IM COMING BACK!!!

I have been inspired to write again.

Just last night I was talking with a friend and he asked why I haven't blogged in a while. My answer to his question was simply "I have no inspiration". Well it was more like "I typically whine about boys and school and now I have no boys to whine about so I have nothing to say".

Today, I have boys to whine about. BUT, I shall not whine. I will, instead, make a pledge to come back to blogworld in the upcoming year. NEW & IMPROVED!

I've missed it here.

Now I'm off to see what everyone has been up to! (is that stalking?)

*wonder if anyone else missed me....hmmmmmm....*

MAD BLACK WOMAN

Lately I've been bitter. Really bitter. I've been such a b!tch to everyone who has the ill fate of being around me. It seems like I can't even help being mean, but it's not that I can't help myself I no longer want to. I don't care. I no longer care about anything. I feel like I'm even pulling away from God because I'm so angry at everyone and everything and myself that I don't think God will listen to my prayers. I even feel angry when I think about praying. I can't talk to God" in that tone". I only have one emotion and the only way to express it is to scream, punch something or cry, or all of the preceding at the same time. I seriously need a vacation. Some time ALONE. Really alone. I just want to be alone.

* Things are bad when the only thing that makes me less angry is listening to "3" by Britney Spears. *

sigh...

Everyone seems to be afraid of falling in love and (and/or) allowing someone to fall in love with them.

Have we gotten to the point that we are all scared to death of a broken heart? Or is it that people just don't care anymore. Is it both?

Being in love can be a very wonderful thing. Those that are truly in love, or have been in the past will tell you about the intensity of the joy that it brings. They will explain that it is like none other. Having your heartbroken by the one you love seems to have an even greater impact. It brings you so close to the ground that many wish they could just seep under without anyone even noticing because you'd rather go without being thrown a 'pity party'.

It seems that after being in love and experiencing its pleasure, then being forced to deal with the pain of having the love taken away, no one wants to take the chance of allowing themselves to feel the bliss of being in love as a result of the fear of being thrown back into a state of despair.

I've heard it said many times before ,"once bitten, twice shy", this seems to be the theme of people who have loved and lost. But what about " if at first you don't succeed, brush yourself off and try again".

Happy

*Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So any turns that i can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Do the right thing

How can I do the right thing when I don't know what the right thing is?!

Waiting to exhale...

It's somewhat relieving to know that I'm not the only one that has had to endure this pain but it also makes me sad to know other people have to feel this way. I hate this roller coaster that I'm on. I wish I could just not care anymore so the pain would go away. They say time heals all wounds but this one seems to be getting wider with every passing day. Until the day I get over you (I don't even want to get with you) and move on I am here sitting in my room, thinking bout you, almost wishing I never met you.

"Never again" that's what I said to myself

I never wanna feel kind of pain again boy

Just when I think it's over

Just when I think it's through

I find myself right back in love with you

So why does it hurt so bad oh baby

Why do I feel so sad

Thought I was over you

I keep crying

When I don't love you

So why does it hurt so bad

I thought I had let you go

You could

Gotta get you outta my head

Boy you hurt me so bad

(from Whitney Houston- Why does it hurt so bad)

you

i want you

only you

i keep coming back to you

what is it with you

i guess its just you being you

i love you

Can't eat, Can't sleep, Not falling in love!

For the past couple days I've only been eating to stay alive. I have to force myself to put the food in my mouth, chew and swallow. As if this isn't bad enough, I can't sleep. You'd think that since I can't sleep I would stay up late and be productive, or at least pass the time on facebook. This is not the case. I stay in bed, eyes closed, dreaming, but not sleeping. I have intense headaches probably due to the lack of sleep and maybe to the fact that I'm dehydrated. The only liquids to pass my lips is water and mouthwash I use to rinse.  I don't know how I to fix my current "im falling in love symptoms" especially since it's not due to the usual cause. Hopefully it will all go away soon and I can go back to being normal, as relative as that might be.

p.s.  Love kinda stinks sometimes, doesn't it?  just sayin...

Still...

After going through this many times in my life, I still get butterflies in my stomach. Not becasue I am afraid. This is the result of overwhelming joy.

Today is the first day of school. 4th yr in university. Stop looking at me like that! School is fun...on occasions.

I still pack my bag overnight, think about what I should wear, how I'm going to comb my hair. I even think about what I'll have for lunch.

I still wake up hours before its time to get ready and stare at the clock with anticipation.

Thoughts of what the year will be like, all the things I'll learn, all the people I will meet, how much I'll long for the next break after the first week flow in my mind.

There is a pleasant smile fixed on my lips.

This is year I vow to do my best. Try to limit the procrastination. Maybe I'll leave the latter for another time.

HERE'S TO ANOTHER GREAT YEAR!!!

CHEERS

*p.s.*

As I wrote this is was listening to Pandora radio. These people know the inner working of my mind. They know exactly what to play. Five stars for Pandora!!!

Never forget your worth

By the time the Lord made woman he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared to him and said, “Why are you spending so much time on this one?”
The Lord answered, “Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 moveable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she will do everything with only two hands.”
The angel was astounded at the requirements. “Only two hands? No way! And that’s just on the standard model? That’s too much work for one day; wait until tomorrow to finish.”
“But I won’t” the Lord protested. “I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick and can work 18 hour days.”
The angel moved closer and touched the woman. “But you have made her so soft, Lord.”
“She is soft” the Lord agreed, “but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.”
“Will she be able to think?” asked the angel.
The Lord replied, “Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate.”
The angel then noticed something, and reached out, touched the woman’s cheek. “Oops it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.”
“That’s not a leak” the Lord corrected, “that’s a tear!”
“What’s the tear for?” the angel asked.
The Lord said, “the tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride.”
The angel was impressed. “You are a genius Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing.”
And she is.
Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and carry their burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don’t take “no” for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a wedding or a birth. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours. They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or email to show you how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their friends and family. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
However, if there is one flaw in women,
it is that they forget their worth.

*inspirational forwarded message*

almost defeated...

I haven't posted anything in a while because I've been busy studying for the MCAT, thinking about studying for the MCAT or convincing myself that I should be studying for the MCAT.

At this point, I am not studying for the MCAT. I am, however, freaking out about the Phsyics II class I am taking. Today was the third class and I am completely lost! I found it hard, in fact, IMPOSSIBLE to comprehend what the professor was lecturing about, and I have a test tomorrow. I have put off taking this class for 4 years because I knew it's not one of my strong points but now I'm thinking I might have to change my career and life plans because of this stupid class! Why on earth do I need to know any Physics?!

I am so frustrated now. I just want to go to sleep and pray that when I wake up this will all go away.

I would drop the class and go to plan B (skip medical school and be a physician assistant) but I can't tell my parents that I'm going to waste over $1,000 (it's too late to get a refund for the class and I already paid for my MCAT too...).

What am I going to do?

I need a tutor and some help from God realllllly bad!

:'(

Live like you were dying!

i've been doing crazy things all wknd in the name of being bold. i now know why people do some of the outrageous things they do. the adrenaline rush is awesome!!! (after u get the courage to do it and before u start worrying abt the consequences) but i also now know that staying in ur comfort zone is ok because in the morning even if u have regrets you won't have to worry abt broken bones or a broken reputation. hopefully when all is said and done my bones and reputation will still be in tip top shape! LOL


***soundtrack***

1. Calle Ocho (I know you want me) - Pitbull
2. Love Games - Lady Gaga
3. Live like you were dying - Tim McGraw

God loves you and is with you!

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall filled.

Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

REJOICE AND BE EXCEEDINGLY GLAD: for GREAT IS YOUR REWARD in heaven: for so persecuted they the prohphets which were before you.

Matthew 5 vs 3-12

blogging...

if you have been reading my blog for awhile you will know that there are 2 guys that I have very strong feelings for, they are both 2 of my best friends (they know about each other but don't know each other...) and that i seem to fluctuate between the 2. crappy life, i know.

in the past 2 days i've had 'serious talks' with both of them.

friend #1 said we'll only be friends.

friend #2 basically said deny God and i'll marry u.

FML

during the convo with friend # 1 he was describing the guy i should give my heart to, the guy that will do good to me. all roads led to friend # 2.

i dont know why i'm blogging or what i'm saying. but i do know that God and I will be talking abt this as soon as I get to heaven.

till then i'm gonna keep on believing that God has someone in store for me, like friend #2 described "just like me (talking abt himself...) but religious".

Its time....

What do you do when the one thing you need to do is the one thing you don't want to do?

How can you let go when all you want to do is hold on?

I really do LOVE SEX!!!

I've thought about it, dreamt about it, read about it, talked about it with my friends but I can't talk about it with the one I should be able to.

Just like a lot of people my age, sex is one of my fave topics :-) After all it is quite interesting. It's all over, EVERYTHING can be related to sex. Its like ... I don't know... it's hard to explain.

This is a weird post... why am I talking about this? sigh....

Well, I can say anything to my friends and not feel 'weird' about it. But I tried to talk about it with... yeh him... and I acted like a freaking 6th grader (from the days when I was in the 6th grade, not these days). How embarassing!

I also have a phobia of kissing, I'm 20! Isn't that weird?

I think I have intimacy issues...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feasting on Soul Food

I was just at my dear friend Scotchie's blog and as I read her post I was reminded of what a great remedy music was for any and every ache, and I needed something to ease my pain so I decided to revert to doing two of my favourite things. Listening to love songs and writing.

So as I listen to this sountrack (Leaving nothing unsaid) that I stole from Scotchie a couple years ago and let the music take me away, I will write about whatever comes to mind...

1. Colour of Love - Boys II Men

Strange enough this song reminds me of Scotchie. LOL. There is a quote that says maybe your girlfriends are your soulmate and guys are just people to have fun with, with every passing day my belief that this statement is completely true increases.

2. Come a little closer- Brandy

I haven't had a lot of people leave me but for some unknown reason it seems like every time I get close to someone I have to leave. :-(

3. The only one for me - Brian McKnight

Yes, Mr. Big... we both know you are the only one for me. "I want still, I always will, cause you're the only one for me".

4. Still - Tamia

my prayer...

5. Trippin - Toni Braxton

Does this mean if you don't fight then you don't really know if your love is real?

6. Charlene - Anthony Hamilton

... you dont know what you have till it's gone...

7. Where will you go - Babyface

This is for you again Mr.Big.

8. Nothing - Brandy

On behalf of my sidekick im dedicating this one to the one that has her heart.

9. I wanna love you - Donnell Jones

Need I say anything?

10. Am I worth it - Heather Headley

Am I worth it? :-/

11. Wings of forgiveness - India Arie

--- same as # 8---

12. Lucky charm - Jagged Edge

On behalf of Daniel i'm dedicating this to Trudy (especially since she loved J.E so much)

13. Crazy - KC & JoJo

I can't think, think about this crazy day

I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately (crazy baby)

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby (I don't know what to do)

I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately (crazy, crazy, crazy)

I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy) when I can touch you

Crazy, crazy (I'm going crazy) when I can hold you

Crazy, crazy, (I'm going crazy) when I can see you again

(Said I'm going crazy)

think they need some more crazy 's' to cover me.... missing you terribly Mr.Big!

14. I wish - R.Kelly

where'd this come from Scotchie?

15. Why ask Why - Tamia

Mr.Big, you never have to doubt the love I have for you. I am and will forever be completely and truly and deeply in love with you.

16. Supposed to be - Toni Braxton

;-)


***satisfied***

How does it feel to be in love?

friend: nahjaj how does it feel to be in love?

me: it feels like... u know how it feels to be walking on the beach with the sea breeze blowing in ur face and there are laughing children running around and lovers holding hands and smiling at each other? its better than that !

friend: lmao, that was a very random description

I find it very hard to put into words the way I feel when I think about him. The feelings are ... there I go fighting to come up with words that will at least attempt to do justice to the marvelous things I feel.



So... can you describe How it feels to be in love?

10 greatest loves!

1. My bedroom and all the things in it. I especially love my bed, pillows and blankets :-)
2. My cell phone, I love that I can text/call those dearest to me at almost anytime.
3. My laptop, without it my life would be incomplete.
4. My car, even though I use you and never feed or clean you I still love you.
5. My pillow, I really love my pillow.
6. My soft comfy black jacket that feels like a hug... ahhhhhhh.
7. My poetry book, thanks for keeping my secrets.
8. My wonderful friends! Thanks for always being there.
9. My family, especially my parents and little brother.
10. Neville :-)
11. GOD, thanks for keeping your promise. You have never left me nor forsaken me :-)

*This is obviously from least to most. Had to save the best for last.

** To Neville - no matter how hard I try, I can never stop loving you! (this is one thing i dont mind failing at)

wish me luck!!!

If you found out today was your last day on earth how would you feel? Are there things you will wish you would've done? Things you would've said? Are there things you wished you didn't do? Things you didnt say?

I keep telling myself I need to leave my comfort zone and go out and explore the world without my leash that prevents me from going too far. I need to break the chains that tie me to the door and prevent me from taking risks. It is time to overcome the fear that keeps me in my corner with my hands over my face hoping that 'IT' will go away and I won't have to face it.

I have tired so many times to step out and I have in some cases but I keep coming back. Now that I've learned that I might not be able to escape the restraints of my comfort zone, I have decided to settle for taking vacations. So now I'm trying to build up the courage to step out and grab something (someone) I want and take them back with me.

I don't want to die with regrets, but if I have to have regrets I'd rather it be that I did something than that I never even tried.

Think on these things.

• Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.

Sometimes it is hard to be nice to peolpe when you are facing problems or if they are being unkind to you. But you must always remember to 'do unto others as you would have them do unto you'.

• A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

Think before you speak!

• If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep.

(I'm gonna need to work on this)

• Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

Smile :-)

• The best vitamin for making friends..... B1.

You reap what you sow.

• The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.

Dream big! Aim for the highest achievable goals.

• The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge.

Let go and let God deal with it.

• If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.

• Ideas won't work unless 'you' do.

• Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open.

• The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.

• The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

As long as you have breath... there is hope!

• Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

• Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!

SLOW FADE

by Casting Crowns

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what you see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

Wrong choice?

Choosing to hide away and not deal with problems is usually a bad choice. But in some cases hiding/shying away could be the solution to the problem.

I'm still not sure as to wheter or not this is a bad choice. I have decided that in order to bring this falling back in love with mon ami to to an end I should also halt our friendship, in other words I'm avoiding him as much as possible so I won't be reminded of how awesome he is. However, I don't think this is a good approach since I still have to see him everyday and he's been so wonderful to me I don't want to be mean to him but I can't seem to pull off this avoiding him thing without being a bitch.

What should I do?!!!

I need help!!!

*why couldn't I still just be in love with the idea of being in love?

My FML story

Have you ever visited the website fmylife.com? It's pretty cool. When you feel like your life is messed up just go on over and read about people with really messed up lives. Some stories are funny and some are just... sad.

However, when you have a story that is worthy to be posted on fmylife.com, nothing, ABSOLUTELY nothing can cheer you up.

So, here is my fmylife story.

On Friday, for some unknown reason I was completely and totally crushing on a friend of mine. Well, if you have been around here for awhile you will know who I'm talking about. This friend has been the topic of numerous my posts, anything involving 'mon ami'.

Anywho... like I was saying, I was really loving this here dude on Friday so much so that my arms kept trying to hug him. Just when I finally decided to let my arms do their thing, his girlfriend called. FML #1.

On Saturday, I really missed this here dude so I decided to talk to him. So I go online and say hi. He responds we exchange a few sentences then he seemed to disappear, so I said 'later' and left. Guess he didn't want to talk. FML#2.

Sunday, I rise with the morning sun, there were no birds singing outside my window but I didn't think much of it. I start studying and waited for this here dude to come online so we could talk. Things are going ok. We aren't really talking but I wasn't missing him. I was alright. Another friend comes online and in our convo decides it would be a good idea to tell me that this here dude and his girl celebrated their anniversary the day before. I am officially depressed. The information was supposed to make me not want him anymore. FAIL.

I still love him. FML #3.

Three strikes you are out. :'(


*FML - fuck my life.


Feel free to find this amusing. I might some time in the future.

HAVE A BETTER DAY THAN I AM!!!

Midnight thoughts of you....

untitled

to love and be loved is the greatest feeling ever
it takes you to the top of the highest mountains
and throws you down into the deepest valleys
but when all is said and done
theres nothing that can compare
to the feeling i feel

whenever you are here.

NJ.

Perfection in the midst of imperfection

As I stand here before you today

Looking into your eyes

I see love like I've never seen it before

The smile upon your face

That cause wrinkles at the corners of your lips;

I see, Imperfection in the midst of perfection.

You take my hand

Say the words I've long wished to hear

Joy and fear saturate my being

I open my mouth and fight to speak

Words that are punctuated by sobs;

I hear, Imperfection in the midst of perfection.

This love we have created

This love that withstands all

This love that helps me rise

This love that remains true

This love that is you.

I feel, Perfection in the midst of imperfection.

Happy Valentine's Day Babe. I love you today, tomorrow and forever.

N.J.

He's just not that into you

Once upon a summer day, in a far way state, a dear friend handed me a pretty pink and green book. As she handed me the book she said, "You really should read this. It might help". I was excited to see what wonderful stories and lessons this little pink and green book had in store for me. Then my eyes caught the title, 'He's just not that into you'. I looked up at this dear friend with a confused and somewhat sad expression and mumbled "who's not into me?". She responsed "him" and pointed to the very handsome guy sitting at the circulation desk in the library. The guy who had been winking and smiling at me for over a month but had not asked me out. This confused and saddened me even more so I said "I don't want him. But...why isn't he?". She put her arm around my shoulders and said "just read the book."

That night I spent hours reading this book that I had now deemed 'evil' because of its brutally honest information. When I finally read the last word of the last sentence of the last paragraph on the last page I realized that my friend was right, he was just not into me. This depressed me.

The day after I was introduced to thebook I returned it to my friend and vowed to never love again. I decided I'd be single forever.

Everytime I hear those words , 'he's just not that into you', whether it's a line in a movie, a quote in a book, or it's being said to a poor heartbroken girl, I see the very handsome guy at the circulation desk smiling at me and I feel sick.

Why do guys play with our feelings? Why can't they just be real?

I can handle the truth, we (girls) all can. And in this case, the sooner we learn the truth the better. So go ahead, lay it all out. Don't feel bad for us because we will soon be over you!



P.S.

The movie 'He's just not that into you' that is based on this very informative book is now in theathres (at least in the US), go see it! My girlfriends and I went to see the movie today. It was pretty good. I didn't really appreciate the fact that it had a typical fairytale ending but I can live with it (deep down somewhere I'm glad it did Keeping hope alive....).

FREE TO BE ME!!!

At twenty years of age i'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But you've already won the battle
And you've got great plans for me
Though i can`t always see

(chorus)

`Cause i got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own i'm so clumsy
But on your shoulders i can see
I'm free to be me

When i was just a girl i thought i had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and i'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes i would doubt

(chorus)

And you`re free to be you
Sometimes i believe that i can do anything
Yet other times i think i've got nothing good to bring
But you look at my heart and you tell me
That i've got all you seek
And it`s easy to believe
Even though

(chorus)

By Francesca Battistelli

Struggling to keep my sanity

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Naresh
2. Nahja
3. Savvy
4. Squirrel

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. St.Ann, Jamaica
2.Mandeville, Jamaica
3. Brunswick, GA
4. Laurel, MD

C) 4 noises that drive you crazy:
1. a weird sound my brother makes especially to annoy me.
2. my alarm
3. sirens
4. helicopters

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. Serendipity
2. Music and Lyrics
3. The Gods Must Be Crazy I&II
4. Rush Hour 3

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. HOUSE!!!!
2. NCIS
3. CSI
4. Jeopardy (it IS a tv show!)

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Florida (all over FL)
2. New York City
3. Texas... i know who goes to Texas for vacation...
4. Jamaica

G) 4 websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Facebook
2.Blackboard (UMB)
3.Yahoo!
4. Youtube

H) 4 of your favorite foods:
1. Curry chicken and Rice and Peas
2. Steam fish and Bammy
3. Ackee and saltfish, green bananas and dumplings
4. Curry goat and white rice

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Bad drivers
2. Free time
3. Dairy
4. Washing dishes

J) 4 of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading
2. Listening to music
3. Watching House
4. Studying... might as well be a hobby.... its what I do in my 'free' time.

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1.Greece
2.France
3.London
4. Italy

L) 4 pets you've had:
1. dog
2. dog
3. parrot
4. goldfish

Happy Monday!!!

"It's never too late to have a happy childhood."

I saw that quote on a bumper sticker today and it made me uncomfortable. I was quite disturbed because I was wondering what the person meant by their comment. As far as I know, after you have passed your childhood years you can't have them back. You can chose to have a heck of an adulthood to make up for it but you just can't have it back. It doesn't work like that. If you try to get back your childhood you end up doing strange things, case in point, Michael Jackson.

So, in closing, do the best with what you have now.

Yesterday is history,

Tomorrow is a mystery,

And Today is a gift

That's why it's called the present.

SAVE A LIFE!!!

Be a Medical Technologist!!!