Can I Walk With You my Beautiful Surprise?

You are all I ever wanted and so much more. Just when I thought it was over for me, I could never love again, You came into my life and showed me the beauty of being in love. Never would have believed in fearless loving if it weren't for you. I want you to know. I am Ready For Love. Ready to love. Ready to love you. I love the way you are. The way you appreciate the Little Things. You are The Truth. You Purify Me.

Never being afraid to love.

Sitting in my room, listening to the Spice Girls and thinking of days long gone and those to come. I remember the days when life was all fun and games, the days when there were no worries. Missing those days and wishing that somehow I could go back. These days there is pain and heartache at every corner. There is no where to run to...no where to hide.Wondering what the future holds, praying for courage and strength to face whatever comes my way. Deciding to live in the moment, making the best of whatever situation I find myself in. Reminding myself to always give thanks for what I've got. Never being too scared to do or say what needs to be done or said. Never being afraid to love.


Gazing into my eyes
Holding onto my hands
Touching my heart.

Whispering sweet nothings in my ear
Gently kissing my lips
Stealing my heart.

Telling me you love me
Promising never to leave me...
Take care of my heart.

Give thanks!!!

Usually things aren't as bad as they seem.

So what if you have to wake up early in the mornings...
Be thankful that you woke up!
Some people didn't.

So what if you wanted Honey Nut Cheerios for breakfast but there's only Captian Crunch...
Be thankful you have food!
Some people don't.

So what if you can't find a top that matches your pants perfectly...
Be thankful you have clothes!
Some people have none.

So what if this class is challenging...
be thankful you have the oppurtunity to go to school!
Some people can't.

Reagardless of the things we think are wrong with our life we should be thankful because someone else has it worst than we do!

Have a blessed day!!!

If you haven't done this tag yet, don't. Save it for a boring day. If you already have,feel free to do it again when you reach the place called canttakethisdayanymore. good therapy.

1. Where is my cell phone? hopefully at home waiting for me

2. My Vehicle? in the school parking lot

3. My hair? all tangled up!!!... see ppl, that's why i like to wear it in a ponytail

4. My father? is most likely on the computer at home, doing something math-related, or eating... maybe all of the above.

5. My favorite thing? chillin and listening to music/ talking to my crazy friends

6. My dream last night? something crazy...don't remeber what it was though, but i do remember waking up very confused!

7. My favorite drink? bacardi (strawberry flavor)

8. The room I am in? Library (geekish...eh?)

9. I am? going to a school for nerds!!!!!

10: I love? my Superman

11. What do I want to be in 10 years? a kick-ass Critical Care Doctor

12. Who did I hang out with today? my cousin

13. I am not_______? let the nerds at school creep me out!!!

14. What would not be in my fruit salad? hmmmm....

15. One of my wish list items? getting a chance to spend some 'quality time' with l'amour de ma vie!

16. Today I must________ ? go to bed early!

17. The last thing I did? answer the last question

18. What am I wearing? a black pants, a sexy red blouse and cute black shoes...

20. My computer? is at home

Please allow me to vent.....

What in the world happened to the good qualities people used to possess like honesty, integrity, respect, etc. Today someone stole my dearly beloved phone and I am pissed!!!

This is what happened...

I was in a department store doing some shopping for school, while I was trying on a pair of shoes I placed my phone down beside me and then got up and left it. In less than a minute it was gone!!! Now, if I had seen a phone laying around that did not belong to me, I would have asked the customers in the store if they had lost a phone. This thief who will not even be able to use the damn phone walked off with my phone. Yes, I know I was careless to walk off and leave my phone but I wasn't even gone for a minute and that still didn't give anyone the right to take it. Besides, there were only 8 people in the store!!! How hard would it have been to ask who the owner of the phone was??? Not that hard!!! I think I know who took it too... sadly I couldnt say anything just in case I was wrong. Life sucks!!! I want my phone!!!

Now how am I gonna talk to my baby??? and my friends???

I WANT BACK MY PHONE!!!!

Food for thought

I saw this somewhere and thought it would be nice to share it with my blogworld friends. For those of us who are getting ready to start another year of school these are some words we should be thinking of as we prepare ourselves for school.

Innovation
Light up the world with your ideas.

Endurance
The glory is not in never.

Inspiration
Inspiration is the light that transforms rain into rainbows.

Energy

The capacity for action,powered by passion.

Integrity
There is no stronger force than the force of character.

Success
Success is not something to wait for; it’s something to work for.

Confidence
Without it, nothing is possible. With it, nothing is impossible.

Vision
Vision is seeing the opportunity inside the challenge.

Leadership
The art of bringing out the best in other people.

Organization
Organization is the blueprint for building your dreams.

Determination
Find your limits, and then exceed them.

Initiative
Step out, reach out, speak out-make things happen.

Joining in on the Random things-a-mania

RULES:
1)WE HAVE TO POST THESE RULES BEFORE WE GIVE YOU THE FACTS.
2)PLAYERS START WITH 8 RANDOM FACTS/HABITS ABOUT THEMSELVES.
3)PEOPLE WHO ARE TAGGED NEED TO WRITE THEIR OWN BLOG AND THEIR 8 THINGS AND POST THESE.
4) AT THE END OF YOUR BLOG POST, YOU NEED TO CHOOSE 8 PEOPLE TO GET TAGGED AND LIST THEIR NAMES
5)DON’T FORGET TO LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TELLING THEM THEY ARE TAGGED, AND TO READ YOUR BLOG

• There are only two things in the world that can cause me stress; school and men.


• I absolutely postivitely have an obsession with poetry and music of all kinds.


• I think Dr. He-who-shall-remain-nameless is the most wonderful person in the universe.


• I am addicted to facebook.


• I've been longing for a drink for so long now that I'm about to add the Happy Hour application on facebook.


• As much as I hate to admit it I believe in the concept of "the one".


• I want to be a writer when I retire.


• I hate "free time".

And now I'm about to tag....

Scotchbiscuits, Princess, Unyc, Klara, Aegeus, Komi, Be Silent, Prettylyf

Just so you know...


I miss the times we shared



I miss feeling that you cared



I miss the sound of your voice



On the other end of the line



I miss the feeling of security I had



Knowing you were mine



I miss our late night talks



And all the things we used to do



I miss telling you 'I love you'



Wish you still loved me too.

'The grass is always greener on the other side'. I've heard this quote many times but I am just starting to believe it. A couple weeks ago someone who I consider to be THE coolest person in the world, my idol, said those words to me, but the only thought that came to my mind was "sorry dear, I still have to go...you'll soon get over missing me." Now that I'm on the other side...here's what I have to say... YOU ARE RIGHT... as always, but maybe it's just because I'm missing you, my friends, and my life as I knew it. I expected this move to be a great acheivement, a step in the right direction... I still think it will turn out that way but for now... the grass IS greener on the other side.

Questions????

Do you believe the concept of "the one", couldn't there be more than one person out there that could be for you?

Can you be "in love" with more than one person at the same time?

I've been trying to figure all this out and I'm going nowhere fast.

Opinions please...

POST-GRAD POST

Graduation was GRRRRRRRRRRREAT!!!!

I really didn't expect to enjoy it half as much as I did. I felt like a dignitary walking up with the platform party. Oh la la... that kind of experience will cause headomagly (enlargement of the head)...lol!!!

I was so nervous when I got on the platform and knew that in less than an hour I would have to give my speech in front of more than 1500 people!!!!

Thankfully, I didn't choke up!!! I gave my speech without totally freaking out. Note: I did freak out, just not as much as I thought I would.

Anyway people... here is the speech as requested by be silent.....

Graduation Speech (2007)

We are all children of a father who finds great joy in our achievements. To my mind, this knowledge is a source of encouragement to strengthen our resolve in forming a pattern of success in physical, intellectual and spiritual field.
In addition, the associations that we have developed within the walls of this institution are ones in which mutual benefits have been derived, thereby augmenting the proficiency of all stakeholders. And as we prepare to move on from this significant milestone where our mutual purpose characterized our sojourn here, let us be mindful that this reciprocity transcend all barriers that might otherwise inhibit our success.
Furthermore, the rich history and dynamic structural organization of this institution has in no uncertain terms helped us to prepare for the challenges that invariably lie ahead. We have developed strong personal relationships with faculty members who have offered their time and talents giving us great individual attention to meet those challenges. This has produced a tingling excitement in my brain with a yearning to explore other horizons in a quest to achieve greatness.
The token of our value and potential as prospective contributors to the development of society is amplified tremendously by the repertoire of experiences and skills we have garnered over the years. Think of all the activities in which we have all participated (clubs, societies, sporting activities, community projects, volunteer organizations, etc.) at the various educational institutions and in our homes that has equipped us with skills to impact civilization in a positive way. These skills can be implemented yielding generous results as we seek to contribute even more in uplifting conversations, rewarding transactions and record breaking negotiations.
I have grown to realize that a significant aspect of what transpires between a student and an institution which might seem abstract and figurative during the union, becomes more concrete and literal after the student grows incrementally in stature, advances delicately in maturity and increase proficiently in wisdom. I trust that this is the kind of paradigm shift which encourages the most pragmatic transfer of knowledge into useful applications thus facilitating the process of problem solving.
With all this in mind fellow students, I am inviting you to join me in a bi-lateral agreement, to represent our beautiful communities in which we live firstly, our soon to be alma-mater Costal Georgia Community College secondly, and last but by no means least, our expectant parents some of whom are sitting in this audience beaming with pride because of us. Let us resolve to extend ourselves to the best of our individual and collective aptitudes in our actions thoughts and the expressions from our lips. Not only to ensure the continued good name of all these institutions but also to make an impact on the advancement of civilization in whatever field we choose to hone and consequently practice our skills in the future. Let us resolve to raise the banner and wave the flag high to let the world know that we have come from homes where love abounds and nurturing is plentiful, and we are graduating from an institution of excellence where an atmosphere of concern for the welfare and success of each student is top priority.


I even said the big words right!!!... I think...lol

P.S. Another graduation related post coming soon...

PRE-GRAD POST

TONIGHT IS GRADUATION!!!

Thank You Jesus for getting me through these past two years... and help me not to screw up my oh so lovely speech tonight.
Amen

Can't get you outta my head...

Some people say you never know what you have until you lose it. But I know what I have and I don't want to lose you.

I love you.

Voices in my head

I will never forget the night we met. I remember all the details, every tiny detail.

I remember what I was wearing, what I was thinking, and the music in the background.

I remember thinking how angry I was because I didn't get to go the exhibition in the city, I also remember my mother telling me that every disappointment is for a good reason and may turn out to be something great. I guess it's true... mother knows best.

I can still remember arguing with myself about wheter or not to put on lipgloss...*smile*... I'm sure glad I did.

I remember the smile the crept upon my face when you first walked in the room.

I remember my heart beating faster...

I remember the voices in my head
voice 1: "Hmmm... not bad"
voice 2: "Damn... so fine!!!"
voice 3: " Ya'll need to get a life!!!"
voice 4: " Oh Lord, here we go again"
voice 5: " I could fall in love tonight..."

I don't think you know, but I saw you staring at me.

I remember becoming so sick from all the butterflies fluttering around in my stomach when our eyes finally met. I still regret looking away. I wish I had stared into your beautiful brown eyes... even for a second longer.

When it was time for me to go I remember praying that I could stay longer.

I remember wanting to touch you, hold you...

It was like magnet.

I was drawn to you.

And now that my wish has come true, and we are together.

I thank God for the night we met.

I thank God for the short time I spent with you and the hope of being with you again.

I thank God for all the sleepless nights I now have because I'm up talking to you, and that I can't fall asleep when we finally say goodnight.

I thank God for your friendship and love.

I thank God for you.

God's Amazing Grace...

There are so many times in our lives when we forget or neglect to say thank you. We tend to take things for granted. We never think of how life would be if we woke up in the morning and found out we could not see, hear, smell, taste or even feel. Yet we forget to thank God that all our senses are functional.

We all need to take time to give thanks for all the blessings we were given.

So now I'm taking some time to say what I'm thankful for... how about you do the same.

1. Thank you Lord that I lived to see another day.
2.Thank You for my family and friends.
3.Thank You for food, clothing and shelter.
4. Thank You for the oppurtunies you have given me to make my dreams come true.
5. Thank You for your grace and for sending your one and only Son, Jesus Christ to die for my sins and the sins of the world so that we may all have achance of gaining salvation and entering your Kingdom.

AMEN

I know almost everyone knows this song, you've probably heard it a hundred times. But have you taken the time to think about what it really means???

Amazing Grace


Amazing grace! (how sweet the sound)
That sav’d a wretch like me!
I once was lost,
but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.


’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears reliev’d;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believ’d!

Thro’ many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace has brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promis’d good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease;
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who call’d me here below,
Will be forever mine.


Aren't you happy you have a God who loves you and wants nothing but for you to be saved?

Just saying hi

I'm back...missed me???

I haven't really been busy so I won't lie and tell you I was I just haven't been able to come online long enough to blog.

Well this is my last week at the hospital!!! As of next week no more waking up at 6 am. I'll be going back to work at the doctor's office I used to run around before I started at the hospital. But this time I'll be working for real. YAY!!! Yeah baby, I'll be getting paid!!!

Hope ya'll been doing fine and everything is going well for you.

I'm running off again. Be back as soon as possible to blog about what I really wanted to talk about.

Have a great Thursday, Friday, Saturday, etc til I get back.

Current mood... hmmm...I don't even know. Probably bored... seeing that I'm at work and I have absolutely nothing to do. Checked my messages three times in the last 15 mins.

Last week was great though. Finished another section of my clinical rotations, this section was suppose to last for two weeks but I managed to finish in one week. Therefore, I don't have to go to the hospital in the mornings next week, but I have to go at nights.

Friday was a rather interesting day. First of all, I did my tests in Blood Banking without even being prepared but thankfully I aced both of them. Then, a certain friend and I got started on our bi-weekly Friday routine, collect our checks-cash them-spend them!!! However, this week things didn't work out as planned. (sorry friend I have to tell the blog world!!!) My oh so sweet and collected friend locked her keys in her car!!! So she had to call her dad to come get us, but he was busy and so he called her mom, who was also busy and so she called her aunt. After we got her keys I ran into my mother who decided to kidnapp me and so that was the end of our evening :-(

Saturday my family decided not to go to church so we all stayed home. This gave me way too much time to waste. All I did all day was daydream about my baby.Not that I don't do that EVERYDAY, but this was out of hand!!! By about 5 Saturday evening I was sure I was gonna lose my mind if I didn't leave the house. So Rita and I decided to go to the beach to chill and clear our heads... Im almost ready to leave when my parents and lil brother decide they wanted to go too. So off to the beach we went. When we got there I was suddenly on a high and I started taking pics. I almost drove Rita crazy. She was running away from me but I kept following her and taking pics... poor thing could not get away from me. LOL...

Saturday night... I decided to kidnapp Rita and make her spend the night at my house which didn't turn out to be too bad except we started watching a movie and about 5 mins into the movie I fell asleep and left her up by herself. (Sorry darling... I'll make it up to you :-)

Sunday... I'm at work.... grrrr... this is the last place I want to be. But what can I do, gotta stick it out for the rest of the semester.

The thought of the end of the semester is OH SO GREAT!!!! :-D

Three months to go!!!!! Can't wait...........

Anyway people, I'm gonna go find something to do. Probably some surveys to bombard my friends with.

Have a great week!!!!

Hello there blogworld :-)

I bet you can't guess what I'm doing... :-)

OK let me try and write a sensible blog for once.

Here goes...

This past week has been great. The college was on Spring Break so I didn't have to go to work... yippeeeeeee... BUT... I still had to go to clinicals at the hospital. Sad... I know. Anywho, its not all bad because I only have three weeks left there. YAY!!! Im counting down!!!

In other even more FANTASTIC news... I'M MOVING... YAY!!! YAY!!! YAY!!! Three months from now ,four the most, I will no longer be living in Brunswick. I'll be far away from Brunswick and all the boringness (Im frenz with a word inventor and it rubbed off) and I'll be close to my baby!!! ooooh la la *wink* ... INFINITY YAYS!!!!! :-D

Calming down a little... I need to sign up to do my certification exam. Everyone I've talked to who have done the exam have been scaring me, telling me it's really hard. I even heard today that no one who has done this program from my college have passed it their first time :-( but I plan on changing that.

Back to all the hype... I WILL BE GRADUATING IN MAY... counting down to that too!!!! :-D

Hope you all have a great week!!!!! :-D

*should have said ya'll ... ahhh... no... soon I'll no longer be a Southerner!!!*


so much for a sensible blog... *sigh*

HELLO THERE...

How ya doin? {with the wink and smile...Joey style of course...} Oh I just love Friends!!!! just had to get that in... now for my real blog... Well ... when I wrote my last blog I was stressing but now I'm fine. I decided to take your advices and "give it time"... from where I sit now I think everything will be alright. I hope it will. Things don't always work out the way you want them to but God knows the desires of our hearts. He answers prayers even though the answer may not be the answer you wanted, but you just have to trust that God knows what is best for you, and whatever choice he makes is the right one.

I am so confused :- {

So... I tried to post a blog last night and that didn't go so well. I'm kinda guessing it was a sign, seeing that I no longer feel that way...I think. I swear I'm on some crazy roll-a-coaster, this minute in head-over-heels in "like" and the next I'm freaking out because I'm "SURE" this won't work. I guess I'm so scarred from things from the past that I can't move on. There's no form of "coco butter" that seem to be able to get rid of the scars. I really want to forget all that happened and start over but everytime I try something happens that reminds of all the pain.

Last night this was what I was thinking:

" I am soooooo happy. I'm speechless... but this song explains what I'm feeling..."

IF YOU ASKED ME TO (Celine Dion)

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

(But if you asked me to)

Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby
If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to

*END LAST NIGHT'S POST*

I was actually hoping he would ask me to... but now... I'm so ready to run away so even if he wants to he won't be able to find me.

Now, what I'm thinking is closer to this... (in my own words)

It's so hard for me to open up,
Sad to say, but I've already given up.
I can't believe that this could be,
How could you really be in love with me.

*end thoughts... *

Well lets see... where do I start. Valentine's day was rather interesting this year. I was anti-Valentine as planned for the earlier part of the day but it all went away by mid day. This lady I work with was so estatic because she got flowers from her husband. She said he hadnt given her flowers in nine years and so she was on top of the world. Many other people by who I was surrounded received V-day gifts from their significant others and was glowing and all throught the day. I was so overwhelmed with joy (I guess all the happiness rubbed off on me) that by the afternoon came around I had to shed my anti-valentine feelings. I even started "floating" around too!!!!

I was so "high" from all the love in the air that I decided to tell my crush about "the crush". That turned out fine...whew...Thank God. So now Im waiting to see what happens with that.

Hope you all had a great Valentines Day!!!!

Nahjaj over and out... and still "high" from Valentine's day. LOL!!!!

Metamorphosis

I was searching for a new template for this blog when I saw this pic. It is soooooo beautiful. The artist must be really proud of this piece of work. I think I am now obsessed with this pic. I've been looking at it every couple minutes. If you are an artist and think I am crazy for loving this so much please don't be too hard on me...lol...

What do you think of the pic????

¨ When you get to your wit's end, you'll find God lives there.

¨ Opportunity may knock once, but temptationbangs on your front door forever.

¨ Coincidence is when God chooses to remain anonymous.

¨ God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

¨ He who angers you, controls you!

¨ If God is your Co-pilot - swap seats!

¨ The task ahead of us is never asgreat as the Power behind us.

¨ The Will of God never takes you towhere the Grace of God will not protect you.

¨ You can tell how big a personis by what it takes to discourage him.

..Peace starts with a smile.

Only in Brunswick!!!!!!

Hello blogworld!!!! WAZZUP????!!!! Yep I know I haven't posted anything in a while so I decided its time I say something. Well as far as new years resolutions ... they are going great... I'm working on all of them and I think I'm making progress.

Moving on... I decided to take an online class this semester cause I just wanted something to do (I have clincals and can't take any classes on campus). But then after the holidays I felt so lazy I decided to drop it and basically waste the whole semester. Tonight I was as bored as anyone can get so I decided to go on webct (school website...kinda-ish...) , I saw a message from my online teacher and clicked on it to delete but it opened up. LUCKY FOR ME!!! The message was addressed directly to me. She said she was concerned because I hadn't done anything in the class. Somehow I am still enrolled in the class!!!!! CAN U BELIEVE THAT!!!!! SLACKNESS I TELL YOU!!!! SLACKNESS!!!! They should have dropped me from the class!!!!! So I had to email her and tell her I "dropped the class". Can you imagine what would've happened if at the end of the semester I found out I got an 'F'. I was so frustrated that I finished the whole unit in a couple hours just in case she tells me I was not dropped from the class. At least I would have caught up. WHEW!!!! WHAT A NIGHT!!!!!

What would you do if that happened to you????

SEVEN RESOLUTIONS

1. WAKE-UP ... Begin the day with the Lord. It is his day. Rejoice in it.

2. DRESS-UP... Put on a smile. It improves your looks. It says something about your attitude.

3. SHUT-UP... Watch your tongue. Don't gossip. Say nice things. Learn to listen.

4. STAND-UP... Take a stand for what you believe. Resist evil. Do good.

5. LOOK-UP... Open your eyes to the Lord. After all, He is your only Saviour.

6. REACH-UP... Spend time in prayer with your adorations, confessions, thanksgivings and supplications to the Lord.

7.LIFT-UP... Be available to help those in need; serving, supporting, and sharing.


HAVE A GOD BLESSED YEAR!!!