!!The weekend is finally here. The most heavenly thing on earth. No school, no stress!!! After a long week at school and all the drama that comes with that, the weekend is more than welcomed. I can't complain, this week was awesome... on the social scene...I think I'm slowly but surely crawling out of my shell...yay me!!!

How can you play this game without your heart?
I try to understand your motive and your thoughts
But it gets harder with each hug and each kiss,
I thought I could play too, and be just like you
But I didn't know how hard it would be for me to be untrue.

Can't you be honest and play fair, just this once
I think I'm worth it, give me a chance
There's so much I want to do, so much I want to say
But I can't because I know, you'll never feel the same way

I wish you could know exactly how I feel
Without judging me with your heart of stone;
I tried not to get caught up in you
But how could I resist, when you do the things you do.

Now the game is ending, I'm trying to hold on
But is there anything worth holding on to
I enjoyed it while it lasted, or so I'd like to believe
I'm wishing you'll somehow change miraculously
And decide to play fair
Just know I won't always be here.

What If???

I believe there is someone for me
My fear is he won't be who I want him to be
What if he's not like anything I expected
What if he's someone I already rejected
How do I know for sure
Who I was meant for
What if there's no special sign
What if he doesn't like the design

Smiling Back At Me

Who would have thought this could be
You sitting there smiling back at me
My knees are weak
My hands are shaking
But now my heart is no longer aching.

How long will this feeling last
Is all my heartache forever in the past
I can't help but think
This is all a dream
You sitting there smiling back at me.

Tired...Stressed

I'm so tired of all this crap!!! I've been told guys aren't complicated and that might be true but the situations they put females are most definitely without a doubt COMPLICATED!!! or maybe its just the situations they put me in.

Before I continue to complain let me ask all you guys a question (ladies if you know anything about the subject feel free to comment) HOW DO YOU KNOW IF A GUY IS INTO YOU???

Disappointed

Thought it would be ok
Thought I would be fine
Thought I could risk it
And get off that thin line

Playing it safe was getting dull
Time to let down my hair
Feel the breeze, smell the roses
Let go of my fear

Follow your heart
Don't listen to your head
That's exactly what I did
Now I'm where I was led

In this jeering room
Thinking fo you
Wondering what happened
And why I'm still blue

A Friend

Someone to turn to
For scomfort and help
Someone who is there
In sickness and in health
Someone with whom
Your secrets are safe
Someone to cheer you up
On those dreadful days
No matter your sex
No matter your race
No matter the age
Or the coler of your face
Everyone needs a friend
Someone on whom you can depend.