"Gems may be presious, but friends are priceless."

In less than 12 hrs 2008 will be history, and as I sat down to write my farewell 2008 post I was swept away by nostalgic thoughts/feelings. I signed on and hit the 'new post' button and I saw a picture of mon ami come into view, and before I knew it I was daydreaming about our times together (I mean this in a non-romantic way). I saw him with a big grin on his face while he was telling me about the new episode of Naruto. I remember thinking "he's so adorable... so passionate about this... he's crazy...". I try really hard to pay attention but I always seem to drift off to dreamyland. He gets this look in his eyes, kinda like a child that just got a new toy and thinks its the coolest thing ever. And he speech is so... animated... so full of life. Before I could finish that thought, I saw him looking at me from the chair next to mine, smiling at me with that same twinkle in his eye and it makes me wonder if... no, it couldn't be.

I don't know where he came from, but carino just decided to invade my thoughts too. He is such a sweet guy, really nice person. He's probably my only male friend that cares enough to read my blog. If that's not reason enough to love him I don't know what is. But trust me kid got some mad player skills. Of course he won't admit it. Hey, true players never admit it, but I can feel it. Don't get mad at me if you read this dear. I still love you anyway.

Now I see Jasmine and Pocahontas laughing their heads off. Jasmine is tearing up like she always does when she laughs too much, and nowPocahontas is snorting which is making Jasmine laugh even more. Jasmineis got her name because she looks like Jasmine from Aladdin. AndPocahontas got her name because... well... she's her favorite Disney princess. Pocahontas is still very much into Disney princesses. Pure innocence. These are my new girlfriends. They are beautiful, smart, fun, absolutely crazy women. Jasmine is kinda like Charlotte from Sex and the City, she has a great fashion sense, she is very caring, and she got a good man! We are still trying to figure out who Pocahontas is. She isn't settled like Miranda, and she's definitely NOT Samantha. Me, I get to be Carrie. Even though I'm not as fashionable as she is, I am a writer (or at least a wanna be writer), and I believe in fairytale love stories, and I kinda have my own Mr.Big.

B, I'm calling her "B" because she's the only girl that I've known that has as many admirers as Beyonce. Girl is gorgeous. I have yet to figure out if it's a blessing or a curse to have such beautiful girlfriends. Almost every guy at our high school wanted her. Imagine trying to get a guys attention standing next to her. Thankfully, our taste in men was very different and the guys I liked preferred nerds to supermodels.

Scotchie, my dear Scotchie. The best friend any one could ask for. She has put up with my whining for the past 3 yrs. She has spent countless hours trying to keep me sane amidst all the craziness that is my life. I want to be just like her when I grow up. She is also a beautiful, smart, tres intelligent woman. She has a song for every occassion, and has the ability to turn my frowns into smile with simple phrases such as 'i want to sleep, do u want to sleep?' or ' baby carrots'. Even though we don't talk as much as we used to, and I don't see her as often as I'd like to she is still a major part of my life and I would kill for her if I had to.

Mr.Big ... He is the only person I that I can't be mad at. If I claim to be angry with him all he has to do is look at me and all my anger disappears. He has a way of calling me just when I think to call him. I would pick up the phone and he'd say 'Hey babes, just called to see how my Queen is doing' , then we'd talk about our day. Then we'd get silent. On my end I'm listening to him breathe and wishing I could be where he is. Then he'd say 'can I tell you a story?' and then he'd tell me a story that is 75% true and 25% made up just so it can be funny. I miss having him next to me everyday. I miss the way he used to smile at me to let me know where he heart is when he was surrounded by girls who were practically begging for his attention. I miss the way we'd sit and hold hands and smile at each other and not say a word. Best conversations I've had in my life.

As 2008 leaves to make way for 2009, I am saying a prayer, thanking God for the friends he has given me. My only wish for 2009 is that God will bless all my friends and family and make all their dreams come true.

That something within

by  Jackie Dove-Miller  

 

There is something within me That is strong enough To keep me from toppling Over the edge of Sanity, Over the ledge of frustration Or over the hedge of All-out foolishness. It leads me to prayer When I would otherwise Break. There is something in my make-up Or my bringing up Or just the way I look up That straightens my back And bows my head. It becomes the focus of my meditation. The sentiment in my supplication, The reason for my transformation. That thing inside me Has me choosing light Though darkness covers all. It wells up like ocean waves Come to drown those who Think they deserve to push me back Hold me down or Steal my joy. I have a spiritual strength that Grows deeper and speaks louder as I get to know More about who I am. "Where did IT come from?" Someone recently asked. I answered, "In my developing stage, someone said out loud, 'You sure are good at _______,'" My puny soul embraced that seed, and it planted itself deep inside me and took root. I tested that tiny bit of ego-strength against The negative family messages that focused on What I was NOT good at, making me feel small And disconnected. I was NOT good at being like my mother Who was all but saintly. I was NOT good at being Like my sister who was beautiful and dainty. I was NOT ballerina thin, nor prissy neat, But I WAS good at ________ And when I looked a little further, I discovered that I was GOOD ENOUGH. Good enough to bear fruit And reap a harvest. Good enough to plant a seed In others and watch them grow Magnificent and free. I was GOOD ENOUGH to relate to The GOD inside of me. So, this poem is for all my sister-friends Who don't yet know that YOU are better than what your mothers, your teachers, the men in your life, or even the good sisters in church have called you. Because God has called you Blessed And HIS is the only voice that matters. So, here and now, I pray OUR sister-prayer, Dear Lord, Help me to release the self-doubt That lives in my heart. Remind me daily That I am the product of Your hands... And all that you make... ALL THAT YOU MAKE Is Perfect.  Amen

feeling blue...

I wish I were a boy... then maybe I could understand...

I wish I could get out of this circle.

Love and I are breaking up... again... but not for long because I know I'll change my mind and want to love again.

There is a strong need in our society to have everything defined without any ambiguity. However, it is not always easy to come up with unquestionable definitions. There are some things that are neither hot nor cold. They may be 'warm'. These things are hard to accept in many instances, but accept them we must.


I haven't been able to come up with an unquestionable reason for the dramatic increase in 'relationship issues/problem' that has occured among my friends within the past few weeks, but I am hypothesizing that the problem is a 'lack of clear or adequate communication'. You know things are bad when even your best friend fails to understand what you are saying. They should, it's part of their job description! I've been trying to explain to my friends what I want in a relationship at this point in my life and no one seemed to understand what I was saying until today. FINALLY !!! *sigh of relief* I think I had been doing a really bad job at explaining myself because all I've been saying for the past month is that I want a 'friend with benefits'. Pick your jaw up off the floor... not that kind of benefits. There will be no sex involved. My friends and I just realized that is what we have all been trying to explain to each other and the men around us.

A 'friend with benefits' relationship falls into the category of 'hard to explain'. It has many different meanings. It can be made in whatever your heart desires.

My girls and I did the best to explain what a 'friends with benefits' relationship meant to us. This is what we came up with:

1. we are not completely single but at the same time we are not in a relationship... we are somewhere in the middle.

2. we have someone to chill with, hug and kiss whenever the need arise. (NOTE: physical contact is limited to hugs and kisses)

3. the relationship has the potential to develop into something more but this should NOT be the intent in the beginning of the relationship as it would be perfectly legal for it to stay in the same place for a greatly extended period and be terminated without penalty if either party decides to get serious with someone else.

***Soundtrack***

Buddy - Musiq Soulchild

Dick-less men

Friends are like stars

They come and go

But the ones that stay

Are the ones that glow.

I love my friends!!! They are some of THE COOLEST people on the planet!!! Some of the craziest people too.


So I was on the phone with one of said crazy friends and as usual we got to the topic of men, here's a part of the convo...


Friend: You know how in the beginning of the relationships you tell a guy you dont plan on having sex with them and they say they have no problem with it?


Me: yeh! such liars! they dont mean it!!!


Friend: I know. I wish they didn't have dicks! Dicks always ruin my relationships because they want to do things dicks like. I wish when I met someone they didnt have a dick or it should be small, like a baby carrot, then it woulld grow slowly til we get married and then it would be big, fully functional and ready to work!!!


Me: (laughing out loud) OMG!!! That is hilarious!!! But you know what... you have a point! That would be awesome!!! It would make life so much easier.



It would be very nice to find a dick-less man because then he's not supposed to feel the need to have sex (I know this is scientifically wrong but who cares) which take A LOT of pressure off the relationship but at the same time that would be very scary!!! I would definitely run if I were to found out a prospective hubby was dick-less!!! I wouldn't believe a story that the baby carrot had the potential to grow into bigger and better things either!!!

Something to smile about...

Love is falling asleep dreaming of the one that makes you smile. Love is waking up smiling about the one you dream of.
~ Anonymous

"It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them."
~ Agatha Christie

"The best feelings are those that Have no words to describe them...."
~ Michelle Hammersley

" Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. "
~ Bible

Sometimes I miss you so much,
I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you!

Far in distance,
but near at heart,
you'll always be the angel of my heart.

I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know,
you're the one that I love,
and I can't let you go.

"Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile,
so when you are lonely remember it’s true,
someone somewhere is thinking of you."
Unknown

When love feels like magic,
you call it destiny.
When destiny has a sense of humor,
you call it serendipity.
~ Serendipity

Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them.

If I had to choose between loving you and breathing ....
I would use my last breath to tell you
I LOVE YOU

CHANGEZ (I have put my records on)

The leaves on the trees have changed their colours; from green to yellow, orange, pink or purple.The weather has changed from being warm to cool to freezing cold! Americans have elected their first black president. And... I have exited my comfort zone once again and I have NO intentions of going back. Things are looking good on the outside.

I have blogged about stepping out so many times and within days I would run back into my little box and cover my face too afraid that something bad might happen if I even look out. So this time I'm not going to say that I'm never going to go back. I'm just saying that I don't plan on it.

Scothie you'd be so proud of me! Your squirrel is letting her hair down :-D


Sountrack:

1. Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield
2. Put your records on - Corrine Bailey Rae
3. Here I am - Jasmine Richards
4. This is me - Demi Lavato
5. Taking chances - Celine Dion

TOTALLLY AWESOME WEEK!!! (the happy post)

Sunday....

• the weather was sooooo nice! after having a very cold week God sent us some sunshine and warmth. my bro and i went for a walk and took pics and crazy videos. was so much fun :-)

Monday....

• Got to see il mio amico carino ed adorabile (my cute and adorable friend... who i will refer to as carino hereafter).

• 1st class was so cool. the professor is absolutely hilarious. she was telling us about how back in the day... long long b4 we were around, the men used to write letters to the women they wanted to be with... and the ladies could tell how much they guys really liked them by the way they closed their letters. if the guy was stuck on 'truly yours' the women were advised to find another man. LOL:-D however, if the guy signed the letter 'truly yours today,always and forever' then he was in looooooooove!!! :-)

• 2nd class... quiz --> bye bye :-D

Tuesday...

• Two horrible exams.

Wednesday...

• NO SCHOOL!!!

Thursday...

• pretty cool lab... got a few winks from the hott TA ;-)

• HALLOWEEN PARTY!!! so... boring old me decided to go to the halloween party with my friends. we didnt dress up cuz we r too cool for that.LOL. but we had lots of fun. I took a shot and wanted a couple more but I had to drive home and my friends weren't drinking so i didnt... good peer pressure :-) plus good girls like me dont drink to get drunk!(everything in moderation) oh yeh and carino was disappointed i drank... :-( . the costumes at the party were pretty cool, although i didnt know wat some ppl were. secret... shhhh... i saw this one dude, i coulda sworn he was dressed up but the poor thing wasnt! i felt so bad afterwards. im still begging God for forgiveness.

• Got pulled over for speeding!60 in a 35 mph zone... (60 is slow for me too. stupid speed limits!!!) but thanks to my clean driving record and the fact that i wasnt drinking that nite ;-) the very sweet cop let me off. God even takes care of his delinquent children.

Friday...

• ANOTHER HALLOWEEN PARTY!!! the professors in my department are so cool man... most of them were dressed up. there was a witch, M&M's, a goddess and a zombie looking woman. the student costumes were nice too. we got goodie bags with lots of candy and other stuff.... yes i attend a UNIVERSITY... a very prestigious one too!!! but our program is so much like high school (except for our actual course work) but im not complaining, being grown up gets boring sometimes.

Saturday...

• Sabbath was great as usual.

• Went to a dinner with my family... had some good Jamaican food!Curry goat and rice and peas.. fried plantains...potato salad... carrot cake...(list is kinda long...think i'll stop here... still full... *sigh*)

So yeh... had a truly great week. Love my new friends thissssssssssssssss much!!! you guys are SOOOOO much fun to hang out with!!! :-)

so I had a really happy post in mind but i'll save that for later, when im on top of the hill again.

Anywho... have u ever seen the movie 10 things I hate about you ? great movie isn't it? this poem is from that movie and its one of my favourite and im really having a love/hate relationship with it tonite. so here goes....


I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me ryhme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

The way it is...

Sometimes we try to find the reason for every action, every reaction and every emotion without knowing that the beauty is not in finding the answers but in being able to ask the questions....

rants and raves...

I've been trying to write a decent post for the longest while but it has been so hard because i have so much to say but cant find the words. so now im sitting here in my pjs listening to some of the sweetest love songs ever written and thinking how much i hate all the writers right now! how is it they could have been so blessed to find such 'perfect' love when some of us are longing for that and it's nowhere to be found. Now Rascal Flats 'God Bless The Broken Road' is playing and im longing for the day when i can get to the end of this broken road and claim my prize. things are really bad when you start to doubt that the one you've always believed would be there for you for always will actually be there for you. no he hasnt done anything bad except fail to return a phone call or two but this distance is really getting to me and im afraid it will make him forget me soon :-( so many people around me are having 'problems' even though they pretend everything is ok. i cant pretend anymore. i dont want to. i love you, i miss you, and im scared too! i dont wanna lose u! i dont wanna live without u! michael bolton says 'love is a wonderful thing' i do agree but damn it hurts so bad sometimes!

Random thoughts...

• Professors are very peculiar people!!! They say the strangest things!!!



• There are very few things in life that is better than GREAT FRIENDS!!!



• Too much of a good thing is bad for you.



• Girls love Boys!!!



• Boys love Girls!!!



• Homework should be done ASAP not ATLM (at the last minute).



• Smiling at male store clerks generates discounts!!! :-)



• Tyrese is still VERY SEXY!!!



• Some of us aren't as tough as we think we are.



• Skinny jeans are awesome... dont want them to go out of style :-(

p.s. can u guys tell i have nothing to say... lol... i'll be back with something sensible one of these days! promise.

To Settle or Not To Settle?

I'm surrounded by geniuses and the competiton is stiff
But I like challenges so I'm gonna roll with it....


A newly acquired friend of mine has been stressing over a certain 'pothole' in her life. She's really young and this may soon pass but it's got me thinking. Is it right for us to set standards for our significant others? Standards that they may have no intentions of living up to.


This friend of mine is very similar to me. We bascially have to same goals in life. Get into medical school, get our M.D. degree, marry our prince charming and live happily ever after (yes, it's that simple!).


Thing is... we have certain standards that our 'potential' prince charming have to live up to in order to qualify for the position.

First and foremost, he must have the same or at least similiar religious beliefs to the ones we have. Secondly, he must be physically attractive and have a nice personality (loyal, humble, kind, caring, funny...etc). Finally, he must be academically inclined... well he has to at least be aiming to get an M.D degree or equivalent... PhD in something worthwhile.


Is this too much to ask? (the whole M.D/ PhD. thing?)

Are our standards too high?

Should there be exceptions?

all sorts of Q&A

1. What’s worse - Physical or Mental cheating?

All cheating is bad... the beginning is mental.

2. Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forgive.. forget is so hard to do.

3. Can men and women be ” Just Friends?”

I guess we can....

4. Dating co-workers?

Bad idea!!!

5. All expenses paid vacation to anywhere?

Europe... the entire continent!!!

6. On the way to the electric chair - What’s your last meal?

Stem fish and bammy from Little Ochie in JA.

7. Water parks are…?

AWESOME!!!!!!

8. When you are “In Love” do you notice other people?

nope... blind as a bat. It's very sad. I am hopelessly devoted.

9. Is flirting cheating?

makes me jealous ....

10. Would you rather have 1 great friend or 5 pals?

1 great friend

11. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?

yeah... might slap 'em too!!!

12. Are you ok with your significant other being friends with an ex?

Nope... I have just come to realization that I have a jealous nature.

13. Would you live with someone without marrying them?

no... things might happen that shouldn't. why set myself up for temptation.

14. Favorite sport?

Basketball

15. Is toilet paper hung over or under?

over

16. Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or end of the tube?

who cares...

17. How do you feel about tanning booths?

i couldn't care less... i dont need it.

18. Friends with benefits?

yes please :-D

19. Do you believe in angels?

Yes

20. Would you rather take pictures or be in pictures?

Both... take pics of myself... LMAO :-)

21. Have you ever flirted with someone you had no interest in?

oh yeah... i am now ashamed...

22. Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?

LMAO :-D yep... on a dare.... (well not truly random had seen the guy around school b4)

23. Would you buy bootleg merchandise?

maybe...

24. What color looks best on you?

Black

25. If you could play any sport professionally what would it be?

Soccer

26. Ever break up with someone and regret it?

nope... not at all.

27. Are you a jealous person?

not over all... but ... yeah... with my 'person'.

28. Would you ever have plastic surgery?

no never!!!

29. When do you want to get married?

When I finish school.

30. Who has the sexiest accents?

English men.

31.Next concert you’re attending?

Uh-mmh...none

32. Favorite song?

Trust Me- Crystal Lewis.

33.Favorite movie?

Tough question... but I'm gonna say Grease

34. What’s your occupation?

Student

35. What’s your sign?

Cancer

36. Are you a beach, country or city person?

definitely country.

37. Best vacation spot you’ve been to?

Negril , Jamaica

38. Have you ever had a “secret affair?”

Nope

39. If you could own a non-traditional pet which would it be?

monkey!

40. Favorite show as a child?

Walker Texas Ranger

41. Where do you spend most of your money?

on the bus...

42. Are you currently working at a job that you hate?

don't have a job

43. Have you ever been so heart broken that you called in sick to work?

skipped class...

44. Favorite summer drink?

Strawberry daquiri :-)

45. Can you change a car tire?

maybe... I know what to do but I've never tried before.

46. Favorite cologne / perfume?

Sicily - Dulce&Gabana

48. Would you consider yourself adventurous?

Nope... I'm kinda on the boring side these days...

49. What is your My Space profile song?

Don't have a Myspace... I'm ALL Facebook :-) although I hate the new one they have now... grrrrrrr....

50. Favorite concert attended?

Heritage Singers... a decade ago.

51. Would you date an already attached man / woman?

No way!!! Like having my people all to myself!!!

52. Would you sing Karaoke in front of co-workers?

My classmates.... hmmmmm... maybe...

53. Can you shoot pool?

I...a... hmmm... dunno

54. Do you like your siblings’ significant others?

My bro is currently single. well... my other brother has a girlfriend... I'm starting to like her... it'll make him happy :-)

55. Can you drive a stick?

I would love to learn!!! It's kinda sexy ;-)

56. Did you wear white at your wedding?

have never been married...

57. Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?

as pathetic as that is... yes...

58. Ever skip school and spend the day at the beach?

no...

59. Favorite TV show/s?

House and CSI.

61. what are you waiting for at the movies?

Transformers 2

62. What is your favorite holiday?

Christmas

63. Describe your fighting style: drunken master or angry monkey?

drunken monkey maybe... lol... I'm a LOVER not a FIGHTER!!!

64. Piercing?

none... God gave me all the holes I need :=)

65. Tattoos?

nope

66. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

Books-a-Million... LOL :-D joking... maybe Victoria's Secret ;-)

I'm tagging Afrobabe, Neema Divine, Antipop,SolomonSydelle and anyone else not tagged please be my guest and do the tag

Bad Habits

So... all the bad habits I've kicked are somehow finding their ways back under my skin. From the excessive consumption of junk food, to slacking off in school, to biting my nails, they are all coming back!!!

Recently, I've been having really strong urges to eat junk food. I crave chocolate and french fries all day!!! And if that wasn't bad enough I have no desire to study or do anything related to academics. Can you believe that? Me, Nahjaj not wanting to study!!! I live for school!!! Next thing you are gonna hear is I don't have a crush!!!

What is happening to me?!?!?!

It's all coming back to me / Living for today

Have you ever had an old love come back into your life and stir up old feelings? You know this person calls you out of the blue or you meet them in the streets and decide to have lunch 'for old times sake' and before you know they have taken your heart back. Didn't even ask if they could have it. Didn't give you the chance to object. It can be a good thing if you are free, single and disengaged but if you are taken, whew... trouble. Luckily for me I have no one... mon ami doesn't count since technically he's only my friend. For once I'm not even mad about it. Don't get me wrong I'm not over him... at all... but I loving him as my friend, not complicating things with wanting more. I am accepting what is. He'll always have a special place in my heart. Might even be my best man... LOL :-D But I am welcoming back my old love with open arms!!! Been missing him for too long to let him go again!!! And no I'm not jumping of the cliff just yet... I'm taking it slow. Enjoying the ride. I am no longer gonna dream about the future so much that I miss out on the present. Another day isn't guaranteed so I'm living for today :-)

* Soundtrack*

1) Just for Today- India Arie
2) It's all coming back to me - Celine Dion

back to school !!!!!!!

The 2008-2009 school year has begun!

I had orientation this week...all week!!! The first couple days were so high on the boring scale that it might be illegal to talk about here. Yesterday was fine though. Spent all day in the lab which was cool although we were doing basic stuff.

My classmates.... hmmm... they all seem to be pretty cool. No one is stuck up or look boring. The guys.... not bad-looking. In fact, if Homan wasn't around I might have devoted my attention to one in particular but with mon ami there I have no interest in anyone but him. Yep, I'm still crazy about him even though I shouldn't be but does my heart listen?... nope... and even my head agrees that he's special and worthy of my undivided attention and affection. He really is a GREAT guy and a WONDERFUL friend. He looks out for me and makes my life a lot better when I'm not stuttering/talking crap or dropping things because he's looking at me or too close to me. LOL.

My teachers... well... some seem to be lively, others could take a page out of Dr.Brown's book and be louder and more fun. I love teachers that are loud, it will be less likely for me to sleep. I'm worried about staying awake in the classes with the soft-spoken teachers. Might have to start consuming caffeine.

All in all , being the nerd I am (I'm embracing my nerd-like tendencies :-D ) I am looking forward to the beginning of classes.

To everyone that is starting school soon or has started already... GOOD LUCK THIS YEAR!!!

Q&A

He said, "people have this typical view of love, happiness, beauty and the sort, like it has to be defined to be accepted."

What is your view on love, happiness and beauty? Do they have to be defined to be accepted?

Leaving...

And she ventures out of her comfort zone again. Is this it? Or will she come back?

Lord I believe in You

Giving praise to the One who brings me joy. The One on whom I know I can always depend.

Lord I believe in You

Crystal Lewis

Though I can't see Your holy face

And Your throne in heaven above

It seems so far away

Though I cant touch your nail scarred hands

I have a deep and unspeakable joy

That makes my faith to stand

Lord, I believe in You

Ill always believe in You

Though I cant see you with my eyes

Deep in my heart Your presence I find

Lord, I believe in You

And I'll keep my trust in You

Let the whole world say what they may

No one can take this joy away

Lord, I believe

Born from above

You are Gods only chosen one

Youre the one and only true way

To the Fathers heart

You died for all sin

Then you rose and now live again

Conquering death and the grave

So that I might live

Lord, I believe in You

I'll always believe in You

Though I cant see you with my eyes

Deep in my heart Your presence I find

Lord, I believe in You

And I'll keep my trust in You

Let the whole world say what they may

No one can take this joy away

Lord, I believe

and the blessings keep pouring in !!!

My mother met him and SHE LOVES HIM!!!!

My mother is a very sweet person, she's totally awesome and she is VERY protective off her offsprings which can be translated into her being strict.

She has never really met mon ami and of course she was skeptical, ' I have to meet him!' So today was the day. I was so anxious, scared, nauseated. I mean if she didnt like him my life would be bad I'm so crazy about him I dont want to hear that we cant be friends. But she met him and she adores him which is TOTALLY AWESOME!!! They talked for a loooong time and joked ... she even invited him over again, she's even gonna cook for him!!! I'm still in shock. I mean I figured she'd like him just not this much. Too bad I can marry him :-(

All in all... Praise the Lord God Almighty!!!

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

A very HAPPY Squirrel

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!

My summer break hasn't been the best I've had but still it has been great. From the road trips to the belly laughs generated from hanging out with my family to sleeping in, it's been good. Intially I had expected this summer to suck since I had no plans for my free time. I still kinda wish I had a more productive holiday but hey... this works!

Today I got my package from the school I'm supposed to be attending in the fall and I'm sooooooooooooo excited despite the fact that I'll have to wake up at 5 am!!! I'm definitely looking forward to starting school, to being back in the lab. I miss the test tubes, pipettes, and the gloves... ahhhhhh... my happy place second to actual patient care. My schedule is actually very strange and kinda scary but you gotta do what you gotta do, so you can do what you wanna do. I have two classes per day!!! sounds good huh? well..... one if from 8 30-12 and the other is from 1-4 so they'll be looooong. My butt is already hurting just thinking about it. However, whatever pain that will be the result of being in class that long should be relieved by mon ami's presence. LOL. That's just icing on the cake.

Well, I'm off to enjoy the rest of my vacation.

peace and love :-D

A very happy squirrel (Nahja).

20 year old wisdom...

In my twenty years on this earth I have learned a lot of things. There are many things that I've seen, heard and done that were sooooooooooooo cool and that I'd do again in a heartbeat. And there are things there I've seen, heard, and done that I wish never happened and do not wish to have a replay of.

Things that fall in the ' please replay' category:

• Spending many days in elementary school staring at my then best friend Nicholas and having him stare back and smile at me. (He was sooooooooooooooo cute)
• Grade six Christmas concert!!!
• High school (specific days ONLY)
• All the 'moments' Neville and I had :-D
• Homecoming '06.
• My 16th, 18th, 19th birthday.
• Rita, Nyketa and I running around Coastal Georgia Community College acting like kids!!!
• Leadership conference 2006 (I'm still sorry for complaining about the state of the room Rita but it was dirty,and smelly, that was rude, they should've cleaned the room. ooops, still complaing... sorry)
• Shopping with Rita on Friday afternoons.
• Hanging out at the pier and Zuzu's. Oh and of course Wally's world.
• Working at Lung Associates and hanging out with McDreamy at the hospital.
• Organic Chemistry and Genetics class this past Spring.
• The time I spent with Homan admiring his intelligence, laughing at his craziness, and braiding his hair.

(there are so much more but I don't have time to list them...)

Things that fall in the 'DO NOT REPLAY' category:

• Wearing my socks up to knees the first week of high school!!!
• Slipping and sliding in the mud in the 9th grade in front of Ricardo. (talk about embarassing! I had a HUGE crush on the guy)
• The day Hilare and Chris printed the evil love poem claiming it was from me to Ricky and distributed it around the entire school!!! I would never write that crap. I write better peotry than that!!!
• The convo I had with Neville about migrating :-(
• Prom... 'nuff said

During the past two decades I also learned some very important lessons. Here are a few that I'd like to share with you:

• Choose your friends wisely the have a GREAT impact on the person your are and the person you will become.
• Stay close to positive people, people that can help you. Avoid negative people, they will ruin you.
• Set goals, work hard to acheive them and NEVER let anyone tell you can't accomplish them.
• Remember all the compliments you get. Forget the bad remarks.
• Music is goooooood soul food.
• Don't be afraid to love someone.
• Don't be afraid to let someone love you.
• ALWAYS put God first and EVERYTHING else will fall into place.

Finally here are my goals for the next 20 years:

1. Attain a M.D/PhD degree.
2. Be a successful Critcal Care Doctor specializing in Pulmonology.
3. Marry my prince charming (If we find each other...) and have 2 children.
4. Open a school for disadvantaged children where EVERYTHING will be free of cost to them.
5. Write a novel.

BET AWARDS '08

• Usher is the bomdiggity!!! His performance was HOTTTTT!!!!! and he is as SEXY as ever!!!


• I wish rappers would learn more words so they can substitute the curse words.


• NEYO.... ohhhhhhh baby... GROWN and SEXY!!! He's a great songwriter, he can dance and he can sing... Nahja likes :-)


• Alicia Keys' performance was great!!! LOVED how she brought out SWV, En Vogue, and TLC


• It seems like black people think it's ok for them to be racist... I say 'them' because I am not rascist...I think.


• Of course Kanye doesn't thank anyone....


• T Pain and his peeps ROCKED!!! T Pain is da sh!t !!!!!! (no Pain, no gain)


• NEVER COULD HAVE MADE IT...NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT...WITHOUT YOU LORD!!!


• Chris Brown is all grown up!!! I want him to take me down..


• Let's see if Kanye is gonna thank anyone now... yay!!! he does!!! LOL... but of course... he has to 'big up' himself.


• Congrats to AL GREEN, my daddys favorite singer.


• AL GREEN'S performance convinced me I was born in the wrong decade. THAT'S my kinda music!!!!!


• I wanted Soulja Boy Tell 'Em to win the viewers choice award...


• Wasn't really feeling Rihanna but maybe I'm just jealous cuz she has Chris Brown


• Congratulations Mr.Quincy Jones


• YAY!!!! Alicia Keys won best female R&B artist.


• Lil Wayne's performance sucked...

All in all, the awards this year was GREAT!!!!!!!!!!

just saying...

1. Boys SUCK!!! (for now...)
2. Camp Rock... ROCKS!!! (yes... I still watch Disney movies at almost 20)
3. French dominoes is a very nice way to waste time. I spent 7 hrs playing today!!! (blogger needs a life...lol)
4. Little kids are EXTREMELY noisy!!! (I should've known that)
5. Dancing is great exercise. (no exclamation marks)
6. Excessive use of parentheses are annoying aren't they?
7. Lucky number 7 - MY 20th birthday is in 6 days!!!!

SMILING :-D

Seems as though I will receive my ticket out the door (the front door of my house that is). The hospital does need me :-) Feels so good to be needed. LOL.

Shopping is definitely great therapy!!! I love my Mommy (not only because she buys me cute dresses!) -Got a cute dress to show off my very sexy boobs and booty!

Friends are a necessity!!! Thanks to my Rita with whom I had a long convo with yesterday for the first time in weeks and mon ami Homan who just makes me smile by saying 'hey' on AIM, I got it bad...I know,(BTW HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE *MUAH*), I am no longer depressed. Thanks guys!!! Love u both lots!!!!

80 degrees weather is great !!!

My grandparents are coming from Jamaica to spend a couple weeks with us tomorrow!!! They are gonna bring lots of Jamaican food!!! YAY!!!! And my cousin is here from Florida so we have a full house :-)

God bless all songwriters of sweet, sexy, abosultely lovely songs may it be R&B, Neo-soul, other stuff I like or soul food like Gospel.

Thank God for the people that came up with Skype as well. Oh yeah... and the people that came up with blogger.com.

Thank God for my blogworld peeps too!!!

This sounds like a awards show speech....... so to end... Thank you Mom!!! Thank you to my fans!!! Thank You God!!! Goodnight everyone!!!!! *blowing you kisses*

Bored...

So... as you know I'm on vacation from school for the summer, yay :-( I'VE BEEN BORED OUTTA MY MIND!!!! I have offered my services to the local hospital to help out in the lab but I haven't been able to start and now I am hearing there might not be a space for me. WHEN DID PEOPLE START TURNING DOWN FREE LABOR!!! So here I am... bored to tears. My only source of joy so far have been a few good novels and my friends, who by the way I only talk to online!!! Whoever said 'I love my computer cuz my friends live in it' must have had a life like mine. I knew this summer wasn't going to be the 'bombdiggidy' but I didn't think it'd be this bad.

I need something to do before I completely lose my mind.

He is marvelous!!!!

This weekend was really really fun! I went to see my family.. LOL. Actually I went to the zoo. There were so many really cool animals. All different sizes, shapes and colors. The birds had the prettiest colors. The Tucan (fruit loops bird :-D ) had such beautiful colors on its beak, it had the such a human like personality too. There were so many different types of monkeys, and a VERY wide variety of small mammals. There was so much proof of God's existence. I didnt even see everything they had and of course they dont have every creature ever made!!! That experience would make it harder for me to believe that there isn't a God. HE is so marvelous. So talented and creative!!! The animals were the most wonderful and incredible creatures I have ever seen. To God be all the glory!!!